The Dog in the Library

by Catherine Stearns

Featured Art: Landscape with Dog by Thomas Doughty

 

“We may be in the universe as dogs and cats are in our libraries, seeing the books and hearing the conversation, but having no inkling of the meaning of it all.”William James

 

On sunny, cerulean days I go all the way
to eleven when I stretch and sniff among the leaves,
whereas you stay inside, hunched over
your moral universe. Old girl, if you
stopped trying to decipher those fossil bird tracks,
you might see the thermal-gliding hawk above
or that zaftig possum gnawing on fallen
persimmons under the window. I’m just saying
your preference betrays a certain fear
of your own nature. Remember
last summer when you left me in the car
to pick up a book they were holding for you,
and a page or two in you recognized
your own penciled and may I say
obsessive marginalia, although you had
no memory of the text itself?
Whatever made you think your mind
could be disenthralled with words?
As a pup, I once took Mark Strand’s
injunction in “Eating Poetry” to heart,
devouring one or two slim volumes,
but soon realized I prefer the raw
material of life, what e e cummings
calls “the slavver of spring”: smells
of fresh earth, the ghostly scent of
rabbits, even the mounds of dirty laundry
piled up on your bed. If you found answers
to your questions, do you truly believe
those answers would transform you?
So many of your species seem
susceptible to revelation. We’re all
browsers, old girl, without an inkling,
waiting by the door for a treat or to be forgiven
until our unleashed immortal part bolts
for that hit of dopamine. Then
all good dogs go to heaven.

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New Ohio Review Issue 26 (Originally printed Fall 2019)

Newohioreview.org is archiving previous editions as they originally appeared. We are pairing the pieces with curated art work, as well as select audio recordings. In collaboration with our past contributors, we are happy to (re)-present this outstanding work.

Issue 26 compiled by Julia Smarelli

Sad Rollercoaster

By Jared Harél

Featured Art: The Great Red Dragon and the Woman Clothed with the Sun, c. 1805 by William Blake

My daughter’s in the kitchen, working out death.
She wants to get it. How it tastes and feels.
Her teacher talks like it’s some great, golden sticker.
Her classmates hear rumors, launch it as a curse
when toys aren’t shared. Between bites of cantaloupe,
she considers what she knows: her friend’s grandpa lives only
in her iPad. Dr. Seuss passed, but keeps speaking
in rhyme. We go to the Queens Zoo and spot the beakish skull
of a white-tailed deer tucked between rocks
in the puma’s enclosure. It’s just for show, I explain,
explaining nothing. That night, and the one after,
my daughter dreams of bones, how they lift
out of her skin and try on her dresses. So silly! she laughs,
when I ask if she’s okay. Then later, toward the back-end
of summer, we head to Coney Island to catch
a Cyclones game. We buy hot dogs and fries. A pop fly arcs
over checkerboard grass, when flush against the horizon
she sees a giant wooden spine, a dark blossom,
this brownish-red maze all traced in decay. She calls it
Sad Rollercoaster, then begs to be taken home.


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The Men at Snowbowl Teaching Their Daughters to Ski

By Henrietta Goodman

Featured Art: Mount Monadnock, probably 1911/1914 by Abbott Handerson Thayer

The first one is half a couple, young, their daughter
four or five in pink snow pants and a pink flowered
coat. They’re stopped at the top of the last long run,
skis wedged sideways. She’s made it this far, and now
she’s wailing I can’t do it I can’t do it I don’t want to
Almost everyone pauses before this sheer slope
gleaming in late-afternoon sun, this almost-vertical
descent that someone named Paradise. She’s sobbing
I can’t do it and her father says What do you need?
Do you need some fish? Do you need some T. Swift
?
He reaches for his phone and “Shake It Off” starts playing,
and he barks like a seal and flaps his arms and stomps
his skis a little like flippers, and she holds out
her gloved hand and he puts Goldfish crackers in it,
tosses a few and catches them in his mouth, and they
start down Paradise, her skis in a careful pizza,
her father telling her when to turn. The next one
is older, bearded, his daughter older too, high school
or college, hard to tell through helmet and goggles—
she’s silent as he coaches: drop your shoulder, now
shift your hips, now turn, drop your shoulder
.
I’m trying to translate his advice into something
my own body could do—toes curled in my boots,
skis crossed at the tips, poles flailing behind me
and sticking in snow as I skid toward the trees.
She’s making long slow turns; he’s patient, saying
over and over good girl in a way that means she’s
as frightened as I am and her goodness is his world
and is, to him, absolute. She doesn’t look at him—
she’s watching her skis as they glide back and forth
through Paradise, watching herself not falling.


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Lisbon Haibun

By Melissa Oliveira

Fall in the Alfama district, and all the bright skirts float down the city’s aston-
ishment of hills. The surprise of verticality, the step-polished marble underfoot,
the sun reflecting up, and I am always already sliding, or else just about to
slide. I claw at the shopkeeper’s rack of postcards, pause to watch the lipsticked
London women in the glissade of new wedges with untried soles, to read the
graffitied stucco wall: pura poeta. Not all of us who fall seem to mind; only
yesterday, in a splintered tram, I stood behind a stern German who lost her grip
around a turn. When she caught herself, the stoic control of her face opened
into joy, her blue eyes dancing as she swung herself on the metal rail. When I
tried to meet her smile with my own, hers vanished. I moved to the rear to dis-
embark, the sudden brake shoving me into a sturdy old man who laughed and
asked me something in a tongue I do not speak, though the message was clear.
Listen, maybe falling is why we come here at all. Only the dark-eyed man in his
fine suit—he wore your face, uncle, looked the age you were when you died—
knew how to control the fall: loosen the knees, shift the body’s gravity forward,
and never trust the temptation to lean back. Remember: only the dead are so
surefooted they will never fall again. On the stucco wall, someone changed the
words overnight to puta poeta; as I notice it, I feel again the shift of my sole, the
tightening of muscles and think, for a flash, of the sacred duty of those still in
warm and breathing flesh: to always be falling, and willing to fall for the world.
My bag’s contents all around, the act of picking stones from the palm’s soft
flesh—this, too, is holy. And with my knees on the cobbles, I look up

       An ancient woman
       clips the wash to the clothesline.
       Crimson lace, floating.


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The Summer Before Your Birth

By Christine Fraser

Featured Art: The Yellow Curtain, c. 1893 by Edouard Vuillard

–after Sharon Olds

our girl we’ll tell you how it was then
how the lake spread out to the east of us
how we sailed out on it tacking and jibing
learning to round the marks
how we walked miles under skyscrapers
we could see no end we could have gone anywhere
a year later the city collapsed
down to our three rooms
all was the rocking and the crying
a bowl of black cherries
water in the tub
billowing yellow curtains
how quickly the city spun down
to you between us in our bed


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Keeping Warm

By Faith Shearin

Featured Art: Seated Woman with Legs Drawn Up (Adele Herms), 1917 by Egon Schiele

That first winter after you vanished
into the white rafters

of the afterlife the old boyfriends returned
in texts and letters, one close enough

to walk with me beside a fast river
in the snow; these were the men I loved

when I was young and now I was alone
so they came looking for me or I

called out with a sound between
a howl and a bark and they replied;

I wasn’t sure what I wanted
from them, or what they

wanted from me, but I was grateful
for their attention and for the way

they could still remember me standing
in the corridors of the past,

under apple blossoms, where
they spoke to me in whispers and

unfastened my loneliness; I was trying to learn
how to be a woman without you.

One reminded me of how he undressed me
under a Steinway piano during a power outage;

that February the ones who were single
sent music and texts and they worried

I was not warm; one spoke of building
fires and making tea while another

ascended the steep staircase
to my apartment and placed his hand

on my radiator which was like running
a finger over my wrist; I felt sometimes

that you sent them, though you
had been jealous when you were alive,

that you wanted them to buy me
mittens, to put the kettle on the stove.


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From a great height

By Natalie Taylor

Featured Art: Dead Thrush, 16th Century by unknown artist

               I find the baby quail blown
from its nest after an early summer

               storm. Scoop the feathered dots
and stripes. Mom feeds it antibiotics

               mixed with wet dog food on a toothpick.
It tilts its head to one side,

               dark eye watching my face
as my sisters and I pray during

               the procedure. Since I am the eldest,
I am put in charge.

               I take it upstairs to my parents’ bedroom,
cradle the bird on my stomach

               and sink into their down comforter.
A plastic owl, hung from a redwood beam,

               swings from a squeaky nail
into the heat of that afternoon.

               I dream I am falling. Falling.
It takes so long to fall.

               Like the family prayers at 5 A.M.
followed by scripture study,

               then chores,
then school.

               When the ground rises up quick,
my hands jerk out to catch myself.

               I wake to dark feathers and sweaty
palms. Carry the dead body

               downstairs, offer it like a broken cup.
My sisters and I find a shoebox and shovel,

               soft dirt. A fistful of dandelions.
I am 12 and old and so I pray.

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Goodly the Sum

By Julie Hanson

Featured Art: Dynamic Suprematism, 1915 or 1916 by Kazimir Malevich

We may intend well at the outset and persist
but much that happens
happens of its own accord.
We may awaken one day with but one bean left

but much that happens happens of its own accord.
You can set yourself right;
you can self-correct.
I have been changed greatly by things I have read.

And yet I don’t know how to do this simple thing:
lead another where it is best for me
for him to be. It happens sometimes, though,
mysteriously.

Maybe it’s a matter of pressure
or physics and moral equity, the combination
of any three things,
the planes are more aligned than we think.

When an explanation is provided, we don’t listen.
The mind will stop attending if it can.
I thought Algebra all those years ago
an exercise in patience;

little did I know that there’s a math
for each of us. For what was the present,
it was toil and struggle, try as one may,
try as one might,

the engine is flooded: variables
and integers, parentheses and coefficients . . .
and when I wondered why
the impact of History was outside of this,

Algebra gazed back at me, detached.
Surely there is no one left on Earth
who doesn’t love Bob Dylan, yet it’s possible that status
may not last. The mind will stop—

will stop attending if it can, and that’s got to be a problem
compounded by the plenitude of spam.
I received my first Christian case of such
on one February 26.

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Virga

By Joyce Schmid

Featured Art: Rain Clouds Approaching over a Landscape, 1822-40 by Joseph Mallord William Turner

Driving to the baseball game on Highway 101,
we looked at cloudbanks, stacked in bands
from west to east, and in between
were cloud-threads dangling down as if the layers
had been torn apart—
                                          and this was virga
rain that formed but couldn’t reach the earth,
like words that evaporate as they come to mind.

We’d moved to California in a storm, before
the drought that forced us to save our water in a pail,
trickle it on tomato vines, enough for them to live
and leaf, but not to fruit.
                                          You grew impatient
with the traffic, and I touched your hand in gratitude
for the high fly balls we were about to watch fall,
for idling motors and the Bach cantata in our car,
its trumpets turning gold to match the clouds—
those lavish clouds that tried but couldn’t rain.


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On the First Day That Feels Like Fall I Think of Her Then, the Age I Am Now

By Beth Marzoni

Featured Art: Summer by Joseph Rubens Powell

& that restlessness
I barely registered
as a child, that we outran

or tried to, now & then,
the mountain roads,
Mom & me,

& in the mouth
all sap-weep.
All gum-fingered:

ponderosa & lodgepole
& limber & blue,
some summer-gutted

but not beetle-battered
yet—another century. Mostly
we went for the aspen

& the sky—a tarp
trying to hold together
what was named

for shaking apart.
The species there
all verb-called—

quaking, trembling—
though I thought
What the Light Spills.

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Coyotes

By Terri Leker

Featured Art: Forest in the Morning Light, c. 1855 by Asher Brown Durand

The coyotes moved into the woods behind my house just after I learned I was pregnant. On a quiet June morning, while my husband slept, I pulled on my running shoes and grabbed a leash from a hook at the back door. Jute danced around my feet on her pipe-cleaner legs, whining with impatience. It would have taken more than this to wake Matt, but I hushed her complaints with a raised finger and we slipped outside. A light breeze blew the native grasses into brown and golden waves as we wandered, camouflaging Jute’s compact frame. She sniffed the dirt, ears telescoping as though she were asking a question. When we reached a shady thicket of red madrones and live oaks, I unclipped the leash and wound it around my wrist.

It was over with Richard, had been since I’d found out about the baby. Anyway, I had come to believe that adultery sounded more illicit than it actually was. Between managing my schedule with Matt and making time to rendezvous with Richard, an affair often seemed more about time management than sexual gratification. I was meticulous with the calendar, but I would have known that the baby was Matt’s regardless, because Richard’s sperm could not locomote. He had told me so early on, while showing me the master bedroom of his faithfully restored North Oakland Victorian. His unexpected disclosure had interrupted my admiration of the exposed brick walls, so unusual for the earthquake-conscious Bay Area. Matt was having dinner just then with friends, thinking I was helping my mother set up her new television (she would be  dead within a few months, but we all pretended to be optimists then), so he was eating eggplant parmesan at the Saturn Café as I lay with Richard on his king-sized bed, hearing words like motility and capacitation. Richard’s sober tone had suggested that I might comfort him in his sterility, which I did, if    the definition of comfort was a passionate encounter that lasted as long as   one might spend unboxing a 48-inch HDTV and connecting it to both Netflix and Hulu. But Matt and I had tried to have a baby for three years, so I took the pregnancy as a sign to recommit myself to my husband, who, predictably, jumped up and down on our unmade bed when I shared the news, attempting, in his white-socked excitement, to pull me up with him, not realizing that doing so might judder the bundle of cells loose, delivering me back to Richard and a childless but aesthetically pleasing life.

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What If We Wake Up Dead

By Jennifer Sperry Steinorth

what if we plant roses beside the shed
what if we paint the living room a muddy incarnadine
what if you go on a diet
what if we go to Paris
what if the dog’s ghost follows us      when the house is sold
where will we go      when the house is sold
what if we try talking
what if I could be nice
what if we have to move in with your mother
what if we could be honest about the weather
what if   like a father      you get up only to leave the room
what if   like a mother      I speak only in other rooms
what if we redo the kitchen and you become a pastry chef
what if we move to Phoenix
what if I smash the Lennox
what   if I drive away         what is good
what   if I drive away         into a tree
what if we cross our hearts
what if we make applesauce
what if you become what killed your father
what if I can’t forgive what killed your father
what      if the kids could see us
what      if the kids become us
what      if the kids inherit everything


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No Good After Midnight

By Jessica Hincapie

Dionysus! What is on your record player tonight? Turn up
ABBA’s greatest hits and call me Chiquitita one more time.
The night is young and we are ancient
history, but dammit if you don’t throw the wildest parties.

All the columns choking on vines. Wisteria
fronding from the lamp lights. And I, wishing I’d worn
the dress you gave me at the beginning when the sex was still
effeminate. The dress with the cape made of migrating starlings.

Masterpiece of murmurations. No matter,
I prefer this prison jumpsuit. Gauche orange
like a Halloween pumpkin. Oh! You should know by now
how much better I carry my body when it is a trashcan fire.

Dionysus! Remember our first time? You came
in the back of your father’s classic Panther West Wind.
Now other people’s tongues pulse in your mouth.
Now sirens from the downtown precinct. But not before,

Dionysus! Show us that party trick you do so well.
The one where you pluck out your own femur and make
WOMAN. The one where that WOMAN uses magic
to ensure that her soccer team wins the World Cup.

Dionysus! Sneak us onto the edge of the River Styx.
See which one of us skinny-dips into the deep end first.
I’m betting it’s me who wakes up in your bed again after six
too many red wines. I’ve never been good with endings

or perhaps it’s hard to leave behind a place where no one knows
what you look like naked. And weren’t we once acquainted
with each other’s morning-after tics? How I prefer the smell
of citrus to coffee. How you only ever have human hearts

to offer. Plump and halved like papayas. The kind where
a single bite shows you your own death. The kind where
if you tilt one just so, it will catch the light and turn into copper.
A penny you can throw at a fast-moving train.


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Valentine

By Susan Browne

Featured Art: Couple on a Cot, c. 1874-1877 by John Singer Sargent

I once walked past a man on February 14th
who was peeing on a window display,
teetering on his tiptoes & bent backward
aiming at the word love written in red curlicues.
Robins fat as cupids watched from the hedges.
At the end of the block I had to look again, too.
He was still going at it like an acrobat or a camel.
I thought I might do the same thing
if I had the equipment because love was a spike
in the vena cava or an arrow in the brain,
the great spurns of fate turning kisses into thorns.
Sometimes I make myself sick with nostalgia.
I can’t help it if I listen to Dan Fogelberg Radio.
I used to play Dan’s song “Longer” on the guitar
& weep that my longest relationship was with my dog.
She once pulled the sock out of a man’s shoe
while he was wearing it in my doorway.
My dog didn’t stop growling for an hour
after he left. She knew he wasn’t for me,
but who was? & then I met you.
We once kissed all day long & lost weight.
My students all got A’s, called themselves The Love Class.
I once told you that in my next life I’d be a weatherperson
& asked what you’d be. “Dead,” you said.
If my dog had still been alive then
she’d have known you were the guy for me.
Even though we’ve been together longer
than any forest primeval, I want to go to bed with you
in this dark middle of an afternoon,
tell you about the cumulonimbus & nimbostratus
clouds that mean rain is on its way. Without any words,
let me teach you the word petrichor, which means
that earthy smell that accompanies first rain
after a long spell of warm, dry weather.


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You Once Felt Gigantic

By Jonathan Greenhause

Featured Art: Siegfried and the Rhine Maidens, 1888/1891 by Albert Pinkham Ryder

but are presently a grain of sand
buried at the bottom of the sea, a fly on the windowpane

of a once-sacred mosque lost in the heart of Christianity.
Your glorious achievements

are scribbled footnotes on pages ripped from ancient tomes
no one will ever read, your manifestos mistaken for satires,

dismissed as innocuous, as too eager to please.
Your rightful place in history

has been repeatedly plowed under, the dates of your birth & death
erased to make room for more pressing memories.

Each song you composed
has already commenced its inevitable process of decomposition,

each film you directed unable to witness
its celluloid heroes resurrected & displayed on screen,

all the streets named after you
bulldozed, converted into numbered freeways.

You’re the impenetrable fortress
constructed by a civilization that has ceased to wage war,

the central star in a system
with no sentient creatures to adore you,

the children you enthusiastically sired
having been born sterile, told their father never existed.

Even the undiscerning worms have tasted better meat than yours
& will quickly forget the meal you’ve fed them.


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Keep Your Lamp Trimmed and Burning

By Elton Glaser

Featured Art: The Simoniac Pope,  1824-7 by William Blake

I pay my sin tax
On cigarettes and booze, keeping afloat
The pious aspirations of Ohio.

A good smoke will corrupt the lungs
Just as sweetly as
London gin will weaken the liver.

There’s always a tangle of implications
That riff on the ineffable
And the strange banquets of the flesh.

I’m posting these dispatches to you
From my little boondock of the damned,
Eking out my last days

Among the living dead of the heartland,
The frightened corn farmers
And all those overdosed on drugs or Jesus,

Dope brewing in a duplex
Where the kids sleep in crusty diapers
And dogs wheeze on the fumes,

Three doors down from smalltown messiahs
Who vote against the liquor license
And for the blowhards and the jackboot.

Sometimes my mind is
The ripe green of late April, and sometimes
A dinge of old snow.

If you can stand it, what’s better than
The ammonias of intuition,
Which snap your head back

And make you come alert to
Everything around you,
Like a blind man in a minefield?

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Until We Do

By Sydney Lea

Featured Art: Flight of the Magnolia, 1944 by Paul Nash

we’re visitors here of course
we live out our precious stories
imagine they’re legacies
until we don’t anymore
we settle for anecdotes

we shuffle along but behave
all the while as if we were dancing
or acting some crucial part
until we don’t that is
we assume we’re safe at home

we do until we don’t
we consider our senses eternal
a strange idea to be sure
a fox crossed in front of our house
this morning just after dawn

against the snow he looked perfect
as Dürer’s paragon
I say I’ll see him in mind
forever we don’t speak of death
we don’t until we do


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Sunday Service

By Taylor Byas

“The Blood Still Works” stampedes through the nave
and once the organ player’s shoulders seize
with song, the spirit hits the pews in waves.
I catch the loosening necks, the mouths’ new ease

as the congregants begin to speak in tongues;
I move my lips, pretend to be saved, and next
to me, my grandma convulses—the drums
of the band a puppet master, a hex—

while ushers in white surround her, lock hands
to keep us in. The preacher’s sermon builds
to a screech, his sinners flitter fans
like mosquito wings, and with his eyes he guilts

me into clasping hands: I repent for things
I’ve yet to do. They jerk to tambourines.


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How Young Boys Survive the Ghetto: 101

By Taylor Byas

—after “Ghetto Boy, Chicago, Illinois,”
by Gordon Parks, 1953

Play house. Climb on a chair of shit-stained paisley
in an alley, avoid the broken bottles. Cut
your momma’s housedress, make a cape that’s maybe
a size too big. Pose for this camera, strut

like the pimps that limp these streets in zoot suits, caned
and gold-toothed. Know the power of a stuck-out
hip, its demand for respect. Practice your slang,
and call the women shorties until you luck out,

get slapped upside the head. Don’t turn around.
Don’t look behind and see the world’s kept going,
that Eldorado dropping down to the ground,
its rims still spinning, pool-hall lights still glowing—

boy look into this lens, let me remember you
like this, carefree, acting a fool like you always do.


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Note to My First Wife

By Steven Cramer

Featured Art: The Convalescent, 1918-19 by Gwen John

We leased a two-story coloring book.
The peonies our neighbor planted

between our recto and her verso
turned out plastic to the touch.

She even kept them watered: pretty
funny, like the niblets we bought

in white cans named NO NAME.
But it’s the moon who found us

really hilarious that night—naked,
well-oiled from head to foot—

we swam across Lake MacBride.
No memories of you in snow . . .

I assume you sleep as I do, more
or less. When I can’t, can’t you?

Ginkgo trees canopied our one-
way street, no address to GPS.

Stopped for geese at Fresh Pond,
or the news on mute, I hear you,

also turned down low, say don’t
bother wondering if I’m dead. I do.


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The Flash

By Jennifer Givhan

My 11-yr-old son has forgotten not to eat on my bed            He loves watching The Flash
from my room with the widest windows, the warmest place in our house each winter,

& with the coneflower warmth of his brown skin veiled in his bright red suit, he tucks
his kinky curls under the cap & ghosts from room to room undetected, sneaking

cookies            till I climb beside him into piles of crumbs            You’re grounded I echo
& he is sobbing            but what he says catches

the pit of wax burning always inside me            We got him
into special ed classes last year after years of fighting with teachers & breakdowns

over homework & his father yelling You’ve got to learn to listen            & I kept insisting
he’s trying, he just doesn’t understand             & here he slides onto my floor,

tears & mucus streaming down his cheeks, onto the superhero costume he wears
24/7, the toddlers at the park following him around perennially because he’s Iron

Man, Flash, Capt. America—            Mama I don’t know what’s wrong with me
between hiccupping sobs            I forgot

I was hungry & your bed is so warm            & I’m afraid I’ll go to jail
when I’m a grownup       
      I’m afraid I’m bad            because I always do the wrong thing

         & I’m hugging him on the floor where I’ve joined him
as sirens flick onscreen            thinking of how his little sister ties his shoes            how years

back his best friend said You have to learn to tie your shoes—do you want your mom
to tie them for you when you’re twenty? & we laughed            before we realized

we should not have been laughing            how at night I watch him breathing            & pray
because when I screamed at his father for screaming at him he said He has to learn

to listen! I’m trying to keep him safe

                         Much later I ask our boy with a milkshake in his hand
what he would do if the police, like they did to his daddy—

He beeps. Electronic Jeremiah is not here right now. Please leave a message.
He flashes so quick, I never see him vanish.


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Promised Lands

By Christie Tate

Winner, New Ohio Review Nonfiction Contest: selected by Kiese Laymon

Featured Art: Sunset over a Pond, c. 1880 by François-Auguste Ravier

I.

The first time I walked into Grandma’s church, I was a little girl in white Stride Rite leather sandals and a pale yellow dress with a sash. The First Baptist Church of Forreston, Texas. There was no parking lot, so Grandma, like a dozen others, steered her big blue Chevy off the road into the grass in front of the sign welcoming all worshippers.

The white clapboard building looked like the school-church from Little House on the Prairie. Simple wooden porch with four steps. Plain white steeple. Two long skinny windows. Our regular church in Dallas was three times larger, had bells that chimed every hour, and its thick walls held colorful stained glass depicting Jesus carrying the cross, falling, dying.

My older brother and I trailed behind Grandma, who hung her big leather purse in the crook of one arm and used the other to grip the wooden rail to steady her arthritic knees. My brother and I jockeyed to sit next to her because we wanted to plumb her treasure-filled purse. Doublemint gum. A map of the highways crisscrossing the Texas plains. A keychain with a long plastic placard with her name blazed across it. Virginia. Same as the state. I liked to run my finger along the raised white letters.

Before we opened the door, we could hear voices singing “What a Friend We Have in Jesus.” I shot a look at my brother. We were late—something we were never allowed to be on Sunday mornings with our parents at Holy Trinity. My brother shrugged. I grabbed Grandma’s free hand and let the rush of air and music pour over me as she opened the door and led us to the back row.

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Failing to Master the Art of Erasure

By Wendy Taylor

Featured Art: Blue Horse I, 1911 by Franz Marc

I’m at the Museum of Fine Arts
in Boston, drawn to Degas’
Racehorses at Longchamp. I remember
the first time you left a message
on my answering machine, mumbled
your soft voice, said, I’m in the mood
to go to the horse races tonight.
A thing
I knew only from the Pomona County
Fair as a child where Grandpa lost our
dinner money and Grandma fell down. On
our date, we arrive before the 9th race, empty
lot, attendants gone, the turnstile jammed,
you jump over, I duck under. You dig a Daily
Racing Form from a Coke–spilled trash bin,
scrape up losing tickets off the cement. We sit
at a table with TV monitors, gloomy lights, no
view, no stands, no night air or dusty moon,
no romance, just stray cats licking nacho
cheese off chips, old men in torn fedoras
with dead faces and nicotine-washed fingers.
Today, I think of how your friends and I meant
to secretly scatter your ashes over the turf
after your memorial service, to let you rest
while the ponies and the trotters kept pace.
But I couldn’t give you up to the earth
or take you out of the race yet, and even now
through this oil on canvas, I can hear
you say, Put me on the favorite, baby.
You can’t win it, if you aren’t in it.


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Throwing Rocks

By Wendy Taylor

After my husband died, my dad drove my
2 1⁄2-year-old son to the lake at Tri-City
Park to feed the ducks and throw rocks. Voices
of carefree children on swings and slides nearby
didn’t interest my pensive boy. And though
he feared the wild geese at the lake’s edge,
my dad said, He just needs something to throw
across the dark waters. So, my dad bought big
buckets of rocks from Home Depot, sat
patient for hours while my son reached
into the orange container, indiscriminate
about which rocks would take the journey
across the surface of the black rippled
liquid. They each had their lonely airborne
moment, as he frowned, flung his arm back
and released, and released, and released.


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At Sixty-Two

By Dion O’Reilly

Featured Art: Old Woman Seated by Honoré Daumier 

Looking at my X-ray, the doctor
says my hips resemble
those of an eighty-year-old woman.

Weeks later, when I huff into a tube
to blow out virtual birthday candles,
my allergist mentions
with what seems smug satisfaction
that my lungs whistle
like an eighty-year-old woman’s.

O hypothetical eighty-year-old woman—
you skeletal model
walking the hospital runway
in this year’s open-assed robe,
blue dots on cotton—
how do you like being the It Girl of Mortality,

archetype of: You are nearly nothing?

No, I want a physician who lists my body’s features
like a used-car salesman’s pitch—
here’s a real beaut, light-pink ’62
Plymouth Valiant with a push-button

transmission, perky butt fins, cat-print leather interior,
a spur hanging from the mirror,

and tires with some tread.

And its driver, an aging prima ballerina,
rose-red hair and rhinestone glasses
       out for a spin on a racetrack,
falling behind while the fans applaud
for old-times’ sake,
       looping and looping
before she veers off through a cow field.


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Liberal Father

By Dion O’Reilly

Featured Art: Mahna no Varua Ino (The Devil Speaks), 1894/1895, Paul Gauguin

He sits in thinned Hanes, reading
The New Republic, one leg crossed over the other—
picking at a flaked green toenail,
some rot caught in the steaming air
during amphibious assault on Guadalcanal.

And on weekends under wraiths of blue smoke,
he visits with his buddies—
men in striped bell-bottoms and afros,
women with long noses and gypsy earrings,
French professors from the university—
organizing for the first farmworker for Congress,
the first black man for president, the next Kennedy.

At five, he rises like a machine and feeds the mastiffs,
leaves to teach high school, his civics students
invading the city council, printing T-shirts in the garage,
storming a precinct in Watsonville, registering voters
around the vinegar plant and the lined-up shanties
by the cabbage field.

He fortifies the teachers’ union with longshoremen
and brings in the NAACP to meet the environmentalists.
You gotta get em talking, he tells me.
Like Tip and the Gipper. Everyone lifted up.

Except my sister and me, when—
together with my mother—he sets upon us
with whip and belt. Their cheeks, as they beat us,
red as bruises, eyes glazed
like they’re having sex.

Until I turn nine, his fist suspended over me,
as I stand in front of the dead fireplace,
a piece of sharp kindling in my hand,
prepared to kill them both.

Doreen, he says, I’m not doing this shit anymore.
So she beats us herself
while he stays out till midnight
attending meetings with the League of Women Voters.


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Silbar

By Dion O’Reilly

Featured Art: Hope, 1886 by George Frederic Watts and assistants

means whistle. A Spanish word
that sounds like silver
in the air, a little bird’s song
Oh My Dear. Oh My Dear.
Every year, the first time I hear
that smooth silbato,
it’s the first day of fall, a sparrow
with a small stripe lining its eye,
passing through
with the dying days
when the golden apple’s skin
feels softer than in summer,
a little more honey.
Oh My Dear. Little girl,
this is how it begins—
school, getting up early, not knowing
what you’re in for,
what your friends will do to you,
what you’ll do to them,
what being one year older
will mean in the world
of a girl. What to fear
and what to hope for.

Walk into the side of a mountain—
some cave of limestone and chert.
As the sparrow sings,
light a fire. It’s cold outside.
Let the flame flick the ceiling
with the ghosts of wild gazelles,
grab some coal, some ochre
the color of crusty blood,
and a rabbit’s thigh bones to trace them—
stickmen running with laughing legs,
spears carried high above their heads.
See who walks out
alive in spring.


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16 Days of Glory

By Jill Rosenberg

After our parents left for Vermont, Ruby and I spent most of our time waiting for the Olympics. The world is coming to Los Angeles! the commercials told us, and the announcer’s tone was so excited and serious it seemed to imply that every American should prepare.

That summer was going to be a turning point for our family. We were in the final stages of a move to rural Vermont, where my parents were rebuilding a house they planned to have ready by the start of the school year. Once the house was inhabitable, even barely so, we’d all move in and complete the finishing touches as a family. We’d already chosen the stencils we’d use on the walls in each of our bedrooms. Mine was going to be silver, turquoise, and black.

In the meantime, my job—mine and Ruby’s—was to have the fun summer that my mother said we’d earned. We could contribute to the house by holding down our current fort, a converted garage in the Philadelphia suburbs. The beauty of the garage apartment was that it looked like a mini-version of the other houses in the neighborhood. My mother liked to point out that you could look at a picture of the garage and a picture of a real house, and you couldn’t necessarily tell which one was which.

But Philadelphia’s Main Line was only a stepping-stone in our journey. The goal was to educate ourselves in multiple ways, and the four years of high-class learning we’d done in the suburbs—in one of the best school districts in the country—was coming to an end. It was time for us to learn from the land, to shed our unscuffed shoes and make ourselves interesting.

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Pollution

By Amelie Meltzer

Featured Art: Landscape, Sunset, 1886/1887 by George Inness

The sun sets red through clouds of ash
made of normal stuff, like trees and brush, but
also bedroom walls, Persian rugs, winter clothes, LEGOs,
maybe the family dog.

At a safe distance from the actual disaster,
we cough and small-talk about wind patterns, particulate counts.
It’s everyone’s opening line on Tinder, something like,
“I’ve got an extra N95 mask waiting for that special someone ;-)”

And I wake up halfway through a memory back from the dead of
kissing my summer camp bunkmate, to practice for boys,
scrunchies on our skinny wrists, hands in each other’s hair,
a lump in my throat.

I can’t believe I lost this. My tiny, broken heart
suddenly unhidden by the bonfire smell.

She must have slipped under the door like smoke.


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Meg Francis

By Kate Sweeney

Featured Art: Madonna, 1895 by Edvard Munch

threw a dead groundhog on my porch
the night after I stole her boyfriend.

My mother called the cops and the officer
knocked at its gut with his boot and blood drooled

from a bullet hole. That’s some good aim,
he said. Tell your daughter to watch out.

Years later, I tell this to a former student of mine
as we lay in bed, a Czech twenty-something

with a secret girlfriend in Prague.
Hanna, moje milovat—which he whispered

into his phone—was not hard to Google Translate.
I imagined how she could die. A slip down the stairs,

a misstep in front of the city bus. Rat poison is sweet,
the bottle under the sink whispered. Do not ingest.

Groundhogs are not native to the Czech Republic,
so he began to read about them, learned their nicknames,

the length of their burrows and lifespan.
He signed the tiny cards attached to my gifts, Love,

Your Woodcock. He probably meant Woodchuck.
And each time, I thought of Meg, the beautiful

redhead named after the Patron Saint of Animals
and how much she and that martyred rodent

did for my sex life: how the boy I took from her only
held me closer that summer in case she surprised us both

with her .22. Or, how I giggled when my Chesky
recited all the names for groundhogs in broken English,

marmot, monk, gopher, lawn-digger, woodchuck,
whistle pig, land-beaver, target practice, dirty rat.

And how his words were met with the same burn of jealousy
even when I opened my chest to him and he fired off again.


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Love as Invasive Species

By Ellen Kombiyil

Featured Art: Spider Art by Ben Fredericson (xjrlokix)

“And beyond the empty cage, a bedroom; and beyond a bedroom, the wood boards,
beams, and floors holding the shape of the house; and beyond the house, a yard.”
—from Jorge Luis Borges’ mislaid manuscript, Labyrinthian Architectures,
a book that has been wished into existence

The day the tarantula escaped, my uncle
joked, “The cage is empty.” He said it over cornflakes—
the rock fallen off, the mesh lid mysteriously askew.

He smiled and slurped and chewed.
We searched behind the couch cushions, among
piano hammers’ knotted strings, in the broom closet

with its scary duster. (How many days had he let it out
for a walk—crossing the afghan’s colored squares
draped across the backrest?) At night I dreamt it crept

across the headboard as I slept, scuttled clacks,
each foot a seed-hard talon, spilled tacks.
Gramma finally found it when shaking the sheets out:

black and lacy it sailed through the air,
then scampered under the bookshelf where it hid
then disappeared beneath baseboards.

The walls breathe with it now,
acrid, not unlike the air outside the zoo’s tropical house,
toucans dripping guano black as the berries they ate.

I coax it with felled moths, pheromones
exuding from their bungled heads
after all night blinging the bulb’s sexless filament.

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Twilite Motel and Lounge

By Mark Kraushaar

Featured Art: Still Live with Bottles, 1892 by Roderic O’Conor

Donny Banya does the room repairs or
when he isn’t buzzed he does.
I’m the night clerk.
Alma runs the bar—plus she’s an artist.
Big John, the owner, does the books
and walks around and plans big changes
to the parking lot and ground-floor Men’s.
There’s other staff but tonight
it’s just the three of us, or four including John
who is dozing on the sofa by the magazines,

John who despite the plumbing in Room 21,
despite the mold and the mice, despite the blinking signage
and the boarded side-door, still thinks
he’ll put the Twilite right.
I got it on the cheap, he says. It’s beautiful.
He dozes and the rest of us chat

and Alma says she’ll sweep and clean the lounge herself—
“except I’ll need a hazmat suit.”
We all laugh, John stirs
and, stretching, sits up and lights a cigarette.
It’s already hot in June. And with the A/C on the fritz
and Alma set to quit and paint her nudes and trees full time
it’s as if, beyond the grimy carpets and the dingy stairs

the air itself is greased with disappointment.
Alma says the Twilite makes her sick—
the room keys, the doors and doorjambs,

TVs, counter tops, the complimentary cups—
the whole place is sticky. She says last week
she saw a fly that couldn’t free its feet for take-off
so she slapped it flat beside the guest phone
where it’s stayed three weeks.
Smudge with Reaching Wing, she calls it.


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A Letter to My Former Employer One Week After My Untimely Death

By Nancy Miller Gomez

Featured Art: I Am the Abyss and I Am Light, 1928 by Charles Sims

My house cleaner passed away last week . . .
need to find someone new . . . Prefer someone
who charges by the hour . . . Bob 831-435-648
posted on social networking site Nextdoor

Dear Bob, Perhaps you’ve noticed the smell
of cinnamon and sweet rice drifting through
your kitchen at night. So when the ice melting
in your second glass of gin begins
to sound like a woman singing “El Cantante,”
you’ll know. It’s me.

We only spoke of cobwebs. La mugre y dust.
You never asked me nada. I have a son.
He misses my arroz con leche and my laugh.

Forgive me. I took pleasure in your bad Spanish. Yo estoy
poquito embarazada sobre mío lío en el baño is strange
in any language. I’m sorry you were a little pregnant
on your own in the bathroom. Don’t feel embarrassed.
I was once pregnant on my own too.

See how the stains on the tile around your toilet
have started to take on the shape of my face.
Mi cara! I can’t explain it. It’s just rust. I tried
to scrub it off. But I was someone
you paid by the hour.

Those final days, I know, I was going slow. Mucho dolor.
Still, you owe me a check. But last week, en mi cama,
I was filled with a longing to let go. Yo estaba acabada.

Bob, your number’s missing a digit. No one can reach you.
Though I always thought you were like a creature
in a tide pool who didn’t want to be touched.
Qué lástima. We could have comforted one another.

I hope you won’t forget the way I folded your towels
into a five-star destination, laundered your chones
with lavender, made your bed a lifeboat
of fresh linen. I gave you the world
inmaculado. I was someone named Consuelo.


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Suspensions

By Claire Bateman

Featured Art: Devil’s Bridge on the St Gotthard Road, 1781 by Christian Georg Schütz the Elder

After you’ve braved the glass bridge, the ice bridge,
the gauze bridge, the cobweb bridge, the steam bridge, and
the bridge of molted breath,

you’ll experience the opaque bridge as nothing
but vertigo, collapse, desolation,

and will have to be coaxed, dragged, carried
to the opposite side.


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Soda Money

By Emily Johns-O’Leary

Featured Art: Little Walter’s Toys, 1912 by August Macke

Edison was allowed to spend one-third of his monthly spending money on manatee merchandise, but it usually came to about half. His mother was a marine biologist, and Edison had seen a photograph in one of her magazines when he was six and couldn’t stop looking at the manatee’s bloated snout and flippers like gray oven mitts pinned to the balloon of its body. He was thirty-one now and bought his own nature magazines to look for more pictures, more patient expressions on the floating creatures. Their eyes seemed to want to listen only to him.

He woke early on a Thursday worried about his spending money. He moved Harold’s plush tail and found his phone beneath an umbrella his father had given him. Edison paused to close and open the umbrella, watching the manatee’s face crumple and smooth. Ten years earlier, when his parents said he should have more independence, when his case manager found a retired woman on the other side of San Diego whose client with special needs had moved out of her basement room, they encouraged him not to decorate the walls like his childhood bedroom. “You’re grown up now, Eddy,” his mother said, and his father—so rarely in the same room as his mother and stepdad— nodded and squeezed his shoulder. But Edison had been up all night thinking about moving out of his parents’ house, just like his high school classmates. He was certainly going to decorate the room with manatees.

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The Virgin Mirror

By Claire Bateman

After the handmaidens, blindfolded and proceeding by touch alone, have
twined the masses of string across its enormous silvered surface, then the
mirror-keeper, also blindfolded, sets a lit match to the central knot.

When they sense that the whole skein is ablaze, they bear the burning glass
to the lake’s edge, and lower it into the icy shallows where the mirror-keeper
strikes a single blow, shattering it along every line at once.

Then they lift it in its frame from the water to tap and test its face with their
tongs, plucking out the fragments, swaddling them individually in silk to be
dispersed throughout the land.

Now instead of making pilgrimage in order to not look into the virgin mirror,
each family can cherish a shard to not look into without leaving home.


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Scatter

By Claire Bateman

Featured Art: The Breeze at Morn, 1930 by Thomas Lowinsky

And here we see where the pages of the ocean
were torn from their logbook as if in meticulous rage,
though there’s no debris adhering to the binding,
as might so easily have been the case.
What to do with this stiff and empty cover?
Pack it with snow and staple it all around,
so it can retain its shape until the committee
rends it open and shakes it out face-down,
inviting the ragged pages to return
in just the right sequence
from every place they’ve flown.


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The Strategic Plan

By Carrie Shipers

Featured Art: Voyages of the Moon, 1934-7 by Paul Nash

No one knows its origins. Like carpools
and happy hour, the Plan has simply always been.
Its awkward page breaks and stilted phrasing,
preservation of failed projects, employees

long departed, are evidence of its ambition,
how it defies the limits of language, software,
human thought. No one has ever read the Plan
in its entirety. Attempts to download it

result in system crashes, sunspots, and recession.
A single hard copy is rumored to exist,
its pristine pages collated and punched,
then stored in binders ordered on a shelf—

but no one knows exactly where. A hundred years
from now, when the company has ceased to be
and its headquarters crumble, the Strategic Plan
will rest among the rubble waiting to be found.

Lacking an exact translation, its runic nature
will give rise to cults that worship its straight lines,
its acronyms and colored fonts. It will not
inspire war, only art and rumination.

No one who encounters the Strategic Plan
remains untouched. It features in the dreams
of former employees who understand too late
its vital truth: Every aspect of the Plan—

its ever-shifting goals, its layers of revision
and appendices—acts as both map and goad.
The Strategic Plan is perfect even
in its flaws. It isn’t meant to be fulfilled.


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Rules of Order

By Carrie Shipers

Featured Art: Eternos caminhantes, 1919 by Lasar Segall

To ensure meetings have a clear, productive point,
statements of need and rationale must be approved
prior to invitations being sent. If two important

meetings overlap, please disregard the laws of time
and space. Your project heads have far less power
than they’d hoped, their agendas set by management,

inboxes filled with bad ideas. To ease the burden
they’ve assumed, complaints must be voiced before
the call to order. Late arrivals will be penalized

with dirty looks, wobbly chairs positioned in a draft.
Because discussions may grow heated or not go
your way, you may storm out of two meetings

a year and leave in tears from one. If these limits
are exceeded, you’ll be elected secretary.
Otherwise please stay until officially adjourned,

even if you’re bored or late for surgery.
If a meeting runs over its allotted time, an alarm
will sound. Continued failure to disperse

will cause the sprinklers to come on. To avoid
a doorway bottleneck, you’ll be dismissed
in order of seniority or usefulness. We tested

these new rules the same day they were written:
we came, discussed, voted, and left impressed
with our efficiency. If due to their constraints

we brainstormed less, explored fewer options
or consequences, we found it a fair trade for the brisk
pace, guarantee we’d escape getting drenched.


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Questions for the Office of Public Relations

By Carrie Shipers

Featured Art: The Purchaser, 1915 by Eric Gill

Do you pride yourself on your preparedness? For example,
have you already drafted a statement expressing shock

and sadness at the actions of Employee X? Did you
write it with a particular person and scenario in mind,

and if so will you say which ones? Given your choice
of disaster, would you prefer a product recall months

after concerns were first reported, high-level infidelity
involving interns and/or prostitutes, a flagrant

disregard for federal law, or embezzlement based on
shareholder fraud? Did you choose the challenge

you’re best poised to meet, or the one that sounded
the most fun? Speaking of fun, is it true most members

of your field make very poor decisions regarding alcohol,
sex and property damage, and therefore any conference

lasting longer than a day devolves into a bacchanal?
How often, in your personal life, do you attempt

to reframe information and influence someone’s view?
Is this a breach of ethics on your part, or would you insist

it’s simply human nature to want your own way?
Have you ever waged a secret, negative (i.e., “dark”)

campaign against a neighbor, coworker or person
sleeping with your spouse? Were your actions

as successful as you’d hoped? Despite your efforts
to predict what I might ask, were there any points

at which you felt compelled to obfuscate, equivocate
or hedge? Do you assume you did so with such skill

I couldn’t tell? On learning this was not the case,
would you feel more disappointment that you’d failed,

or relief someone finally had seen through your facade?
If the former, would your distress be eased by my sincere

apology, or do you doubt that such a thing exists?


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Melbourne Beach

By Bo Lewis

Featured Art: Second Beach, Newport, c. 1878-80 by Worthington Whittredge 

Coach West had just finished grilling the dogs and we were all standing in line, going crazy with hunger. We’d had nothing but concession stand sno-cones after the doubleheader, and we were ready to eat our weight in barbecue. Rudy and I were going to do an experiment to see which tasted better on dogs—onions or relish. I was going to blindfold myself with my ballcap and Rudy was going to feed me one bite of each until I discovered the answer.

But Dad’s hatchback came skidding across the gravel toward the pavilion, a long dust cloud rising up behind it like the tail of a dragon, and I knew something was about to happen. The door popped open and his hand shot down to the gravel like a kickstand as he got out of the car. He left it running and didn’t shut the door behind him.

Coach West set down his tongs and gave Rudy’s father a look. They hopped off the pavilion deck and went to greet Dad. Marcellus’s mother, our Team Mom, took over at the grill, speaking loudly and brightly, asking what everybody was doing for summer now that we were done with the third grade.

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How to Be Better by Being Worse

By Justin Jannise

Featured Art: The Kiss, 1895 by Edvard Munch

Ban soap. Banish suds.
Sweep the dormitory clean
of polish. Let dust do
what dust does with no opinion

from feathers.
Invite musk. Be clothed
in scandal. Smear
and smudge and slander yourself

courageous. Fuck
courage. Stick your finger
in its wet mouth and kiss
its salty neck. Slip in

as many chickenshit deeds
as any deadbeat dad
ever did. Forget
birthdays. Ruin Christmas.

Run people over
in conversation. Let them finish
not one sentence.
Let them sit with their own nonsense

for a second. Leave them
tongue-tied and pent up
with unexpressed vexation.
Get off the pleasant train to nowhere.

Get back on with your most
regrettable self. Someone
will love you. Someone will still fall
madly in front of you.


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Wethersfield

By Michael Pontacoloni

Featured Art: Fire at Full Moon by Paul Klee

Dad has three different chainsaws
and Kevlar shin pads,
the same glossy material
protecting a spacecraft
as it drifts into the Kuiper Belt
where little flecks of undead planet
fling around like buckshot
and light from the sun
takes a while to arrive.

I am glad that my dad is safe
from the Kuiper Belt.
Eventually something else will kill him,
but for now he is cutting firewood
into precise sizes. He is wearing
a wide-brimmed hat.
I am rubbing aloe
into my own growing forehead,
trying not to believe

that he grew up in the only town
hit by a meteorite twice.
One punched a hole in a roof
then rolled under a table
like a peach. The other
lodged in a crossbeam that might well have been

his sleeping smile or
the windshield of his idling El Camino.
He’s asked that I sprinkle him into the woods
when that something else
falls from the sky like a bucket of nails.


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Moving the Piano

By Kathryn Petruccelli

Featured Art: The Keynote, 1915 by William Arthur Chase

It takes almost nothing
to step into each other’s lives: a favor
for a neighbor, a huge, upright Steinway
there’s no one left to play.

All morning they labored together,
the men. Everything they could think of
to get it out of the van
                                          and over the curb—
metal ramp, wooden boards, a jack,
the old bed frame from behind the garage.

Dave had never asked my husband
for anything before. The house
he’d grown up in was already packed,
mementos sold, his mother’s mind

skipping liberally among the decades,
her fingers running through chords in the air
or waltzing grandly
through measures of Chopin.
                                                     His father
stooped from his own burdens, aged beyond
his years, nodding when people talked
about his new facility, so highly regarded,
so clean. There was sweat, grunting,

my husband mumbled a curse
as they argued about angles, pushed
their charge up the cracked walkway,
three shallow steps to the porch.

And because we have no better idea
how to be with each other
in our pain,
                       when they’d finally struggled
the monstrous instrument
into Dave’s house, they could only
wipe their hands on their jeans,
crack their knuckles, and share
a pizza, which they ate standing
in the kitchen, hunched over
its grease-stained box.


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One Step

By Betsy Sholl

Featured Art: Towards the Forest I, 1897 by Edvard Munch

Who am I to say to the man: You can’t
sleep in corduroys and a dress shirt,

or: Don’t stick your fork in the potatoes,
spoon them onto your plate,

as I must have said more than once
to our children.

To the man I would have said: What does it
mean to be saved, and from what?

Or I’d ask about a friend’s blunder: How can
somebody so smart do such a dumb thing?

And he’d half smile, then shake his head,
Don’t you understand, it’s not about brains.

How can I tell this man: You can’t sleep
in anything that has a leather belt

or a wallet in its pocket, and, Here
are your pajamas, which he puts on

inside-out so the flannel pockets flap
like limp fins and he laughs

and flutters them a while before we start
again, right foot in right leg.

He laughs too at my schoolmarm self,
asks, How did you get so bossy?

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Alexa

By Ruth Bardon

Featured Art: L’Armoire à Glace, 1924 by Walter Richard Sickert

She is ignorant and admits to being
easily confused.

She tells her jokes with a cheerfulness
that shows how lost she is.

I want to help her and teach her how
the world works,

and I love this feeling of knowing
so much more,

but it also makes me hate her
a little more each time,

each time she admits she’s having trouble,
is helpless to assist,

like a mother of grown children,
who see her now

as someone who offers only facts
from the news,

a weather report or a small repertoire
of songs and stories,

like the mother I may become,
sitting and nodding

as if I understood the talk,
chiming in

and coming to attention
when my name is spoken.


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The Oldies, at Island Pond, Vermont

By Allen Stein

Featured Art: Oberon, Titania and Puck with Fairies Dancing, 1786 by William Blake

Rockin’ in jeans, T-shirt, and sneakers
at the tiny bandstand by the pond,
the ponytailed girl belts them out, the goldies
of three or four decades ago.
She’s hittin’ ’em with her best shot,
makin’ it all hurt so good,
but a closer look shows she’s no younger
than the songs she sings,
though not as old as most dancing
on the worn-out patch between
their lawn chairs and the stage
this final Friday Night Live of a brief
summer that in these parts is rarely
without a hint of the fall.

The dancers, moving gingerly, stiffly,
grin in unabashed acknowledgment
that the tempo hasn’t changed but they have.
One white-bearded fellow’s denims droop
at the seat despite his tightened belt
and taut bright suspenders, and an old lady
stands at her walker and sways,
dreamy-eyed, perhaps recalling, perhaps not,
that these are the tunes not of her own youth
but her grandchild’s. Beside her,
a stout, gray-haired woman,
no doubt her daughter, mouths the words,
smiles, and holds her mother’s hands,
steadying her as they move together
to “Every Breath You Take.”

The surrounding mountains dim
and the nearby pond (a broad, deep lake, really)
reflects the stars. At its center sits an island,
thickly wooded, uninhabited.
As the sun moves on, the elderly drift away,
and younger kids step in,
accepting, for tonight at least,
a mellowed groove. In time, the last notes
of the final Friday Night Live
will float out over the water. The dancers
will linger briefly, then depart, grateful
for the music they’ve been given.


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On the Walls

By Julialicia Case

I am two, and the cornfields are enormous. An ocean of stalks surrounds our house in Iowa, green and hushed in the summer, brown and rattling in the fall. From our porch, the only thing visible that isn’t corn is a tiny house far in the distance at the crest of a small hill. This is where all the storybook characters live.

At night, I fall asleep imagining them. Big Bird sits in an armchair and watches the same episode of Dallas my parents watch in our living room. The Berenstain Bears make rice pudding while the poky little puppy splashes in the bathroom, and the Borrowers steal a sliver of soap. They are all there: Francis and Arthur and Corduroy, sharing popcorn, singing Simon and Garfunkel, adopting every single stray cat. Someday I will be there, too.

The fields are so big, the corn so tall. I will need to carry Fig Newtons and apple juice. I will bring my favorite blanket so I can sleep without nightmares among the leaves. Some days, while playing in the yard, I start out, racing across the grass toward that house on the horizon. My parents always catch me, turn me around, aim me back toward our flowerbeds. They laugh as if it is a joke, as if I’m not determined to risk everything.

One evening, a spring thunderstorm pelts the newly planted soil. Wind rocks the power lines, black clouds churning. I watch through the screen door as lightning throws up sparks along the horizon, the storybook house suddenly a star of flame. My father calls the fire department, but by the morning the house is only a gray smudge of ash.

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