Exile

By Margot Kahn

On Saturday I trolled for places back home.
Home as in the place I was raised,
not that elusive ancestor thing, the soul or—

just the place where my mother set plates
of flank steak in front of me, or left me
with a cardboard box, the frozen trays.

When everything’s up in flames,
I yearn for a yard I know the edge of—
for lightning bugs trapped in a punched-lid jar;

the lip of the brick fireplace where my father sang
his Navy songs, and the kitchen where my mother baked
blackberry pie that bled out across the floor;

the days I drove myself to school and picked myself up,
hotwired the minivan, got felt-up, and learned about loneliness
from a phone attached to the wall;

the place my parents were the first to be born to,
the place I had the privilege of being bored;
the place I had the privilege of leaving.

Here, from my kitchen window, the hills are first
to disappear. Then goes the fence, the garden,
the rutted gravel drive. My lungs hurt just watching it,

reading in sans serif that friends had minutes to flee.
I see the hill behind their house awash in light, ablaze—
a transcendental image for an Instagram age.

She posts it as they’re rushing away to the country
of the displaced—a land I know the scent of,
a language I, too, can speak.


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Tapestries

By Jennifer Schomburg Kanke

Featured Art: red and white floral textile by Sophie Louisnard

The water cooler bitches come and go
talking of hair crimpers and Day-Glo,
shag carpets and avocado-green fridges,
all those little decorative memories
we like to think we share.
Stop before you try to join them,
stop before they give you those weird-ass looks,
before you think you can share your stories too.
Don’t say your mother hung some fugly, old rugs
over fist holes in the doors, trying to get away with
calling them tapestries. They will only focus on the holes.
When they’re from (always), who made them (everyone),
why they never got fixed (fuck you), and not
what hid the holes, not why you’re telling
this all in the first place.

Come find us.

We will tell you we camouflaged our wounds
with Eddie Vedder on the cover of Rolling Stone,
veer off into the time we busted the storm door
when our brother locked us out. We will go
back and forth with laughter. Come share yourself,
all your broken glass and splintered wood,
your rust and warts and mold. We know you
are not looking for (much) sympathy
or some badge-of-honor shock. You are just
looking to tell us who you have been,
who you are, to see and be seen,
to do it this way we do it, we humans here on Earth.


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She Asks Me, Who is Roger?

By Chrys Tobey

Featured Art: Time Lapse Photography of People Walking on Pedestrian Lane by Mike Chai

I could tell her about my yoga teacher, Roger, who wears the cutest shorts,
which I overheard him say were tailored, or when I was five, there was

the dad, I think his name was Roger, of my neighbor I’d play house with until
my mom caught us humping. But really, I could give her a long list of Rogers—

Roger who never reciprocated my love when I was fifteen. Roger who, on our second
date, burped all of “SexyBack.” Roger who stole my money so he could buy me underwear.

There was Roger with the engagement ring that he threw at my head. There was
Roger with his fondness for spanking. Roger with his missing tooth. Roger with his

fake front tooth. One Roger told me, You’re not really a feminist. Another Roger asked,
Are you really a feminist? And Roger from New York who said, You don’t seem bitter

enough to be a feminist. I could tell her about all the pretty Rogers. The first
Roger I married. Or the second Roger. I could tell her about the Rogers I don’t want

to remember—the ones that taught me I should only live on a second floor.
When she asks me, Who is Roger?—because in a text I wrote, Roger; because she is new

to the U.S.—I smile and tell her about truckers and lingo and don’t tell her how when
I see the small scar on her nose, all the Rogers peel away like dead skin.


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Incubus

By Emily Nason

I’ve taken communion in horse troughs
and creeks and off the back of a stamp licked
by the boy I love, and still I have nightmares.
Like this: every person I forgot to send
a thank-you note to brings it up the next time
I see them. Like this: the cicadas haven’t hatched
when they said they would. Years escape us.
Ancestral cattle herding calls, whole choirs
of Ozark harps, cotton looms starting to spin.
Splash of kerosene. Mildewed family photos,
faces burned out. Like this: I’m crouched
in the kitchen, watching my grandmother
throw a jar of Duke’s Mayonnaise against
the wall. And then she mops it up and repeats.
Same jar. I roll the stone up the hill,
and by stone I mean the rendered red roux,
and by hill, I mean the blackened pot.
My grandmother again, rehab parking lot,
threatening to kill herself, backing down
last minute by saying, I wouldn’t do that
to y’all even though you test me.
Like this:
I date a man who buys instant grits.
Like this: Lindsey Graham. Copper chicken
wire of a welt around my thigh, no clue how
it got there, and a roomful of questions.
In the back of the country store, I sit and watch
my legs dangle from thick fishing hooks, two more
fatty thighs to cure and sell. Strawberry Moon.
Sturgeon Moon. Worm Moon. A night sky
with all three. My grandmother wakes me up
to look at them. She reminds me that I’m like her:
last to leave this long party, eyes shucked open.


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Doctor’s Office Behind Plank Country Store, Feet in Stirrups, I Think About My Grandmother’s Hands Deveining Shrimp

By Emily Nason

And I can see them, see her
standing over the kitchen sink,
gray shrimp pinched
and the up-flick of her knife.

                                                                                                       (No stories in this poem,
                                                                                                       Emily. Stay in the room.)

Right. Doctor’s white gloves.
Gardenia white. This is my hand
on your thigh.
Unpruned oleander.
You’re going to feel a pinch.

                                                                                                       (Stay just a little while longer.)

Hot examination room.
Small country clinic with one broken
air conditioner. The doctor sees
retirees and pregnant housewives,
mainly. Once, a man who took
a tree trunk straight to the sternum.

                                                                                                       (He survived, remember?
                                                                                                       It’s not your story to tell.)

I’ve forgotten to take off my gold
hoops. In the corner, nude lace bra
and underwear crumpled
in the chair. A blue jumpsuit—
It has pockets! Pockets!—I wore
that night in Ohio, when I fell
and sprained a wrist bringing
a dozen fresh eggs to a friend,
no carton, just my pockets.

                                                                                                       (Stop. Back to your body, now.)

Another pinch. Give me one big
cough.
Formaldehyde in the veins,
moonshine in the eyes. I’m alive.
From crotch to toes: a cramp.

                                                                                                       (There’s been worse pain.
                                                                                                       Move it along.)

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Sertraline

By Emily Nason

Featured Art: Mid Winter by Pamela Fogg

I am predisposed: toothed gardenia. Just like my mother’s
mother. I ask the doctor what to do. She says, Consult the oracles,

read the tea leaves. Which means, Keep taking your meds.
Which means, Watch who you procreate with. I’m not sure

I’m happier now. I just feel things less. Not quite a numbness,
but a lack. When my dog sees a dog that looks like her, she cocks

her head, as if to say, Huh. Isn’t that something? Smart girl,
but it frightens me that she knows, retains, what she looks like.

I am frightened of a lot of things, but not of what awaits. Side effects:
a comfort or ideation with fresh dirt and ashes. Visiting the family burial

plot, the caretaker tells us, We can stack em six deep. Economical,
I think. My mother asks him to trim the nearby tree, it’s obscuring

her mother’s grave. Two rows down, a marble headstone reads,
Stand back, I’m coming up! Okay. Where are you going to go?


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Widow’s Weeds

By Courtney Huse Wika

Featured Art: Isla Holbox by Pamela Fogg

No one forages here
in the tall grasses and unkempt briars,
except the hollow-boned crows
and me, in widow’s weeds,
dirty nails and knees.

On lunar nights I plant wolfsbane as a ward,
castor beans for joints rusted as hinges,
belladonna for fever,
oleander for the dreams I had of carrying children,
and nightshade as pernicious as my blood.

On the darkest nights, I slip from bed
to pull the snakeroot
by handfuls before it can strike
my lover’s garden,
the one with tenacious vines of honeysuckle,
sun-faced lilies, and sage.

And in the mornings, I swallow pills
like hemlock,
perennial poisons,

and hope they kill
the right part of me.


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Landfall

By Jeremy Griffin

By the time Nicole arrives at the clinic, the parking lot is already full of folks waiting to drop off their pets before hightailing it out of town, out of the path of the hurricane. All morning she’s been battling that crampy twinge in her hand—dystonia, Dr. Epstein calls this, involuntary muscle contractions—and she hoped that she would be able to spend most of today hiding in her office. A foolish hope, considering that all of the pet-friendly hotels within a 100-mile radius have already sold out. Unlocking the front doors, she marshals a smile as the sleepy-eyed clients slump into the lobby with their cat carriers and their leashed dogs.

Inside, she leaves the receptionist to check everyone in while she goes around the building flicking on lights. In the kennel at the back of the building, she feeds and waters the dozen or so animals already boarding and begins taking the dogs outside one by one. Technically, this is a job for the assistants, but as owner Nicole takes a sheepish sort of pleasure in micromanaging. A canopy of clouds hangs low in the sky, the wind already churning ominously. By tomorrow afternoon, the rains will be here, thick and driving. Initial projections had the hurricane cutting west, into the Gulf of Mexico. Perhaps Nicole shouldn’t have been surprised when the projections abruptly shifted, the storm now expected to hook northeast, right through the Carolinas. That’s her life in a nutshell, isn’t it? A sudden change in trajectory, something to brace for. You’re just feeling sorry for yourself, her mother might scold, caustic old bird that she was, and she would be right. But her mother is long gone, and so who cares if Nicole is feeling a little morose this morning? It’s her clinic, she can feel whatever she wants.

She waits until all the other dogs have been walked before taking out the rottweiler that Animal Control dropped off yesterday. It was found near the airport, a scrawny female with patchy fur and a missing chunk of ear. Upon being hustled into the van, the animal bit one of the officers on the hand. “Fucker cost me three stitches,” the fellow said when he dropped the dog off, holding up his bandaged hand for Nicole to see.

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San Francisco Bay View, November 2018

By D. R. Goodman

On a night when something like fog obscures the city,
and dry trees loom through heavy wisps of gray,
I’m stopped, and stare. Faint orange lights shine through
at intervals in a breathless span of blankness
where any other night, the simple darkness
would glitter as if with pearls. This streetlamp, too,
is strange in its ashen haloed light, the way
it burns my eyes, and sweeps me through with pity.

That campfire smell, as we at first mistake it,
grows acrid—treated lumber, metal rail,
scorched cars, life’s treasures, all they had to show,
now airborne from a hundred miles away.
We’re stardust. On the airwaves, just today,
some rock star physicist proclaimed it so.
It burns my lungs. Bewildered, I inhale
the dust of those who ran and didn’t make it.


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Moon Facts

By Dan Pinkerton

Featured Art: Nocturne by Pamela Fogg

Amid the purr of two-stroke engines
the surf belched little turtles onto the sand
each grain of which was composed

in a Taiwanese factory. The dizzying
ocean-borne scent of unleaded,
overhead the moon a porcelain fixture,

trees filament-filled, shatterable.
The man in the bar drew back the corners
of his handkerchief to reveal the egg

which when touched to your ear
produced a bomb-like ticking. Fry it, bury it,
entrust it to a museum? Humidity

curled along the coast, courtesy
of Lockheed Martin’s great turbines,
synthetic palms swaying and groaning.

In the hotel room sex was administered
intravenously, files corrupted.
We were preoccupied, that was our error code.

As teens we would wander the vacant lots
seeking out weeds where the asphalt buckled.
Flowers were a stretch. Even a dandelion would’ve

stopped our hearts. The Earth had not been
retrofitted, the bodies in orbit not yet
repurposed. Our ancient moon appeared

bedraggled, a door hanging by one hinge.
The exiled part of us kept gleaming
even though cold to the touch.


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Palm Beach International Airport

By Roy Bentley

Featured Art: Pink Flamingo on Green Grass Field by Guillaume Meurice

In the gift shop across from the ATM and
the Currency Exchange / Florida Lotto window,
and rather than succumb entirely to the tease
of the bobble-headed Plexiglas pink flamingos
and conch shell key chains, like the tourists who
simply hand over ATM-crisp twenty-dollar-bills
or a platinum American Express card, I’m passing
on everything—the U of F ashtrays in the shape
of open-mouthed, palm-frond green alligators—
except for handpainted greeting cards depicting
ibises preening in Key West. I won’t apologize
for being a sucker for wading birds or Key West.
By the magazines and half-price hardback novels
the wisdom of shrink-wrapped 2010 calendars
shouts that NASCAR is metaphor for what it takes
to live in the Sunshine State—Rubbin’ Is Racin’
as if bent fenders and near-death collisions and
concussions are to be expected, a part of the price.
Think of all the lives intersecting in this place.
Think of the terrified Midwesterners on their way
to anywhere warm to drink a piña colada. I’m here,
waiting for someone, so I toss change into a fountain.
The fountain has a white lion’s head spewing a stream
of local Palm Beach County tap water. I’m wishing
for a better life. More money. More inexplicable joy
as destination, which it is. I throw in shiny quarters
because I know better than to be cheap with luck,
though nobody’s sure there is anything like God
or an afterlife, never mind that we walk around
in Paradise, which is always under construction
and offers both long- and short-term parking.


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Ditch

By David Thoreen

On the side of the house I dug a ditch
than ran the length of my life. When
it rained, I chipped away with adze
and spade, then lined the whole with fabric:
the wool suit I wore for first communion,
my Batman costume from fifth grade
Halloween, the satin bowling shirts
I rescued from an uncle’s cedar chest
after he died (June, the summer I turned
thirteen), a drawer of cotton tees, and the
pale shirts and rich silk ties I purchased
for a job that swallowed my twenties
like an anxious and ravening other, the tux
in which I married, even a sweatshirt
that said Des Moines, in cursive. All this
was stretched along the ditch. I threw in
the newspapers I’d delivered—three years’
worth—and the time I’d devoted to folding them,
each already beyond penance or prayer.

I pitched in my last confession, a couple
of car accidents, the week in the ICU
after my appendix burst. Good riddance
to the dances where I got drunk, the hangovers
that followed. It was hard to let go of the night
I stood on a golf course in Mason City, Iowa,
looking up at the Milky way, a night that was warm
and smooth in my fingers, but in the end, I dropped
it in too, along with the day my son was born,
and the light in my wife’s eyes as she held him.
I covered it all with a layer of leaves, and over that
rakes seven tons of crushed stone. Anyone
passing this edge of arborvitae would see
a simple path, leading from here to there.


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Prayer to Mercury

By Justin Jannise

The moon, full the night before he died.
The neighbor’s old golden retriever approached the cyclone fence,
               sat and watched the nurses enter and leave,
               turned silver
in moonlight, and howled
                                                        its long, sad howl.

Fourth-of-July gunshots echoed through morning.
The pact I’d made to keep myself at home glued to the phone’s abrupt news
               wavered,
and I allowed a man in
where I vowed no god, after you, would enter.

Your planet in retrograde,
                                                      twisting letters around:

I told Christine how I’d taken to staring at still flies
               on museum websites—
camera light bouncing off the dimpled flesh of a pear,
dotted on long ago by a Renaissance sponge and sprinkle of salt.

I told Emily I’d sent off for a new gun
instead of a new rug

                             —the click of the revolving chamber—

                                             the floor, where I told her I’d keep it,
                                                              opening a tile to reveal a hidden drawer.

Repast at ten this morning, my sister texted,
and then overrode the autocorrect:
                                                                   He past.

He passed. (Erased, the table I’d pictured
               laid out with aluminum dishes, gravy boats,
                              and heirloom pitchers, fogged and full.)

My mother, silent for hours after that.

Me, afraid to call her.

You, who have become lifelike,
               give me a word for the slow death of 70 years of memory,
                              so slow we all got sick
               of watching it rot,

                             watching ourselves flicker from talking dolls
                             into irrecoverable shadow.

He, past.

               Change dead into dear. Change hated into heated.

Give me back the gold I was promised
               when I agreed to try to live
                              as long as promisable.


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Violent Devotion

By Gwen Mullins

Two weeks ago, over a dinner of fried chicken, purple-hull peas, and buttered corn, Red McClendon’s family talked about the girl, Vera Martin, who disappeared one night after she left the Shop-Rite on Sand Mountain. Red’s son Jackson worked part-time as a bagboy at that same store, but he claimed he couldn’t remember if he’d been at work the night the girl went missing.

Red saw the girl’s picture on the news, a curvy young woman with thick, dark hair that hung in braided ropes down her back, her skin smooth and tan as river stone. Something about the way she tilted her head in the news photograph reminded him of Rosie, his own daughter. Red did not think too much about Vera Martin’s disappearance at first. He, like most of the folks he knew, assumed she would turn up in one of the trailers pocked with scattershot at the foot of the mountain, strung out on meth, or maybe in a Marietta hotel room with a man old enough to be her father, or her teacher. Red’s own sister ran off with three different boys before she even finished high school.

“Jean Anne always came back, after her money ran out or when she got tired of eating frozen burritos from the Chevron,” Red said.

Red’s wife Loretta pursed her lips, busied herself with grinding pepper over her dinner. She always got quiet when Red brought up the less savory aspects of his past.

“But Vera Martin was a nice girl, from a good family,” Rosie said.

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Fetus Eggs

By Annie Trinh

Featured Art: “Vessel” by Byron Armacost

This is you: a thirty-year-old mother who had a miscarriage, a wife whose husband left her, a daughter who steps into a medicine shop and looks at the walls of herbs. You press your fingers against glass jars, hoping to find a solution for a successful birth. A bag of maca. A bundle of chasteberries. A box of cinnamon. You take these medicines to the owner, asking if these plants will help with fertility or make your body strong enough to handle carrying a child. And this is your savior: a Vietnamese woman in her seventies who has wrinkles around her eyes and tells stories of her survival through the Indochina and Vietnam Wars. A mother who understands the importance of obtaining children. A sister who sees your pain as you push the herbs in her direction, wondering how much you need. Your savior tells you that you don’t need these herbs—they won’t help, and she goes into the back room and then comes out with a wooden box. Your savior opens it up and snuggled within the purple cloth are twelve large eggs. Brown and spotted with freckles. You place an egg into your palm, cradling it as if it is ready to sleep. Soft heartbeats thump against your fingers.

Eat these duck fetuses, your savior says, and it will help you get what you want.

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Me/n

By Sarah Suhr

He rides a horse // by the fire station
______in Falls City // to slip his resume
into the soft hand // of a secretary—this happens
______before he says, // You carry yourself
in an idyllically classy way // I’d be proud
______ to have you // on my arm. _____ I only think
of alliteration: // of belt buckle—
______the one he wears // while singing karaoke.

                                                               I take my fishing pole to Beaver Lake
                                                               after work and a blackbird squawks
                                                               a breathless death song at the roadside.
                                                               She has no friends circling the bruised
                                                               sky, so I sit in the gravel beside her, wait
                                                               for night to bleed in between the stars.

On Hinge, a man miles // of mountains away
______sends me a message: // I’ve been staring at your
clavicle for hours
. // And I consider all the bones
______of women beneath // the earth’s surface—
how this man’s bootsoles // must sound against rocks.

                                                               I enter the chicken coop with a baseball bat
                                                               and basket as my mother has coached.
                                                               The bat I one-handedly swing at
                                                               a buckish cock kicking up chicken shit
                                                               and feathers. I don’t intend to hit him—
                                                               just snatch the eggs and run, but I see
                                                               the scrawny hen he plucks to patches,
                                                               and I wonder about the sunglasses
                                                               my mother wears indoors.

My ex says, I do // more than most men,
______or here’s a pillow // perfect for suffocation—take it,
put it on your face. // My grandfather pours the concrete
______foundation of his house, // my stepdad rebuilds
cars and cooks dinner, // my uncle drives his kids
______to school after working the night // shift. What’s
more than most men? // What’s more than most women?

                                                               The goose’s head is still on the chopping
                                                               block. Her headless body runs around
                                                               the yard—blood coming from her neck
                                                               like a slow sprinkler head. She rushes into
                                                               the Bermuda grass at my ankles. My ankles
                                                               itch—and, for not crying, I am tough.

Another Hinge connection. // This time by phone—
______You’d look great on my // motorcycle, he says.
I’m also smart, I say. // Yeah? Well, you’d still
______look great on my motorcycle.
// This feels
like the definition of female // or cartwheel or dog chasing tail.

                                                               In the potboil is a cow’s slick tongue—
                                                               rigid and rolling in its fatty dross,
                                                               each impurity clumped together
                                                               like an inkblot or divination. O Oracle!
                                                               O Ladle! Speak to me of the sour
                                                               stink in this house. Help me remember
                                                               the soft ears of a calf.


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Ordinary Ode

By Michael Lavers

Sure, Horace, praise the ordinary—
milkweed days, a cow, the crackling
static of the swaying grain. Say yes,
the way the cut hay steams in sun is good,
the way the dahlias bloom in rain.
Say that a hundred shades of dusk
armor the trout, that a pear’s full burden
suits the bough. But when the fire
jumps, or if the fever stays,
when sorrows blacken in the brain
like mold—how could it matter
that some wet grass shone? That grapes
grow sweet? That birches shake in wind,
gilding the new graves with their gold?


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Unvocation

By Michael Lavers

Featured Art: smokey lady by Byron Armacost

He made a poem and began it thus:
Muse, tell me nothing! Keep quiet, Muse!
Jules Renard

Muse, tell me nothing! Keep quiet, Muse!
Not that you visit much, or would entrust me
with the grand advancements of the true and beautiful.

But just in case you have some scrap for me,
some local insight or a meager rhyme,
in case you wanted to drop by and put

the coffee on, and light a cigarette, and set your
sandaled feet up on my desk, and give detached
dictation, don’t. Don’t even think about it.

It’s no use telling me the purple buntings
are back, or how the horses down the road
steam after rain, or that two men are felling

pines over on Locust Lane, their careful cuts
inspiring some ode about the marriage
of form and function, muscle and grace.

Pester the poet laureate instead, or if
she’s scribbling already, visit Frank, my neighbor,
whose proclivity to mow the lawn late after dark

reveals a visionary’s knack for following
one’s own strange rules, no matter the judgment
of others. Pick anyone but me. Corner a dog,

or crawl into a cave, whisper to scorpions.
Or better still, stay quiet. Hey, don’t roll
your eyes like that. Don’t argue beauty

has its own use outside usefulness.
No, if you must speak, make it practical,
teach me to caulk the bathroom tile,

or judge others on a curve. But if it’s poetry
you have in mind, I’ll pass. Don’t tell me
that I’m going to die, and who knows when,

and therefore must put down the way
the pink light floods the valley like a wave,
then disappears. Shut up about the fleeting

beauty of the world—I get it. All things fade.
Just tell me what I can control, teach me
a trade, like felling trees: how to make sure

they fall just how and when I say: no sudden
turn, no frills, no mysteries, no doubts.
Only a simple line. Only a hard clear sound.


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Three Buttered Muffins

By Michael Lavers

Featured Art: smokey man by Byron Armacost

Mr. ———, who loved buttered muffins, but durst not eat them
because they disagreed with his stomach, resolved to shoot himself;
and then he eat three buttered muffins for breakfast, before shooting
himself, knowing that he should not be troubled with indigestion.

—Boswell

I want to ask poor Mr. ——— why, if life’s
so bad, he paused to savor them at all? But I
know why. How could the scent that spirals
up the stairs not sway him, for the moment,
to put down the gun, and come, and break
a muffin open, watch the steam spill out?
To wedge fresh butter in each porous hinge?
To want, for once, to live one moment longer:
there are muffins, after all. And here is butter
catching candle-light, sighing its soft glissando
down the spongy muffin-flesh, hinting
that joy, though soft and all-too solvent, still
anoints some moments with its glossy smear:
joy in the mint-flecked ruminations of the cow
at milking time, the greasy fingers of the girl
who sets her pail of white froth down and lies
under the ilex boughs and weeps over some boy,
then in a minute gets back up, and wipes
her cheeks, shakes out her thatch-flecked hair;
not that she knows some pleasure’s only felt
because it ends, that it cannot be held, raised up
like curds of butter that her mother calls forth
from the churning chaos like fermented light.
Not that. She just remembers there are muffins
waiting for her, too, back in the house, and when
they’re gone, maybe some milk. Maybe an apple.
Maybe, since it’s not impossible, some cheese.


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November Elegy

By Michael Lavers

You’re gone, and in the season you loved best,
when lamps go on at six, then five, then four,
and you’d rush to the lake, eager to test

the ice, let down your bait. The coat you wore
for years, scale-stained, hangs in the closet still,
a great dumb fish. You’re not you anymore,

and so won’t need it there, over whatever hill,
out on what lake there is, to stand above
a chiseled hole where lines and snowslush spill

into the green and quiet parlors of
a shadow world, and feel the poor flesh heaving
as the line twangs, tugging at your glove.

To peer down, breathless, changed, but grieving
at the cold hard brilliance of the living.


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The Sisters Jeppard

By George Choundas

My cousin married a woman who was an only child. Her mother had two sisters. These aunts had no children of their own.

The three sisters all treated this woman, my cousin’s wife, as their daughter. In her youth she was dandled and spoiled and trophied. The three sisters were her regents, she their queen. This is all from my cousin. I didn’t know her when she was growing up. Neither did he. They went to the same middle school, my cousin and his wife, but they ran with different sets of kids. They got genuinely acquainted only a couple of years ago, his mother bumping into her mother at Lord & Taylor. He knew the family dynamic from bits and pieces: things she told him, things friends and relatives told him, not being blind.

She grew up to be an engaging person, and thoughtful. This I can report. But also moody, and prone to self-involvement, and fond of spending money and nursing wounds and spending money to nurse wounds. She saw catastrophe in the merest challenges. In all the time I knew her she never asked me a question.

She laughed rarely, never at things I said. Once I suggested she come up with a new origin story for the grandchildren. They would be like, What’s Lorden Tailor?, and she’d be like, A store at the mall, and they’d be like, What’s a mall?, and of course no matter what she said they wouldn’t get it, Retail? What’s a retail?, et cetera, and unless her grandchildren were French absurdists this infinite regression would not satisfy. That’s what I said, French absurdists and infinite regression, and she gave me a look you give orphans with rabies.

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Great

By Emily Blair

Featured Art: Fairy Cottage by Byron Armacost

On Facebook, I call everything great
with multiple exclamation points,
even a meeting. Great used to just mean
very, very large. Incredible, fantastic, amazing,
are the words I use for a poem, a painting,
a robot from outer space.

So what can I say about the cardinal
who makes a perfect landing on the tippy-top
of the bright pink cherry tree next door to my mother’s house.
He sings cheer cheer cheer what what what
as if he were the only personified bird in the world.
He sings cheer-a-dote cheer-a-dote-dote-dote
as if we’ve never heard a song like that
bursting forth from a bright red bird,
turning the air behind him bluer, airier.

This would make a good desktop background
if I had a camera, but I don’t.
My mother puts her arm around me and says,
“We’ll remember.” A mother’s loving wisdom,
more poetry Kryptonite! I mean, obviously, she’s right,
but still you won’t catch me talking about this later,
how for a vertiginous moment we all hold a meeting
like the Superfriends in the Hall of Justice:
the cardinal, the sky, the tree, my mother and me.

The universe depends on us—
the cat hiding in the hedge,
the squirrels scrapping over sunflower seeds,
my mother’s haphazard plantings,
the neighbors who can be seen moving
about their kitchen through the window,
their immaculate lawn, their silver gazing ball
on its pedestal, summing up
the whole shining spectacle.

It’s cheer-a-dote cheer-a-dote-dote-dote
It’s wheet wheet! wheet!!
It’s great.


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Pomegranate

By J.C. Scharl

“My heart is like a pomegranate”
as a simile seems a little simplistic
these days (even the meter beats
too neatly to seem true)
but nonetheless
there’s something to it:
how a pomegranate cracks
and bleeds a little when opened,
no matter how gentle your hands
and how a few seeds spill out
like little dreams, smoldering crimson
as coals around a dark core.
How more seeds cling
to the membrane in a strangled
Fibonacci order, so determined
to hold their place that each
is a little misshapen. How
at the deep recesses of the fruit,
so deep it is nearly the bottom,
there is a bad patch,
the underbelly of a faint bruise
on the outer skin,
where a brown ooze festers,
leaking its slow poison.


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An Answer Without a Question

By Robert Cording

If he were alive, he might have shrugged
and said, things happen for no reason,
but he wasn’t, he was only my son
in a dream, where he found me
sitting in the woods trying to understand
his death. The light looked
as if it were coming from below not above,
rising up out of the ground,
the way darkness first spools around
the trunks of trees and then climbs higher.
I was so happy to be speaking with him,
but, in the middle of what I was saying,
he disappeared. I kept sitting where I was,
as if he’d return again, but I knew
nothing else was going to happen.
When I woke, I had that feeling
I often have when getting into bed
of both dread and the possibility of relief.
I was still partly in the dream, and I felt
he was like a god, utterly removed,
and not knowable any longer.
Shaking, I sat up and tried to focus on
the larches outside feathering the wind,
and a sliver of moon that caught and released
a scrim of fast-moving clouds. I breathed in
the smell of the grass I’d mowed
that afternoon, then rolled toward my wife
whose skin was cool to my touch. Far off
in the woods, I heard the sense-startling
yips and bawls of a pack of coyotes.
All of it came to me in a wave of sensations
impossible to put into words and yet, oddly,
felt like a gift, something like an answer
to a question I could not remember asking him.


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Koi Pond: Failed Meditation

By Robert Cording

I just wanted to sit, shut my eyes,
tilt my face to the sun, and try not to think,
but the koi, insistent, unappeasable,
crowded to my end, the water roiling
with their need, and, when I opened my eyes,
I saw them lift their bulbous heads,
making sounds with their rubbery, barbeled lips
as if they were gasping for air.
When I shut my eyes again
because I did not want to see, I saw
the little outdoor fireplace on my son’s deck,
embers still burning. The October day
had not yet come into being,
the light anomalous, something between
night and morning. Inside, on the floor
of his living room, my son was dead.

His wife had waited with his body
until my wife and I arrived.
We lay next to him, touched his hair,
his forehead, his cheeks, his lips and chin—
and then I heard myself
trying to tell him we were there, we were
with him, we loved him,
but my words were more like moans
than words, every word sounding
its helplessness. When I opened my eyes,
there were the koi, their too-small pond
swirling with color—white, yellow,
black and white, gold, red and white—
all of them entangled, straining against
each other, mouths agape, turning
and turning in their net of water.


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A Fox

By Ted Kooser

Featured Art: Fox by Emi Olin

I saw a red fox stepping in and out
of the shadows of tall granite stones
in a cemetery’s oldest section, fur
flaring as she entered each patch
of sun, though her feet and the tip
of her tail were too darkened by dew
to be set alight. She was quite small
but in her presence the stones forgot
their names. Above her the canopy
was respectfully opening oak by oak
to light her way, though she offered
no sign that she expected any less.
I couldn’t move for fear she’d stop
and fix me with those eyes that had
already stopped everything there,
the headstones, the plastic flowers,
I, too, now breathless as I watched
her pass along that long, long hall,
a flame reflected in its many doors.


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Doves in Morning Fog

By Robert Cording

Featured Art: Cloud Head by Byron Armacost

Six A.M. and nothing here but fog
and an impotent sun-god
trying to scissor the fog into pieces,
a little blue patch here, another there.
Then the windows completely misted,
making shadows of whatever
flies by outside. I am sitting with my sorrow
and a cup of tea behind windows
I cannot see through. I’m waiting
to see the pair of doves
I have been listening to as if they are
some type of meditative exercise
to focus myself on the present moment.

I admit, I like being unable to see,
and I like forgetting myself,
if only for a brief time,
taken up by the doves’ call and response—
insistent, relentless—in the live oak
I know is outside my window.
I still cannot see the doves, or the tree,
except for its charcoal-like outlines.
Most likely I am hearing my own sadness
over my son’s death, three years now,
in the doves’ tiresome moans.

But then two palm trees, visible
just this moment, shake out
the morning’s dampness in the first breeze,
as if their raspy rattle can clear my day.
The doves, with their clerical collars
and their who, whoo-whoo, keep up their inquiry,
not letting go of that old question: just who is
sitting here, custodian of an empty mug,
whoever he once was now someone else,
holding on to what is gone, the collared doves
flying off as the fog lifts and another
Florida day, exactly like yesterday, heats up.


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Everett Avenue Facing East

By David Gullette

I have spent years shying away from this poem
this poem in which I try to capture a single gesture of my father’s—

November 1967—a “berry aneurysm” has exploded in my brother’s skull
so I fly down to Raleigh and spend the night in the room
that became mine after our sister went off to college

Early next morning I hear the front door open
and go to the window
my father is leaving the house
I signal him to wait

We drive straight out Everett for the hospital
unspeaking
as we near Cameron Village the sun
peeks over the roof of Sears

And he takes his right hand off the wheel
and palm up lifts it toward the sun . . .

Even as I watch him I know there is more going on here than
“The world breaks our hearts and the indifferent sun simply
goes on doing what it has to”

More than
“So begins the first day without my younger son”

More than
“My older son is with me, together we bear witness to an iron law”

Dance is the art I know least
but I do love to watch a skilled dancer slowly revolve
and tilt his torso
and lift a hand to make a gesture toward the other dancer across the stage
and if you ask me to tell you what that hand is saying . . .

I was right to dread this poem


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The Unnaming

By Hadara Bar-Nadav

Featured Art: CV VII: Facial Nerve by Emi Olin

My father who named me will never
               again call my name in this life

He eats the earth and eats,
               silt filling his throat

A little door of light at the head
               of his headstone

His name chiseled in and the date
               his name ended

Born inside a strange language, not even
               his vowels exist

Assemblage of letters one does not speak
               like the true name of God

Prayer is a voice worn paper-thin, drifting
               across the dirt

The bright word of him—entire
               alphabet of loss


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Swamp Lunch

By John Hazard

In Florida’s parks and preserves, the trails are often popular on Sundays, so I’m not surprised to see twenty or more humans standing in a semicircle to stare at something. Soon I see it’s a large wading bird, but I don’t recognize the markings. It’s probably a juvenile with temporarily strange features—maybe a black-crowned night heron? More serious birders would know. Or it could be an immature great blue heron, probably the best-known wading bird, and the adults are elegant creatures indeed. Apparently I’ve caught this youngster in an awkward phase of his development.

Of course, the young heron doesn’t care what his human label is, especially at this moment—he’s just caught a crab and can’t decide how to eat it. He drops his catch, then casually jabs at it, more curious than hungry. Lying on the damp sand, the crab squirms in slow motion. It will do him no good to strain for escape, but he’s right to try, isn’t he? For the sake of nobility, the beauty of struggling against destiny? Although neither creature wanted the encounter, both have accepted their assigned roles. Even the gods, however, can’t make them act with enthusiasm. 

Again and again the bird pokes lazily—until his stiletto beak thrusts, then thrusts again, and suddenly he’s a boxer, jabbing and jabbing, in command, prepping for the knockout. He’s finally found his anger. Poke, poke . . . stab.

He dangles the crab at the end of his beak and stares outward like a seer projecting his vision beyond the swamp. Or is he just showing off? He raises the impaled crab skyward, then drops him again and stabs him again, this time running him through. He raises him toward the sky once more, as if to wait for a sign from above, or at least applause from the human audience. The bird acts as if he’s got all day, acts as if stunning the crab has been his manly plan all along and not a random gesture. 

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Saturday

By Ruth Baumann

I drive 45 minutes to send a man
five states away photos of a sunset
over an alligator-speckled wildlife refuge.
He is a bright possibility, & he breaks
the tired in me. We talk about how nice
it is to be so small. I stand & stare
into the high waters as they night-blacken,
think how beautiful it is to not struggle.
Occasionally there’s a vague splash, but nothing
clashes in the water. Nothing happens,
which might be a stand-in for everything
true happening, because as I start to drive home,
darkness folding like a loose tarp over the earth,
I do that thing where I think in love.


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epitaph for time travel

By Amy Bagwell

when after thirty years my father
tells me not a day has gone by when
I have not thought of you I reply:  

        1. that’s a lot of nots.
        2. do you think this is a movie? do you think you’re the star?
        3. saying that is like wearing black to a funeral. it doesn’t prove anything.

& he might be speaking again
when I get in my car & back over
my phone on purpose & drive

to one of those nightmare stores
full of bright teeth & paperwork
& devices with new numbers that

fathers don’t have which is unfair
since it was me who called him
after thirty years which is the kicker


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Amends

By Samantha Padgett

Featured Art: Plague Brunchers by Jon Ward

You asked for my forgiveness six months ago
in the parking lot of a Cracker Barrel—

just two sentences scrawled on a 3×5 notecard
you didn’t bother to memorize. Alone

in the kitchen, I drink a four-dollar bottle of rosé
for your eleventh month sober. Outside,

the aluminum bones of my mom’s
wind chimes clatter together

like the beer bottles under my seat
as you drove me to soccer practice.


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Dark Forces

By Tara Orzolek

Apparently there are dark forces that are trying to mess with the cosmos.
I learn that & I learn that a boy I slept with out of pity in college is about to become famous.
I try to not send anything bad through him via the cosmos like brain waves with spikes.
Like a shark attack or something traveling invisible through space-time directly to his well-being.
I try to be good this time.
I try to manage my accounts & wipe myself clean of spam & triple xxx junk.
I try to think good thoughts & procure good karma.
It will reign over me like a rainbow & I will strip naked to soak up all the good things
I get from these good thoughts.
Lower blood pressure & a spot in the afterlife etc.
But I strain to not let some bad molecules slip out & cause chaos.
Cause chaos for what?
Nothing really because he doesn’t remember me or does probably but doesn’t think about me.
The sex was mediocre & although inexperienced I knew it could be better than that.
That it could feel like a bed closing up on you.
Surrounding you from all sides & bulleting liquid pleasure into your brain.
A multicolored injection of happiness.
It was in a sleigh bed.
The ceiling was above the sleigh bed & it was peeling.
I could not see the cosmos from there.


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kind of

By Dylan Ecker

Featured Art: Yawn by Ella Johnson

one of those no cardio
kind of days one of those
Crazy On You by Heart
kind of days one of those

why does the word cardioid
look fiercely snackable kind of
days one of those kind of
cadmic kind of cream puff

cloud cover kind of days one
can’t contain one of those
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decryption kind of days one of
those bilk the Mario Kart blue
shell but fall victim to joycon

drift one of those okay wait
a second forgot to articulate
kind of days one of those
you could’ve sworn perfect

haircuts until coming home
crying at sunset wind chimes
recite secrets the car smells
like cardamom you call mom

Hello? I am such cursed crap
comfort me if you can be kind
cool down quit coffee I can’t
even kind of kind of days


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Before He Made Love He Made Light

By David Lerner Schwartz

The reverend kept talking about Christ, how he’d died for this and that. Seated
in the farthest pew, I only thought about the dancer. I both wanted her and
wanted to ruin things. We hadn’t boned yet. Did that make me a sinner or not?

My days were listless—I had just moved to a new city to teach history. I cried
most mornings. After the gym. Something about lifting weights, or hurting. A
release? Or a punishment. I don’t know. I guess people believe we can be saints.
I have blond hair and blue eyes, and when had that hurt anybody? I could
probably at once punch my own face gone and raise an abused kid into a happy
adult. What matters deep inside is a rolling boil.

The campus church was small but beautiful. Since it was an Episcopal high
school, the faculty and students were required to attend each morning. I woke
up early and got into a routine: the gym, a good cry, chapel, class. Toward the
end of the sermon, I studied the old stained-glass skylight behind the cascading
wooden beams. They’d put a mosaic bird in one of the panes for a kid who had
died. Apparently, at his funeral, a swift flew into the church and perched on his
casket. Jesus.

The organ, then the reverend again. He had such a shitty voice. This was a
world of too much talent, so why did he have to sing? He strained when he had
to go high, and his voice had little bass, so it got swallowed by the low notes. We
ended on “Come Down, O Love Divine.” I waited until the third verse, which
was my favorite. The first two were bullshit. My only friend here—Carter, an
English teacher—agreed, and we locked eyes across the sanctuary. “And so the
yearning strong,” I sang, “with which the soul will long, / shall far outpass the
power of human telling.”

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Prairie Box

By Peter Krumbach

Featured Art: North Hero Barns by Pamela Fogg

Sometimes we pretend we are both angels
and phone each other, sitting in the same room,
the doors and windows of our prairie box
open wide, the field crows hopping in.

We step out to the northern porch to fall
asleep on the swing. She reminds me I am no
longer an angel. I remind her of the chic
pet monkey of Frida Kahlo.

We peruse our daily dishonesties. To lie
convincingly, she says, one must hone the craft
of emotional authenticity, the conviction
we spread falsehood to protect the truth.

The day slips on. Before we know it, sweet
wine’s before us. Duck liver on freshly
singed bread. The heavens thunder.
We make marvelous errors.


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Last Request

By Theresa Burns

Featured Art: The Path by Pamela Fogg

When I’m dying and they come
for the last request, I may pass
on a sumptuous meal, ask instead
to ride the bus down Fifth Avenue
on a day like this one. June sky
a Looney Tunes blue, the skins
of sycamores peeling to fresh.
I’ll start in the nineties, where if I squint
I can be in the 16th arrondissement—
so many mansard roofs sluiced
with pigeon droppings, X-rays in trim
Chanel suits headed out for tea. Let me
ogle the Guggenheim again, imagine
the planets in Klee paintings
tracing ellipses on the hive walls.
In the row ahead: a black pirate-
hatted woman, spitting image of Marianne
Moore, a good witch to have
near the end. Let our driver worry
about four o’clock traffic. And the wait
as we kneel for the wheelchaired
passenger to embark. Me, I’m in no hurry.
Make as many stops as you like. I love
these big dirty windows, the perfect
height of my perch. Look Marianne,
no hands!
Only the one writing down
on an envelope—  
                              Be an eye at the end,
not a brain, or a heart.
Just a muscle that records what it’s seeing:
gingko, street lamp, line.


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The Lady Whispering Hush

By Pichchenda Bao

In college, I helped to paint a mural of the bedroom in Goodnight Moon for a local daycare center. “Oooh, a classic,” everyone said. But for me, it was the first time I had ever encountered that whimsical book. One more thing to add to my running list of things I was missing from my childhood. One more thing that put me slightly out-of-sync with my U.S.-born-and-bred peers.

I would like to insist that my childhood was ordinary and suburban. My parents drove me to violin lessons. I was a youth football cheerleader for a season. By the time I was in elementary school and learning how to read, there was ample food on the table, a house with a backyard, and all the attendant comforts that went with such stability. I spoke English well, and so did my parents. But buried under the getting-on of every day, Cambodia and all we lost there throbbed like an unhealed wound.

Still, I don’t remember Cambodia. I was born out of the aftermath of the Khmer Rouge. When I was a few months old, my mother carried me out of the country. She didn’t have to abandon me, she likes to tell people, because I never cried on the journey. We reunited with my father in the refugee camp completely by chance, and eventually arrived in the U.S. with all our belongings stuffed inside a large plastic bag emblazoned with the logo of the resettlement agency.

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When The World’s Worst Readers Met The World’s Worst Children

By Marcia LeBeau

I gave birth to two reluctant readers. Not that they won’t read or don’t like being read to, it’s just that books are a hard sell. From the beginning, my well-loved copy of Beatrix Potter’s Apply Dapply Nursery Rhymes was of no interest to them. Sweet storybooks, classic and contemporary, with simple narratives and obvious morals didn’t hold their attention either. Believe me, I tried.

I could sometimes get a Shel Silverstein poem in under the radar without much backlash and Mo Willems was more than tolerated. Most of the time, though, my sons would slide off my lap and run to something more exciting, like a backhoe pushing gravel from one side of our street to the other. You might think Good Night, Good Night, Construction Site would have done the trick, but no. This was not the cozy, glowing realm of parent-child bonding I had imagined.

While I didn’t want to subscribe to a gender binary, I heard from children’s authors that, most often, the kids who aren’t interested are the boys. The ones who shout out from the back of the bookstore, “Reading is boring!” and bust out their Matchbox cars. I also heard from a librarian that kids don’t know nursery rhymes anymore. None. So, I begrudgingly put poetry on hold, but I wouldn’t give up on storybooks. I just had to go a little further afield than expected.

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Worth the Wait

By Jared Harél

I don’t remember being read to as a child. My parents were good ones—doting and thoughtful—so perhaps I was, but nothing comes to mind. In fact, I recall only three books in my childhood home, each a disregarded fixture, like doormats or drapes. In the living room, there was a mass-market paperback of The Firm. Its cover depicted some poor suit dangling over marble green, his brown attaché case just out of reach. Upstairs, a cream-colored copy of Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus sat on my mom’s nightstand, half-buried beneath coupons and ancient receipts. Lastly, we owned a massive, musty brick of Shakespeare’s Collected Plays I later learned had been there the day we moved in, and which we humored on a shelf above our treasured Nintendo. God knows how I became an English major, let alone a writer. All this is to admit that my true introduction to children’s books came when I finally had kids of my own.

What I found upon arrival was varied to say the least. I’d expected the fantastical: hippos in bow ties, transportation with faces, moral platitudes packaged in bright, garish fonts and delivered by ducklings with an aptitude for end-rhyme couplets. And sure, there was plenty of that. But there were other things too, like the hypnotic lullaby of Goodnight Moon, or the spare, incisive grace of Last Stop On Market Street, as clear and nuanced as a classic blues song. In the latter, as CJ and his nana begin their long bus ride home, I encountered the following lines: “The outside air smelled like freedom, but it also smelled like rain.” This was writing of strangeness and beauty. A children’s book can do that? I vividly recall thinking, till my pajama-clad kids poked my stomach, eager to get a move on, to keep reading.

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Love for the World: The Poetry of Frog and Toad

By Sunni Brown Wilkinson

In one of his most famous poems, Richard Wilbur writes that “love calls us to the things of this world,” and no children’s literature celebrates the things of this world quite like Arnold Lobel’s charming Frog and Toad series. Beyond its beautiful illustrations and clever humor, the series revels most in a love of what keeps us alive and of language itself. In this way, the Frog and Toad series becomes, in many ways, a gateway to the world of poetry.

Stylistically, the Frog and Toad books, vignettes about two close friends sharing in life’s adventures, mirror poetry more than prose. As books for early readers, they include language that is simple but musical, and the text does not always reach the end of the page but rather breaks at certain words, like a poem. This amplifies the pleasure of reading them aloud (as they should be read), but it also means that, like poetry, each line holds its own weight and carefully wrought cadence.

For example, in the story “Spring,” Frog’s description of Spring reads like a catalogue of the joys of being alive. As Frog tries to rouse Toad from his winter hibernation, grumpy Toad complains about the bright light, to which Frog kindly replies,

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“Because they grow up / and forget what they know”: On the Strange Wisdom of Children’s Poetry

By Eric Redfern

      A small speckled visitor  
              wearing crimson cape,
      brighter than a cherry,
              smaller than a grape.

      A polka-dotted someone
            walking on my wall,
      a black-hooded lady
            in a scarlet shawl.

At five years old, I experienced this Joan Walsh Anglund poem as both charming and creepy. The lilting trochees and cheery rhyme scheme told me that to read the poem was to play a friendly game. But the red cape and black hood? These are the sartorial choices of a villain. A villain, not the villain: there were more of them, and by the fifth line my world would blur at its edges, where tiny, spotted, unidentified “someones” almost palpably teemed. Most troubling and fascinating of all, I could not determine if this “lady” was a bug or a woman, small or tall, dangerous or safe. Anthologies have resolved this ambiguity for their readers by titling the poem “Ladybug,” much as Mabel Loomis Todd domesticated Dickinson’s poems with ordinary titles like “The Bee” or “The Humming-Bird.” But in the illustrated book I had, Anglund’s poems were untitled, and the ambiguity strikes me now as appropriate: ladybugs are “good” garden denizens; most are also carnivorous. Reading about the poem’s “speckled visitor,” my mind made something like a 3-D hologram portrait that morphs into a specter as it’s tilted first one way, then another. Haunting each other, both images stayed strange.

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You Are What You Read

By Adrienne Su

Since my parents always made room for more books in our Atlanta home, I thought I knew what I was doing when, at six, I decided to be a writer. I wrote my first “poem” soon afterwards, in 1974, and never went back on the decision, producing stories, poems, and attempts at novels. Yet not until college did I write from the perspective of an Asian American speaker. One reason for the delay is surely that children’s books with Asian characters, never mind Asian American characters, were vanishingly scarce. A 2016 study by Angela Christine Moffett, “Exploring Racial Diversity in Caldecott Medal-Winning and Honor Books,” found that of the 332 Caldecott books published between 1939 and 2016, thirteen, or 1%, had Asian or Asian American primary characters. My brother and I recall from our childhood only two picture books with Asian main characters: The Five Chinese Brothers, by Claire Huchet Bishop and illustrated by Kurt Wiese (1938), and Tikki Tikki Tembo by Arlene Mosel and illustrated by Blair Lent (1968) both of which are still in print.

The Five Chinese Brothers, in which the titular characters use superpowers to evade a death sentence, has been criticized for racially caricatured illustrations and the unexplained identicalness of the brothers. Defenders argue that the book evokes nostalgia for many, the art represents a different time, and it’s based on a Chinese folktale.

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Over and Over

By Sarah Green

Featured Art: Sweets by Abby Pennington

“What comes next?” she asked her mother.

I asked my stepdaughter Lizzie today what she likes best about the picture book Over and Over, by Charlotte Zolotow.

“The cover repeats inside,” she said. “And the phrases.” It’s true: the words over and over in this book about seasons and holidays return themselves in the book’s closing sentences, in which the little girl wishes “for it all to happen again”; “and of course, over and over, year after year, it did.” I’ve read this book so many times, both as a child and as a parent, that if I close my eyes, I think I can get the sequence right. Let’s see—snowfall, Valentine’s Day, Easter, summer vacation, Thanksgiving, birthday, Christmas. Did I get it? Let’s check: Oops, forgot Halloween, and Christmas comes after snow, and the child’s birthday is the last scene pictured. Maybe I still need this book to teach me how it really goes.

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The Fabric

By Jeff Tigchelaar

But I, I love it when you read to me
And you, you can read me anything.
—Stephin Merritt, “The Book of Love”

“I tried to get lots of poetry ones,” said the mom. She’d been to some thrift stores and library sales. She handed her son a big bag of kids’ books. They were for his children, the mom’s grandkids.

By “poetry ones” the mother meant rhyming ones. By telling her son this, she meant, “I know you’re a poetry person.” By that she meant, “I know you’re somewhat of a snob.”

Ten years later . . .

“Dad. What are you doing? I’m in bed. I’m sleeping in here.”

“Sam. Sorry. I need to write something about kids’ books. I kind of waited a little too long, and they’re kind of starting to lay out the magazine. I just needed some material from your shelves.”

“Nope.”

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2021 Summer Exclusive

Featuring work by J.C. Talamantez, Shawn R. Jones, B. Domino, Chrys Tobey, Joe Woodward, John Bargowski, Jackie Craven, Michael Henson, Bridget O’Bernstein, Shannon C. Ward, Michael Leal Garcia, Riley Kross, Bonnie Proudfoot, Mathew Valades, Christopher Nelson, Dwight Livingstone Curtis, Matthew J. Spireng, and Jon Fischer.

Essential Worker

By J.C. Talamantez

Featured art: maternal memories, 2019 by Emma Stefanoff

When you were a girl, you thought about
            what kind of woman you would be

            how you would differ
                           from her / her life in hardening hands
                                       the work, an early marriage
                                                   then the angry one
            her suspect taste in men
                           that she hung on when there was nothing
                                       left to hang
            kept laboring the labor
                           the men wouldn’t do

            It was a long time to undo / the belief
                                 that to be a woman is partial
                              a life of shadows joining

                           and sometimes i still feel
                                       like a dog always checking
                                             its masters eyes

You wanted / to be a woman
         this is what it is sometimes


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On Our Way Back From the Protest

By Shawn R. Jones

Featured art: Untitled by Mariama Condé

The officer approaches. Keith keeps both hands
on the steering wheel. Clicks his tongue

against his teeth six times—
a tune of feigned assurance.

The trooper walks back to his car.
Keith takes his hands off the wheel.

I am the first to speak. I ask if he thinks
the cop is going to give us a ticket.

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A Fist of Weeds

By B. Domino

Featured art: Untitled Collage by Kennedy Cardenas

You’re thirteen when she comes to save you. Your father pulls you outside and says he’s got to talk to you about your mother. What he means is he’s got to talk to you about you because of your mother.   Read More

Some Kind of Palace

By Chrys Tobey

My old man cat is, unfortunately, getting old.  Kidneys failing.

Asthma.  Arthritis. A tongue that won’t go back inside his mouth. 

Seizures.  The last one made me think he was a goner.  But then he blinked

and hobbled around me in circles. Pretty disoriented.  My old man

cat has started eating books and this may be due to the fact

that I’ve had my old man cat for seventeen years Read More