Infinity Net

By Jaye Kranz

It’s a new year and my friends are snowing in.  

It’s a new year and my friends are swimming out.  

It’s a new year and I meant to be still. I meant to slip between
the years and do one complete back-up of my core, there.  

I meant to give away at least half of my wholes. 

I meant to reply to last year. 

It’s a new year and we throw prawn-heads to the dog
while the algorithm plays Love Theme from Spartacus.   

It’s a new year and we’re on the roof counting from ten to one
with strangers we can hear but can’t see
on the other side of the fence.  

Dear Year, I see now, how fireworks require emptiness
but can still enter the muscle
of my dog’s hind legs. 

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Ecstasy Facsimile

By Mark Anthony Cayanan
Featured Art: “Event Horizon” by Mallory Stowe

Guess manageable despair arrives on time today,  
my soul cracking when sunlight sharpens my migraine.  
I listen to Wilco and amplify my unoriginal sadness.   
The U-Bahn stalls at Ullsteinstraße and now I’m sure
I’m going to be alone forever, and it’s oh so important,
this intimate history between my earbuds and my feelings.
It wouldn’t be so bad, being somewhat lonely, mostly
ordinary, if I could soundtrack my life. I’d stare at rows
of bottled wieners while mumbling invented lyrics.
And I’m still mostly male and so adjust myself in the aisle,
my ball cap and sullen face, chili & lime chips, cheap IPAs.
I self-checkout to avoid talking. I bring my own bag.
Pleasure never lasts, you know, but pleasure does. And how
embarrassing, to be unloved. I hum every longing home.  


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Prognosis

By Richie Zaborowske
Featured Art: “Frills” by Alex Brice

Afraid that her husband Clint would find out, Debra began withdrawing cash out of their savings account and hiding the money in a wool sock in her underwear drawer. She got herself a divorce lawyer, a good one from one of those law firms with three last names. After searching around online, she found a landlord who, after she placed two months’ rent down as a deposit, didn’t ask too many questions. Then, when she finally had everything in place, when the only thing left was for her to find the courage to tell Clint she was leaving, on his way home from happy hour at Smitty’s Tap, Clint blew a stop sign and rammed his Ford F-150 into the side of a milk truck. 

A police officer told her about the accident. Knocking on her door as Debra was dumping a pot of spaghetti noodles into a colander in the kitchen sink. Clint had never been to jail. But he was no stranger to law enforcement. So, she wasn’t exactly surprised when she opened the door and a police officer was standing on her porch.  

“Your husband’s been in a wreck,” the officer said, in one breath, as if he had been running. The officer was young; cropped haircut, big ears. Haltingly, he explained that Clint was in a coma. Showed her a picture of the scene on his phone; the side of Clint’s truck crumpled like tinfoil; a blast of glass strewn across the road. 

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Samsara

By Matthew Williams

My students wear the name Nirvana and don’t know the band.
I didn’t know Kurt Cobain chose the name for its pretty sound
and, when I was younger, revered him as a tortured genius
until my brother found my mother unconscious
and all the medicine bottles empty. They say
he didn’t want the band’s name to sound angry.
One of my students who loves his Nirvana shirt
lost his mother. He stands and shouts at everyone
and no one and pushes out the classroom door. Despite
my mother becoming a self-avowed Buddhist who listens
to Thích Nhất Hạnh audiobooks and smokes marijuana
for chronic nausea and pain, I still know little of Nirvana
beyond what I’ve gleaned from a few movies and books:
transcendent detachment, cosmic oneness, unbeing.
And yet, with what little I knew, after
the bell rang, after the students
moved through the long hallways
that shook then stilled
as they emptied of their laughter,
I looked for him. I did.
I looked for that boy. 


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Dedication for a Plot of Ground

     after William Carlos Williams 

By Matthew Williams

This plot of ground facing the gaze
of unrelenting California sun
is dedicated to the living presence of
Charlotte Elizabeth Williams
who laid down in South Carolina,
before boycotted busses with a son
still in her stomach, was forced to move
with her husband and children to Hawaii,
lost that husband to Vietnam, flew
back across the Pacific with her sons
to become the second black family
in a Sacramento suburb, surviving
a stalker who stabbed her seventeen times
and scarred the hands she used to drag
the abusive second husband onto the lawn,
pull the knife from his back, defend from him
the family who, on her single salary, she ensured
saw plays, ballets, foreign shores, afforded new clothes
for new schools—knowing enough of the old school
to keep five black boys from trouble, to fight
against the expectations of pale neighbors,
against the recklessness of their youth,
against driving I-80 ninety miles an hour
and the dour white face that sounds the siren. 

She often spoke of God, prayed daily,
became a Senior Olympian as if to hint
at a dignity deities and mountains alone
can achieve, and in her final days
attained a holiness we can only call
human, as her body was still here,
when she began traveling
in that other world, and—

if you can bring nothing
to where she sleeps
but your body, rotten
with its easy living,
keep out. 


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Joy Riders

By Michael Mark
Featured Art: “Lost Moment” by Mallory Stowe

My 98-year-old father steals cars
every day. It’s not uncommon
for him to take another at night, too. 

Sometimes he slips the keys
from an aide’s pastel pink scrubs
while they’re tying his shoes or,  

he tells me, he picks the pockets
of visitors of other residents—he sneers
saying that word. Most times, though,  

he steals his own—he’s been prohibited
from driving by his ophthalmologist,
audiologist, cardiologist, children,  

the State of New York. Often he’ll filch one
he sold last century or one he’s wrecked—
the green woody station wagon. He winks  

telling me he hot-wired his old man’s
‘31 yellow taxi cab. Lunch mostly
is when he makes his getaways. The food’s crap  

at The Home—more sneers, punctuated
with a dry spit—cold, mushy, same grey
thing over and over. He brings the cars back,  

tank filled to the exact spot
on the gauge as when he heists it. So nobody’s
tipped off. Weekday or weekend, 

makes no difference, he always ends up
at the same Burger King. On the way
he swings by the cemetery, picks up mom.  

She loves their nuggets.                                                     

  


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Essay: The lines, the borders

By Julia Ferry

  1. Beginning 

I shrink the size of the image. Now I feel that it reveals too much, even though that was precisely my intention when I photographed my grandmother. It is her daughter, who died when I was only 5 years old, who I wanted to find through this face. For a while I’ve started searching for my mother and decided to start with hers. I wanted to get as close as possible to this person who, to me, is distant and silent. 

I’ve never known the name of the city where she was born, who her parents were, or how old she was when she emigrated to Brazil. I don’t know what it was like for her to raise six Brazilian children, all born in a Japanese colony where she lived and worked for 40 years. We’ve exchanged a few words, especially about her second daughter. I think about this silence and wonder whether it is the generations, the languages, the apprehension, or the loss that separates us. 

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Grief in the Potting Shed

By Allisa Cherry
Featured Art: “Lily, Out of Breath” by Mallory Stowe

I startle a deer mouse 
squirreling straw into a pile of burlap.  
It freezes then returns to its instinctive labor 
caring for its litter of pups–still deaf and blind. 
Each as small and pink as a baby’s toe.  
How miniscule my reflection must be,  
turned upside-down in the gloss of its dark eye. 
At the beginning of the war in Ukraine 
a woman approached a Russian soldier, 
gave him a handful of seeds,  
and told him to carry them in his pocket  
so when he died on Ukrainian soil  
at least sunflowers would grow where he fell.  
At least. No matter how great the devastation,  
it requires a small act of resistance for scale.  
Consider those moments Roland Hayes  
stood in a resolute silence while members  
of the Nazi party booed and cursed 
his blackness. Alone under a spotlight on stage  
in a concert hall buzzing with hatred.  
And still his throat softened  
and a song—Du Bist die Ruh—rose  
from his throat until every fascist heart  
had been stroked by the finger of its beauty.  
But I have never been brave.  
I’ve only ever waited out the clock  
in those moments when I was afraid.  
So, when my older sister asked me 
—the apostate daughter—to help her  
dress my mother’s dead body  
in her temple robes, tie the fig leaf apron,  
fasten her bonnet and veil, I couldn’t  
take in the tenderness of her heresy  
all at once. Instead, I narrowed my focus  
to the industry of my fingers, 
half expecting them to snap into flames  
as I pushed each pearl button  
through its braided hoop.  


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THE KNOT

By Sarah Suhr
Featured Art: “Aria” by Mallory Stowe

   for Patty 

you broke your mother’s ribcage trying  
to revive her bones like a goldfinch 
do not cry daughter oh wisp of breath  
she speaks from beyond her tomb  
keep chrysanthemums & coneflowers  
in each corner of our house & console  
your father with a nightcap westerns &  
puzzles  
        still he cries each year  
that passes & you oh daughter carry  
bouquets & his weight across  
threshold after threshold till he can  
no longer hold a spoon to his mouth 
so you petal chowder to his tongue  
& every swallow is a strangulation 
that stones your heart to silence   
               you 
no longer know where your fingertips 
end & his begin if the sun has risen 
or descended oh daughter are you 
in darkness or light he says this is it 
i am done after dialysis & within days  
his head wilts cold into your palms 
you clear his books from your shelf &  
reshelve poetry found in a storage unit  
your hands hold a collection called  
reclamation but you can’t recall  
how it came to you 


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The News from North Korea 

By Jim Marino

We’re three bites into not-quite-Christmas pie when my mother breaks into the epic tale of Dad leaving her for another woman. Sometimes it’s a blonde, sometimes a spurious redhead, depending on how inspiration moves the teller. Like all great oral epics, it’s founded on a myth. My father’s been dead almost four years. The other woman he left my mother for was an inoperable brain tumor. But who wants to hear that? 

“All those sexy young dental hygienists, and in the end? He leaves me for a patient.” Mom wags her fork like a finger, emphasizing, demanding attention, making just one point more. “This little Puerto Rican with big fake tits and fake blonde hair and two impacted molars. Consuela. And would you believe the worst part?” 

My husband wears the Jesuit-school poker face I envy so, eyebrows raised as if he’s just been told some modestly interesting fact. Eddie, approximately 2.4 years old, is busy experimenting with whipped cream between his fingers, and my sister Judy, who drove Mom the two days from Miami, still looks a little dazed. But Larry from work hangs on Mom’s every word.  

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Essay: Far From a Mother 

By Madeline Simms
Featured Art: “Eye of Horus” by Ryan Davis

It is a Wednesday when I ask for help in the kitchen, a Tuesday night for my mother.  Winter flirts with spring as she sends a photo of the Monkey Bread recipe across the Atlantic. It reaches me and my dry bones in the wet grey of Ireland. I am looking for anything sweet—  

She sends a good night text when I send Good morning, alongside a picture of Rian and Jonah climbing over my groggy body. We laugh countries apart. Day or night, it is winter-dark wherever we are. I send her a video of the boys licking my face as if they are dogs, and we laugh counties apart. Our well-wishing is a promise of rising, be it the sun, the bread. I think of the day ahead of me filled with Hot Wheels, dropping off the boys at school, picking them up, snacks, spills, a likely tear or two—author unknown.  

During the past few months as an au pair, I’ve grown closer to my mother. She sends me suggestions for sneaking veggies onto the boys’ picky tongues, fun games to fill our long days together. I can’t help but wonder if she feels this too, comradery despite the distance. 

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The Uncertainty Principle

By Rodd Whelpley

You can only know a particle’s speed 
or its location—never both at once. 

But Saturday Night Fever isn’t science, 
and mom and dad were “Stayin’ Alive” 
late in marriage learning to cha-cha-cha 
quickstep, waltz, and foxtrot.
                     Except no one    
at dancehalls played that then—only disco. 
So, in the living room, they would argue, 
practicing their Walk and Latin Hustle. 
By all rights these kids back in ’49 
didn’t stand a chance. A baby in her 
senior year. He, un-scouted by the pros.   
Their young lives falling into steady beats— 
car loan, home loan, work, kids, and getting old. 
Did they love each other?
                                                 There are questions—  
painful—for which no one seeks an answer,  
only theories: How he stepped butter smooth. 
How she horse-stomped backward, skipped the record. 
How all those years they remained in motion. 
Physics never factored in the Bee Gees, 
or counted on my parents . . . five—six—seven— 
eight. She drops blind. And there. He catches her.   


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A Toast to My Son’s Last Drink 

By Rodd Whelpley

His mom and I are slow to form attachments. 
(We have met your kind before—juniper  
on pulse points, malt-conditioned hair.) But if  
you are his last last drink, then welcome  
to the family.
                         We’ll receive your gifts
beneath the tree, set white meat on your plate.
There will be no politics at dinner, and
I’ll fight to forget you as the Danube—
a frothy current pushing those swan-boat
kill-me pills across his lips, which landed,
by grace, hapless,
                                  like a drift of cygnets
tickling his gut. If you swear you are
his last last drink, then I will pay a cantor
and a priest. Father you, as I have failed
to father him. Take you at the elbow.
wedding march you as my dire daughter,
and let him lift the veil. 


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Animal Control

By Anna Sheffer
Featured Art: “The Bride” by Alex Brice

The buffalo’s tail swished. Clumps of sod mashed around in its mouth. Dana watched through the sliding glass door, safely hidden behind the curtains. If she wasn’t so afraid, it would have been funny, spying on this creature demolishing their yard as if it were an inconsiderate neighbor. But the welcome pamphlet had said these animals were unpredictable—not to be approached under any circumstance—so she was on hold with the nature preserve, listening to jazz flute riffs while wrapped in the curtains she had bought less than a month ago.  

Libby materialized, round four-year-old stomach protruding in front of her. A plastic horse figurine dangled by its mane from her closed fist. “Mommy, what are you doing?” She had been playing quietly in front of the TV just minutes ago; why couldn’t she go back to whatever she’d been up to?  

Before Dana could reply, Libby peeked around the curtain and let out a delighted squeal. “Look, mommy, a buffafwo! Did you see it?” 

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Basketball

By Christopher Shipman

Mark was two years younger.
He was 10 to my 12. But Mark had a hoop
with a chain net, the post
planted right in his backyard, its slick metal
gleaming among his mother’s azaleas
and lilyturfs. It didn’t matter
that on our block two years meant
two lifetimes. We were fast friends anyway.
Had to be. The park wasn’t
too far but it was farther than I wanted.
Besides, his mother made the best
sweet tea and gave us all we could swallow.
That summer I honed my skills.
I’d finally have the chops
to take Jimmy Blake to the hole
the next season. That was my only thought
at the top of the key. Then the next
season started and I was 42
and living in another state, married
for going on 13 years, father to a daughter
who just celebrated her 10th birthday,
her smile gleaming among
three bouquets of assorted flowers adorning
the dining room for the occasion.
I can’t even remember what Jimmy Blake
looked like. The new season
will start up soon with or without him.
With no Mark nearby, I’ll air up an old ball
in the shed, head for the park.  


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Trick of the Light

By Jessica Jo Staricka
Featured Art: “Nope” by Alex Brice

One night twenty years later, among cardboard boxes fuzzy with dust in the basement of my mom’s final house, I find a tennis racket. I’m puzzled. We never played tennis. Maybe the racket was trash left behind by a previous renter that we accidentally packed and brought with us on one of our many moves. Maybe Gladys and I begged a dollar off our mom to buy it at a garage sale and made up our own game pitching pinecones to each other in one of the back yards. 

But when I pick it up, its exact heft and balance rush me out of this basement and twenty years back, to the perfume of white pines and the prick of their needles through the holes in my sneakers, to the gravel yards and dandelion lawns and empty horse corrals and collapsing barns of the half-dozen ramshackle farmhouses we rented growing up, to their living rooms on summer nights, where Twins games played on TV, where I tinkered with salvaged arts and crafts, where my sister Gladys played an out-of-tune piano if the house happened to come with one, and where a bat appeared in the corner of the ceiling. 

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Essay: Angling

“Fie on the witch!” cried a merry girl,
    As they rounded the point where Goody Cole
Sat by her door with her wheel atwirl,
    A bent and blear-eyed poor old soul.
—from “Wreck of Rivermouth” by John Greenleaf Whittier

By Matt Miller
Featured Art: “Close Up – Spatial Neighborhoods” by Alex Brice

The world will work to twirl girls into witches, or they will twirl themselves into witches, or they will twirl and turn away from the witch they could be, would be if not for the world saying no, the world saying that their lives are their own fault. Goody Cole, the witch of Hampton, walks the marshes, haunts the dune grasses, watches the ships from the granite perch above the Atlantic shoreline of Little Boars’ Head. She is looking for her name.  

“I can’t back,” my father said and so I thought this was a story about my father. In the old stories, every father is an ogre, an ogre of absence or an ogre of presence. Today he was present and being pulled out into the Atlantic, borne upon his own currents.   

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Irish Nocturne

By Derek Jon Dickinson
Featured Art: “Grass Pathway” by Madelyn Bartolone

I lift myself, pinch my hat, splash some coins against my debt. Crusts of dried swallows in the emptied pint-glass. Outside, the moon is a wooden button through its slit of Gaelic wool. The pub is a cask of fermenting voices, windows oily with yellow light; night melting inside me, like a given kiss, or warm wobble of whiskey. South—my soles scuffed with work, clicking the dew-glistening cobble, the brook-straddling bridge; water, fragile as flute-glass, tinkling the stone sluice. Moonlight stitching the fraying salmon; lidless eyes, cold as premonition; tails pulsing like sunken sails. The coming car-light snips me like scissors from the black pitch night, its red taillights trailing-off as errant sparks. Home—wafts of sweet peat-smoke, a tune rolling around like a marble in my mouth. With sun-chipped hands, I work the turf-stove’s iron latch; strip-off my clothes, naked as a wet salmon, strumming the sheets upstream; thumb denting the clay slab of my wife’s hip. 


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A Space Unfilled

By Theresa Burns

There is no great beauty without some strangeness in the proportion.
   —Edgar Allen Poe 

I heard this the first time from my high school boyfriend, 
who became my college boyfriend when he hitchhiked 

from Long Island to Boston a week after I’d left, 
found me in Mary Ann’s on Comm Ave with friends I was 

 starting to make. And I was both happy and annoyed 
Paul had come, and the next morning he said it— 

I’d cut my classes to lie with him on the quad, 
infatuated with his blue-jean eyes, his Martin guitar, 

and he told me the gap in my front teeth, though strange, 
had an element of beauty. And I believed him then.      

It was the Eighties—Lauren Hutten was hot, and Les Blank 
made a movie about the mystique of gap-toothed women, 

and every guy I dated since would mention that movie, 
remark on that gap, which made me more self-conscious, 

but if I threatened to have it fixed, they’d say don’t. 
We adored Patti Smith then, with her heroin-thin arms, 

and the old man voice of Neil Young, more alley cat 
than honey, and I began to see what Paul understood, 

that in every kind of beauty, there is a strangeness,  
a mistake. Years later, a friend told me, 

Paul became a junkie, and died of a blood clot 
that mostly junkies got.     I thought of him last week— 

the man behind wanted me to make a right on red, 
except there was traffic coming, and he got out of his car                    

to yell at me directly, swearing and spitting, my kids 
in the back seat. And then he said it— 

Why don’t you get your ugly teeth fixed, lady? 


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Essay: Original Sin

By Anna Davis Abel
Featured Art: “Self-Portrait” by Rachel Hall

“You’ve got to be feeling better!” 

Kim, the nurse practitioner I see every month, beams at me from across her desk, framed by a fortress of file folders and half-drained pens. A congealed yellow mass perches in the corner of the tabletop, leering at me like an inside joke I no longer find funny. This is what ten pounds of fat looks like! she’d said once, jiggling it between her hands. You’ve lost four of these! 

“I do feel better,” I lie, curling my lips into the smile I know she loves. 

I am her only eating disorder patient—a peculiar case in a weight loss clinic that masquerades as a wellness program. They market health here, but the waiting room tells a different story: anxious bodies perch on plastic chairs, flipping through pamphlets promising transformation. The air smells faintly of antiseptic and desperation. 

“You’re a real success story, Anna,” Kim says, slipping the reading glasses from atop her head. Her fingers dance over the laptop keys, scrolling, scrolling—pausing. A satisfied hum. “Looks like we’re only twelve pounds away from your BMI goal! And how long has it been since a binge?” 

I aim for optimism. “Three months.” 

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Essay: Pride

By R.M. Harper

I smoothed the dress across my chest as the Pride Parade smiled, danced, and sang its way past San Francisco City Hall. It was the kind of summer day the world paints the Bay: seventy degrees, a kissing breeze, and not a cloud in sight. Parents carried children on their shoulders to watch the floats pass by. Would it be easier for them, knowing what they could be, or are we moving backwards through the decadence of our time? 

Violet cheered the Chicanx parade group passing twirling, smiling, holding hands. Her outfit alternated pink-black, nails and denim skirt, fishnets, scales of silver eyeshadow, six-foot-two, a neon angel in combat boots. We were in the MFA program together at Saint Mary’s College, in East Bay. She was a good friend and a great Dungeon Master. I was glad she had offered to come with me: it was my first Pride. 

Entering the Civic Center I took in the panorama pink and plural. There were booths all along the Civic Center selling stickers, candy, cock rings, clothes. The crowd was making its way toward the main stage where drag queens smiled scarlet to the heartbeat drum of the stereo bass. A masc voice called out to us as we passed by. 

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Duplex (Gray-blue Staircase) 

By Theo Jasper

I feel small at the bottom of the gray-blue staircase, 
the one where she didn’t die, even when I visit it in my memory. 

Even when I visit it in my memory, the duplex where she tried to die, 
I can never reach the top of that staircase. 

The light hits the blood on the floor, (why can’t God see the staircase?) 
and my childhood cat has escaped, like she knew what was coming. 

And in my memory I have escaped because I know what is coming. 
But memory is not reality and the reality is this: there was blood on the windowsill. 

Memory is whichever wine goes down the easiest. Reality is the staircase, the windowsill. 
In a duplex on Orange Street, there’s blood all the way up the stairs. 

In a duplex on Orange Street, I never move from the bottom of the stairs. 
Maybe God sees me. Maybe he doesn’t. But in my memory, I never go up. 

I keep my head bowed. My blood is like wine. I never, ever grow up. 
I stay small at the bottom of the gray-blue staircase.


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Nativity

By Theo Jasper

This morning in January, the men on the street were  
wheeling one of the Wise Men into a truck, on a dolly,  
just like that. 

And I remember two weeks ago, Christmas Eve,  
a man in front of the Nativity almost backed into my car 
and his immediate anger was infuriating, his middle finger,  
as if it were my fault for being where I had been all along, 
and I wanted to do something but remembered danger,  
saw his son’s eyes watching me  
from the backseat. 
 
His anger flashes in my mind while the men wrap God in bubble wrap, 
banging his head against the roof of the truck, how it probably 
dissipated after a minute or two, then maybe regret for this display  
on Christmas Eve, the severe eyes of Christ, and maybe a drop or two of anger  
left over, or only quiet sacredness.  

A man drops a lamb on the sidewalk. The sky threatens  
to break open. And the child was scared. 
And the child was scared.  

Give me the plaster eyes of an angel,  
the eyes of anyone who might stop the car and see this, 
horns honking now, see this birth of Christ, St. Gabriel delivered the news 
to always look where we are not wanted, to await our annunciation 
as virgins and sheep among the teeth of Shepherds, 
holy men, good men, packing up their religion, 
sweeping dust and myrrh and the shattered bodies of those 
who will continue to go unnamed. 


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Mask 13

By Annemarie Neary
Featured Art by Rachel Hall

They had barely finished the introductions when he asked about the war. The endgame, the likely victor, things no Ukrainian cared to discuss with strangers.  

‘I wish I knew,’ she said. Usually that was enough. 

‘But what do you think?’ 

She managed to keep her tone level. ‘I try not to think. But I’ll do a good job here regardless.’  

She didn’t like his smile any more than she liked his question. But she did want the job. A friend who was still in Kyiv had spotted the ad online. These things are almost never advertised, so Olena emailed right away with her CV.  

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Riddle

By Emily Banks

It was everything I didn’t have
and all I wanted. 

If I could have it
I knew I would have all
I didn’t have and everything
I wanted. 

It was a key to the city
of dreams, a hacker’s code
in a hackneyed spy film,
a sleek black rectangle
of plastic with no limit I could slip
into my back pocket. 

I wasn’t wrong. I found it.
Doors did open
and chairs were gestured free.
I saw carpets roll out in strangers’ eyes. 

They flock like moths to artificial light.
It tickles me, how they brush their tattered wings
on my glass skin, fiends for the bright,
willing even to die— 

I can make anyone
tell me everything
I want to hear
for a night. 

They hate me when they learn I’m not the sky.  


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The Algorithm Sells Me a New Bra 

By Emily Banks

Hate bras? This is the bra for you.
I can’t gatekeep. I hadn’t worn a bra in years
but this changed me. Are you a member
of the Itty Bitty Titty Club (IBTC)?
Well it’s here finally, a bra made for small cups. No more gapping.
I threw all my old bras in the trash when I tried this on.
I just ordered four more. Have you been wearing the wrong size
since you were ten and your mother wrapped you up
with her measuring tape, told you to stand still, straight?
We’ll tell you your True Size. Take this quick quiz
and give us your email. We’ll send you emails till you buy
a bra from us or die. What do you mean
you want to unsubscribe? This is our best offer, only one time.
I used to believe wireless bras couldn’t work
for big boobs like mine. That was until I tried—I can’t gatekeep.
This one is for my girls who are blessed in the chest.
This year we’re kicking underwire to the curb.
This year we’re breaking up with cup spillage.
This year we’re saying no to uniboob
and constant pain. Listen, you need to see this for yourself.
My bestie asked if I’d gotten a boob job.
I’ve never had cleavage before this bra.
This bra is magic. Watch how it disappears under my tee.
Watch how it makes my back fat disappear.
Does your size fluctuate throughout your cycle?
Girl, mine too. Girl, this one is for you.
Stop what you’re doing now and listen up.
These straps won’t slip or dig into your skin
branding you with crimson marks that take
forever to fade. So easy to adjust! This is the very bra
Taylor Swift wore rehearsing for the Eras Tour.
It improves your posture and your mental health.
I can’t gatekeep. I quit therapy after wearing this for a day.
My boyfriend asked if I’d started a new anti-depressant.
Ladies, this is not a normal bra.
It feels like I’m wearing a cloud.
It feels like I’m floating on an innertube
with my bestie back when we were still too young
for bras. I fall asleep in it. Work out in it.
I’ve updated my will to request
they bury me in it. Because this is heaven:
no more gapping, no uniboob, no endless, lonely ache
so subtle you stop noticing it till it’s gone.
These pads can be removed for customized cleavage.
This is my new “have to leave the house” bra.
This is my new “have to turn the Zoom camera on” bra.
This is my new “have to drag myself from bed
although what’s the point really” bra.
Its band never rides up. My ride-or-die.
You’ll wear it the store. Wear it to work. The gym.
To make dinner, to load the dishwasher.
To Swiffer the floor and vacuum the rug, scroll through a feed
of wedding anniversaries and new babies,
cocktails on beaches, the friends you meant to keep
up with and men you once turned down looking happy,
check Facebook Memories.
Girl, you can stop scrolling.
I can’t gatekeep: this is the first bra
I don’t take off as soon I get home. This is it for me.
This is the support I’ve been needing.
Oh my God, this changes everything.   


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Vernonox

By Rick Andrews

<BEGIN AT MARK 1> 

                                  Thank you. I appreciate it. Thank you. You’re too kind.
                 Thanks so much, everyone. <GESTURE TO CROWD>. There’s an
                 excitement in the air tonight. Can you feel it? 
                                  Let’s give it up one more time for our amazing speakers,
                shall we? Let them hear it, folks!  

<LET APPLAUSE DIE DOWN> 

                                  You know, people ask me why I started Vernonox. They
                 come up to me in the lobby, they recognize me at bars, in airports.
                 People all over the world stop me on the street and say “Michael—
                 Michael D. Powers—why did you start Vernonox?” I tell them
                 there are three reasons. 

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Naturism

By Michele Lombardo

My fourteen-year-old daughter lounges atop the Queen-sized bed wearing pink nylon hiking shorts, woolen socks, and nothing else. Torso, out. Boobs, out. I’d been in the bathroom for three minutes and now, somehow, this. Arms folded behind her head, she smiles, a sly tilt in her expression that signals danger. My husband faces the wall of the cramped hotel room, his back to her, like she ordered him to stand in the corner. Whatever this is, he’s losing. Lately, we’re all losing.  

Jake pivots to me. “Try to convince her that wearing a shirt in front of her father isn’t too much to ask.” As though he’s the only one being victimized here.  

Emma studies her nails like a Cartel boss deciding our fate. “You don’t have a shirt on. You never have a shirt on. Why should I have to wear a shirt when it’s hot out? You have nipples, do you not?” Her father is, indeed, shirtless. 

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The Church of the Dermatologist 

By Amy Miller
Featured Art: “Pony Up” by Alex Brice

I wonder if she says a prayer before
she bustles into the room, all smiles and sweet
accented English, tongue a rolling horse
in a field of Russian consonants. My feet  

or scalp or inner thigh might pronounce
a sentence on my life: she incants
asymmetry, border, color in three rounds,
four, the marketeer’s or pastor’s chant.  

She’s here-and-now, no penance crap to pay,
no questions of the beach, my tans, my youth,
for everybody’s sinned already, way
too late to rein those horses in. Truth: 

I did my praying driving here. Lord,
let her eye be ruthless. Thorough. Bored.  


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Addicted to Plastic

By Victor McConnell

When I relocated from Los Angeles to Denver, some of my physician competitors thought I was foolish. I opened my new clinic in Cherry Creek, fitting out the office with clouded glass, marble floors, hammered copper light fixtures, and every other top-of-the-line finish I could think of. Coming from Beverly Hills gave me a marketing advantage right off the bat—the rich suburbanites and the Cherry Creek locals all wanted to know how things were done out there, who I’d treated, and so on. I became a regular at the Denver bars with the wealthiest clientele and had a standing lunch reservation on Fridays at Hillstone; I even befriended a bartender there who, for a small kickback, would gently recommend that some of his regulars come see me. The divorced women in their forties and fifties were the best targets. My practice grew quickly enough that, within five years, I was in the process of setting up a satellite clinic in Aspen and was making plans to relocate there full-time before my fifty-fifth birthday. Five years there, I figured, then retire by sixty. 

I was thinking about that, the life I’d envisioned in Aspen, midway through my hearing in front of the Colorado Medical Board. I had a feeling they were going to revoke my license even before one of them asked me if I thought my actions were consistent with the Hippocratic Oath. Given that the guy who asked was one of the nine board members without an MD, I wanted to ask him what he knew about taking the oath.  

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Difficulties

By Wes Civilz
Featured Art by Rachel Hall

Today will be a paradise if I 
Can manage to control the many hells 
I’m made of. If I misidentify 
The buzzers, flashing lights and warning bells 
Haphazardly erupting here and there 
Inside my skull, my soil, my sin, my sex, 
I’ll pay the price—which means that everywhere 
I go I’ll be nowhere, a circumflex                              
Over myself. Not quick, just dead. No good, 
Just bad. No song not noise. All kisses stone 
And any kindnesses misunderstood 
As counterfeit. All indicators show 
     Too much vibration in the system now—
     Reach up and flip the switch and shut it down. 


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Fly on the Wall 

By Wes Civilz

The threadbare jacket that I wear is made of 
Woven catastrophe. The car I drive  
Is powered by a liquid I’m afraid of 
(Fluid Apocalypse). There is a sound I’ve 
Heard now and then, soft buzz, a background hum 
Of slow disaster . . . and disaster is  
The word that means the stars have come undone, 
So I can’t sail among them with Osiris 
At death, as planned, so while I live I’ll try 
To drink each tall cool glass of loss, cooled more 
By colder cubes of void, and force-feed pies 
Of difficulty with misfortune’s fork, 
      And be a boss of shock, a bird of woe, 
      A watching fly upon a wall of bone. 


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THE CANYON OF UNKNOWN WATER

By Kent Nelson
Featured Art: “Close Up – Spatial Neighborhoods” by Alex Brice

Henry shoved his drift boat from the trailer into the river, unhitched the winch line, and wedged the anchor into a crack in the cement ramp. He drove his Tundra and boat trailer up the ramp to the parking lot. He’d already loaded his gear into the boat—fishing rod, all-time favorite foods, stove, lantern, camping crap. He put his parking permit on the dash, locked the cab, and pocketed the key—no sense letting people steal what his daughter could use. He’d sent Catherine the spare key and a note that said the truck was at the Spring Creek put-in on the South Fork of the Snake River, which, given his habits, wonts, and desires, was the place he loved most in the world.

The note went out in the mail Wednesday morning, August 17th, from Idaho Falls. Catherine wouldn’t get it in L.A. until at least Friday or Saturday, if she checked her mail, but probably Monday. The truck wasn’t going anywhere without a driver.

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A PRAYER

By S.J. Stover

Daily bread’s gone blue
as a tulip.  

Kitchen’s a bust—
wizened potatoes 

stacked like luck
rocks, 

beans, knobbly
as prayer beads,  

an onion’s thin
green talon.  

One cannot not live
by bread alone you say.  

Okay, so
I will live by  

sentences, tenuous,
precious, line by line, 

one rhyme
at a time.   

I will live by God’s
thin smile, hung 

crooked from
a dogwood tree. 


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SELF-PORTRAIT AT THIRTY-THREE 

By S.J. Stover
Featured Art by Rachel Hall

Jesus never looked so jittery— 
jacked up on caffeine and testosterone,  
sporting a backyard haircut and home-sewn mask.  
I walked the same two-and-a-half-mile circuit 
every day: up Sunrise to McCombs, McCombs 
to Radnor, Radnor to Wingate, Wingate to Antioch, Antioch 
to the Bi-Rite grocery and Our Lady of Guadalupe 
and back down Sunrise again.   
The blue blooms of the hydrangeas and the pink blooms  
of the dogwoods came and went.  
I played “Losing My Religion” on repeat. I voted.  
I went to bed each night with yesterday’s cold  
coffee ringing the coffee table. 
I crucified time. 


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Elegy

By S.J. Stover

In my dream they want to wash you, 
lather you up and rinse away  
all grit, all gravel gathered  
in the quick of your claws, 
brush the dust, the dirt  
from your fur, snip off 
the prickles, pluck the brambles  
tangled in the black of your belly,  
sweep the violets violently from your ears.  

But you— 
wolf-minded ever— 
slip their grip, dive tooth first 
into the woods’ waking whoop, 
your brain’s blue furnace  
alive, alight 
with the genius of your idea:  

to weld yourself to the world’s wild welter— 
to burrow, frog-mad, 
in morning’s muddy unending,  
cling deathless, tough as kudzu,  
to hours, minutes, days—  
a tick on the skin of time.  

Dew-footed you fly 
through thick and thistle,  
to chase the needle-eyed dawn— 
you the burr, life the fur. 


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Landscape as Restoration

By Hannah Smith
Featured Art: “1000 Miles From Nowhere” by Mallory Stowe

You can say a prairie fits into a plain,
but not the other way around.
Like a square and a rectangle, I’ve been
looking for boundaries, sharp corners

I might tuck myself into. The plain
is both a noun and an adjective, a landscape
and a modifier to mean common. I’ve been called
a common woman: a forgetful blonde girl

in a bluebonnet pasture who must’ve been
asking for it. An ask can also be a prayer,
with the added expectation of an answer.
If I can fit myself into small spaces,

on a molecular level, I might see my compounds
in soil chemistry. Wildflower is synonymous
with weed, and that’s an issue with differing
opinions of beauty. Weeds restore

over-exposed soils, fertilize degraded spreads.
You can’t construct a new ecosystem,
but you can repair one that’s breaking.
I’m building another bionetwork that’s anything

but ordinary. Some day soon, I’ll find
myself in a prairie patch along the floodplains.
A sewing needle in hand, and a bucket
of rain-ripe compost.


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Essay: Acres of Gold

By Katharine L. Wiegele

Dear Friend, it began. 

Around the last week of April in 1944, farmers around the country received a letter from the DeKalb Ag seed company. 

Twelve common kernels of corn would mean nothing to you, but the kernels in this envelope are far from being common. In fact, they are special seed kernels of a new DeKalb hybrid variety. […] Put them in safe keeping until you plant corn. This seed will produce a hybrid which neither you nor your neighbors have ever seen. 

Stapled to the letter was a small envelope containing twelve seeds. 

* * * 

A seed is an embryo. Every farmer and gardener since the Mesopotamians chose seeds to save and replant the following year. This allowed people to stop roaming around looking for food in the wild. We passed seeds from hand to hand every year in a chain of nearly 450 generations. Parents and grandparents died, but the seeds continued. If the seed was lost, we were lost.  

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Trying

By Kim Farrar
Featured Art: “Window Stamp” by Alex Brice

At four-thirty a.m., I contemplate 
how to catch the bright white moon. 

Do I need both bright and white?  
I conjure my doubts. Start again. 

Then, thankfully, a window flies open 
and out leans my cranky neighbor, 

hair in curlers, timeless housedress, 
but no rolling pin, only fists. 

Her fury echoes off the buildings, 
shaming her no-goodnik son below. 

She jangles the keys from six stories up, 
warns him not to be an idyot, 

and lets go. They accelerate  
at thirty-two feet per second squared. 

When he catches them, I’m surprised  
by how happy that makes me 

and I’ve forgotten all about the stupid moon,  
a little lower now, just above the chimney. 


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Lesson Plan

By Kim Farrar
Featured Art: “Greenhouse” by Mallory Stowe

What is your name’s botanical source? 
I see mangroves and root forests whenever I pronounce it.   
Tell me about your superpowers.  Tell me about being small and frightened. 
What do you stare at to disappear?  
Describe the sound of a push broom on stairs.  
Describe your hair.   

Do you draw those hatch marks on your notebook as a nervous habit 
or is it a trapdoor to your mind’s netherworld? 
I like to pretend my brain is a landscape 
with silt, snow drifts, and an aurora borealis. 
I like cartoons where a lion sees a man’s head turn into a giant ham steak. 
I love it when the aroma becomes a beckoning finger.
 
What three adjectives would your friends use to describe you? 
Use a thesaurus.  Use it like a Ouija board, 
run your divining fingers down the page. Feel the grain. 
Instead of answering—let’s call out fun words to say, 
like schlep or kerfuffle. 

What is your favorite book? Why? 
I’ll confess my least favorite book: 
Wuthering Heights.  There. I said it.  
I didn’t read it once in high school and twice in college. 
Heathcliff was a candy bar. 

What is your dream job? 
Mine is describing the universe in mathematical formulas. 
What about staring? So undervalued in today’s marketplace.

What qualities are most important to be a successful student? 
This is a trick question because our hope is the same: 
to get some credit in the face of our limited choices. 
None of the above is never, rarely, sometimes, often, 
always the best answer. 


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Essay: Little Giants, The Story of a Fire Hydrant and Other Heroes 

By Heather Buchanan

The patent for the fire hydrant was lost in a fire.  

There is a convincing theory that Frederick Graff, Sr. invented this life-saving device in 1801. He was the Chief Engineer of the Philadelphia Water Works. He came up with the idea of replacing wood pipes with an iron pipe system. He developed 37 other waterworks throughout the United States. He served the city of Philadelphia for 42 years and a stone gazebo with a bust of him was erected at Fairmount Water Works. It seems only natural that he would be the person who invented the fire hydrant. But the proof went up in flames along with 9,957 other patents and 7,000 patent models in 1836 when the U.S. Patent Office burned to the ground. At first, the Post Office was suspected of arson. It shared the building with the Patent Office and was already under investigation for awarding dishonest mail contracts. Rumors spread that they started the fire to destroy evidence. But, since the Post Office managed to save all their documents, investigators decided it was more likely an accident caused by someone improperly storing hot ashes in a box in the basement.  

There was an attempt to recover these patents by getting duplicates from the original inventors, but this process was slow-moving and expensive. The endeavor was abandoned in 1849. Only 2,845 of the lost 9,957 patent records were restored.  

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Essay: The Journey and Return of Elizabeth Fisher 

By Elle Therese Napolitano

In Elizabeth Fisher’s 1970 story, “A Wall Around Her,” published in Aphra (Volume 4, Number 4), the main character pounds on the locked door of a house where she’s rented a room. As she waits for someone to respond, she is overcome by crushing loneliness and futility. “I never was in, never was and never will be, always outside, always trying to get in, beating with my fists, pleading, ‘Let me in. Let me in.’ Why don’t I just give up the struggle, stop trying to reach people, to be a human being.” 

Elizabeth Fisher was a writer, editor, translator, publisher, teacher and feminist, but these days, she is best known—and unknown, it turns out—for sparking Ursula K. Le Guin’s 1986 essay, “The Carrier Bag Theory of Fiction,” republished after Le Guin’s death as a tiny book (Ignota, 2019). It’s safe to say that now, thousands of people have seen her name in print—Le Guin names her right there in her resurging essay, along with a partial title of Fisher’s book, Woman’s Creation (though the publication date is wrong)—in which she puts forth “The Carrier Bag Theory of Evolution.” Since Le Guin’s essay was reprinted, new writings about her essay have proliferated. Nearly all mention Fisher. But people don’t seem to know anything about her. There’s all this stuff out there about carrier bags and Ursula Le Guin, but what about Elizabeth Fisher? What about her life?  

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The Foremothers

By Maria Dylan Himmelman

sharpen knives with their teeth, adjust their shawls
to hide their tails and make tiny feather quilts
to keep the birds warm. They char quail eggs
with their breath, serve them on bone China
with sucking candies, then ask if you’re certain
you turned the stove off before you left the house
Their closets are filled with carpets and spice, bolts
of silk and roast chicken. Their medicine chests
are stuffed with opium, hemlock and baby aspirin
In response to most questions they say—
Turn it, turn it, for all is in it, and for this it is said
their price is far above pearls 


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The Word Committee

By Maria Dylan Himmelman
Featured Image: “Through the al-Nil” by Ryan Davis

In January 1896, The Word Committee
conducts its annual séance in order to pull
from Beyond the year’s new words
The Committee head channels Ape-man
and Guttersnipe; the vice, Unicycle and Firebug
There is some discussion of Béarnaise Sauce
and Beef-Steak Tomato before all agree 
on Actuary. There are not yet words for what
happens next, a small boy in the gloom
chasing rats through the alley, a torch burping
smoke like shots on the battlefield, the music
of breaking glass. There’s no sense really
in calculating the odds. It’s already
dark outside 


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Roaming the Labyrinth—Review

By Claire Eder

When encountering a new poetic voice, especially one that reaches me in translation, I often find myself flipping frequently between the main text and the notes section in the back of the book, grasping for purchase. Once the poems have drawn me in, I want more. I’m nosy and I desire at least some of the crucial details about this person: what was their childhood like? Why does the image of an orange slice keep reappearing? What is this geopolitical conflict, not obvious to a twenty-first century American reader, that they’re referencing in certain poems? While endnotes in academic texts can be dry, I find the notes in volumes of poetry can often be juicy, giving little peeks behind the curtain. 

For this reason, I am enthusiastic about the format that Christina Cook has created in Roaming the Labyrinth with Marie-Claire Bancquart (Aim Higher, 2025), and I’d be happy to see other works in translation adopt such a structure. Roaming the Labyrinth essentially takes the notes section, expands it, and plops it into the main text. The poems are nested in between prose sections offering analysis, context, and personal reflection. (The book also has actual endnotes with helpful material.) Through this unique structure, we get a rare glimpse into the translator-poet relationship, in this case a friendship that lasted many years, until Bancquart’s death in 2019. We come to understand certain choices that Cook made in her translations, and we get a true portrait of the remarkable, generous writer at the center of the text (labyrinth). What’s more, we are privy to a conversation between the translations and Cook’s own poetry, as she includes a handful of her poems that were shaped by her relationship with Bancquart. 

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Review: Bill Hollands’ Mangrove

By Evan Green

Bill Hollands’s debut collection, Mangrove (published by ELJ Editions, 2025), takes readers through poems of nostalgia, grief, and family, primarily set against the lush backdrop of Florida. Raised in Miami, Hollands paints vivid images not only of the Floridian environment, but also the losses that he has faced. Hollands’s poetry also teems with references to the famous faces of his youth, all while he explores those personal memories. Combining this grief, and references to bygone 70s TV, Mangrove is a moving reflection on a queer life lived to the fullest. In tender and reflective poems, it guides readers through personal transformation and transformations in our televised culture.

From the beginning of his collection, it’s clear how large an impact both television and the natural environment had on Hollands as a child. Recurring images of verdant plant life alongside references to stars from the 60s through the 80s paint the picture of a childhood perched at a sliding glass door between the light of the outdoors and the glow of the television screen. The collection evokes feelings of nostalgia for that late-twentieth century moment—in all its velvet.

In the first section, Hollands dwells on a queer childhood, artfully reminiscing on a time full of new experiences and personal hardships. The second section focuses on Hollands’s family as he ponders the loss of several loved ones with bittersweet remembrance. Finally, the third section reflects on Hollands’s life as a whole, touching on emotion-filled moments from both his childhood and present-day life as a partner, parent, and teacher.

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Review: Dear Boobs by Cassie Burkhardt

By Tyler List

Cassie Burkhardt’s collection, Dear Boobs (Bottlecap Press, 2025), is a linked collection of well-crafted poems that deal with motherhood and a longing for love. Despite its comical title, Burkhardt’s poems take the reader into the life of a mother trying to get through the day while simultaneously raising her children and maintaining her own sense of self. The tone of many of these swings from chaotic, poetic maximalism to peaceful wisdom, mimicking the rhythms of the speaker’s domestic life. We learn from the poems that Burkhardt is the mother of three kids with her husband, a brain surgeon, and that she’s worried about becoming invisible.

Each poem deals with its own individual, episodic-like story, jumping between images of the speaker herself, her husband, or her kids—Burkhardt’s good at showcasing a feeling of daily life passing by, as she also wrestles with self-doubt, the joy of motherhood, and the excitement of circus school—a hobby she has picked up to reclaim some sense of herself as an individual. Burkhardt’s skill is in knitting together the various styles that arise from describing these activities. She comes across as a disheveled, excitable, bold person—a full human being!—as she addresses what it means to be a mother (and more).

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Review of Iridescent Pigeons by Candace Walsh

By Nicholas Skaldetvind

Candace Walsh’s Iridescent Pigeons (Yellow Arrow Publishing, 2024) pulses along the spectral tide of memory, braiding the intimate with the mundane, creating a textured meditation on love, familial bonds, and personal reclamation.  Her language weaves everyday objects from lemons, dogs, seaweed into a resonant web of at-once connections and separations, echoing Gerard Manley Hopkins’ sensuous attention to form and rhythm: “Glory be to goddesses of heft— / The plush, broad, soft, round, thick.”  Walsh’s adroit application of stylistic devices, with an ear keyed for language, illuminates the “sensuous beauty of everyday life” through a lexicon that recalls the lyrical introspection of Woolf’s The Waves and Bishop’s careful rendering of the physical: “I split the lemons crosswise twice, packed salt into the creases, / and stuffed them in the jar until their blood became their brine.” 

In the book, Walsh ranges from the cento and Sapphic stanzas to free verse, showing a marriage of form and emotional breadth. This reconciliation of form and freedom allows the collection’s overarching themes to come out more clearly; each poem inhabits spaces of queer eros, domesticity, and the unresolved. In poems like “Bowed Beauty,” the lyrical voice works with the corporeal as Walsh channels Hopkins’ “Pied Beauty,” creating an ode to the fullness and shape of bodies. And in “Dogs and Their Lesbians,” she captures a feverish excitement that resists society’s prescribed containment: “When we could finally pounce, / how hot it surged, / or hardly stirred—so deeply stilled. / We know how much it costs / to cut it off. I’d rather clean up blood.”   

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Review: 12 Oxen Under the Sea, by Craig Bernardini

By Jenna Brown

In a blend of magical realism and surrealist technique, Craig Bernardini’s intrepid short-story collection, 12 OXEN UNDER THE SEA (New American Press, 2025), masterfully meshes domestic concerns with the absurd. In twelve idiosyncratic narratives, Bernardini contemplates death, isolation, parenting, sea creatures, guys named Carl, marital tensions, trauma, and the supernatural. Each story successfully asks us to suspend our disbelief as we encounter: a grieving father turning aquatic in his son’s pond and finding his previously dead wife in its depths; an extravagant hotel continually catching fire for increasingly arcane reasons; a revival house’s playing of Rachmaninoff causing phantasmagoric hallucinations. Or, in 16th century England, the occupant of an inn has his furnishings move due to an inexplicable poltergeist-like disturbance.

What makes Bernardini’s writing so effective is his ability to deftly make the uncanny a part of our world. His literary realms are absurdist, but only to a point. While the stories can be nonsensical, normal rules still apply—there are still bowling balls, bikes, and breakfasts. A child in a Manhattan Italian restaurant can burst into an eternal flame, but the characters themselves still order chicory salad from a menu. But even so, his worlds are not simple and tangible with only one odd thing jarring us. His stories never hinge on that single anomaly, and they hardly ever have a pat conclusion. Almost every time, we are still left in a joyously ambivalent place, thinking, “What just happened??”

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Review: George Choundas’s I Think I’ll Stay Here Forever

By Grace Cooper

George Choundas’s short story collection I Think I’ll Stay Here Forever, winner of the 2025 Press 53 Award for Short Fiction, explores the uncanny ways we navigate loss, hardship, and change. Across twelve stories packed with molasses ships, fighting roosters, and persnickety aunts, Choundas explores the way we don’t necessarily have a complete fix on our identities. He’s a mesmerizing storyteller of our growing and shifting experiences.

Halfway through the collection we have the joy of reading “The Sisters Jeppard,” a story previously published by New Ohio Review. In that story, the narrator talks about their cousin’s first and second wives and develops that idea of unfixed identity. The first wife was loved very deeply by her mother and two aunts, otherwise described as “the three sisters.” The narrator seems almost judgmental of the care and attention the three sisters gave the first wife, describing her “upbringing” as “so different from how the hard world handles a person.” The first wife tragically passes away and, following her death, the narrator discusses the death of other loved ones that they’re seemingly much closer to, such as their cousin and the cousin’s second wife, who becomes her best friend. The family relationships are complicated, almost ornate, and Choundas wants us to get enmeshed in the strange way connection builds and grief lingers. After losing all these people, the narrator thinks back and reflects on the three sisters’ love with a new perspective:

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Review: A Preponderance of Starry Beings by Samantha Edmonds

By Emilie DeOreo

Samantha Edmonds’s newest short-story collection A Preponderance of Starry Beings tackles the tensions between childhood egocentrism and the vastness of the worlds—both literal and metaphorical—beyond us. As children, the egocentrism stage is pivotal for our development, shaping how we understand our place in the world through our own limited perceptions. Yet the suggestion that something might exist beyond our physical planet allows some children to grasp, however faintly, that the world extends far past their immediate experiences and the boundaries of their own bodies. In space, they are merely singular specks of dust among the ever-expanding cosmos. A Preponderance of Starry Beings gives its readers a chance to realize how deeply connected we all are to the boundless unknown of the universe, and Edmonds’s characters, whether on Earth or elsewhere, act as a bridge between the ordinary and the extraordinary, showing how even mundane experiences can carry an otherworldly resonance that links us to the larger cosmos. 

Some of Edmonds’s stories are explicit in their relationship between normal everyday domesticity and galactic happenings, such as “The Adventures of Starboy and Earthgirl,” which follows two girls in the late 90s, their passion for all things Spock and Captain Kirk, and their love for each other. Other stories are more subtle about the cosmos connection, such as the impressively linked pieces that feature Ruth Emerson, a late-adolescent character Edmonds returns to multiple times, whose eyes are pointed toward heaven, but whose faith in a larger purpose is tested. Edmonds’s collection as a whole transforms the infinite landscape of space into a mirror for human emotion, demonstrating that no matter how small or isolated we may feel, our identities and experiences are inextricably linked. Whether her stories are about queer coming-of-age or spiritual unraveling, Edmonds shows us that connection (like starlight) travels faster than we could ever imagine, seeming to reach even those who believe they are completely alone. 

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Announcing the Summer Online Exclusive

The latest summer online exclusive from New Ohio Review is now available! Scroll down to read.

The issue includes featured art by Stephen Reichert, including our cover image, Untitled, 2012; poems from Natalie Taylor, Emma De Lisle, Kathleen McCoy, Jeff Worley, Mark Williams, J.D. McGee, Laura Vitcova, and Susan Cohen; fiction from Paloma Martínez-Cruz, JB Andre, Diego Arias, Joe Plicka, Meghan Chou, Logan McMillen, Ivy Goodman, Dena Pruett, Alison Theresa Gibson, Kenyon Geiger, Colton Huelle, and Sayandev Chatterjee; essays from Farah Barqawi and Maya Friedman; reviews of new work by Maria Zoccola, Dustin M. Hoffman, Michael Chang, Claire Bateman, Susan Browne, Dion O’Reilly, Vivian Blaxell, Sunni Brown Wilkinson, Therese Gleason, Jennifer Schomburg Kanke, and Stanley Plumly.

We hope you enjoy.

Thanks for reading,

-The Editors

Drink it up, buttercup

By Natalie Taylor

                                                             Blue Fruit Moon: August 30, 2023

There’s a lot of hullabaloo in the woo woo
circles about this Super Blue Fruit moon, so rare
we won’t see the next one until 2037. My astrologer
friend counts on her fingers seven celestial bodies
in retrograde: Mercury, Venus, Saturn, Uranus,
Neptune, Pluto, and Chiron. A celestial goo
of retrospect and rehashing, a muck of revisiting old
stories, exes, holidays and birthdays fuzzy on the why
but clear on what wasn’t there, who didn’t show up,
what we missed. Wheels spinning under
a tree. What was plucked too small, hard
and green. Reconnecting with your inner child,
still wanting to play, to be held. Still dreaming
of some freedom attainable with gobs of money or super
hero powers or sheer will. The planets rotate in reverse,
earth shifts in its nook in the universe. We look back.

                                       Riding my scooter after teaching a late class, I stop
                                   at the light. I am not young anymore. I shiver in sweaty
                                      yoga tights, chilling in night air. Once I make it home,
                                             I will have fulfilled responsibilities of all three jobs,
                                        another 12 hours devoted to maintaining shelter and food.
                                          A young man pulls up next to me on his Kawasaki, dirty
                                          carburetor popping with every wrist crank. He waves
                                         smiling under midnight metallic helmet. In the other lane,
                                                                    a Harley’s deep throat rumbles as its bandanaed rider
                                                                     revs the V-twin crankpin engines. We wait for green,
                                                                  a small symphony of crankpins and cylinders and buzz
                                                       and backfires under a freeway overpass. I point to the moon,
                                                                 full and free as a peach, Saturn in conjunction hovering
                                                                                               just above, still spinning. The riders flip
                                                                                            their thumbs up. Just some kids on bikes
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Miracle-Proof

By Emma De Lisle

A few of the stories were good: Lazarus, Cana, the adulteress. Who doesn’t love a stoning? Or picturing him balancing on that dark sea, feet peeping over the waves that some hand ground down out of those purples and black-blues, phthalo blue, and Egyptian, something iridescent crushed in to sign what you can’t see below. Nacre, maybe. Like a salamander in a flash-photo. Oil on the water like skin. Or like that pearly interference stretched over a raw muscle, its meat-cells cut against the grain. Light-struck. Divided. And the angel. I can hear it. Not a swishing sound, like you’d expect, or a rushing, or anything with such a shhhh. Hush. We’ll be interrupted. I’ll be hyperextended and impossible—this strange star of limbs and hinges like something that could stand up on its own, yanking double-handed on all my cords and tendons, yellow-white if you bite into them, popping, those rickety rubber stalks full of the code that makes me go. Code that opens my mouth. Speaks me. Is it miracle-proof? God sent a messenger to say, Believe her. And would do it again, would do it in a heartbeat. All we do is stay in the foreground, we bend low, we write it down.


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Wall of Clocks

By Kathleen McCoy

“We rarely hear ‘truth and reconciliation’—just ‘truth and justice.'”
—David Park, author of The Truth Commissioner

On this wall tick your childhood and mine, your loves
    and mine, your regrets, cacophonies of memory

and harmonies in your ear, coagulations of unuttered grief,
    relentless news from a grittier Belfast, our cousins

going at each other in the streets, Molotov cocktails and hurled
    rocks. Rifles. Truth without whisper of reconciliation.

But this is not the Belfast we have read about. Now the streets
    are clean, the bricks new. Twenty-seven percent check

the “no religion” box. Yet boxes there still be. With Barry’s tea
    I toast a thing that is not a thing, a thought that is not

singular beneath rolling gray clouds that siphon the self,
    that challenge perception, angle and taste, domesticity,

violence, numinousness. Dozens of clocks stand at attention,
    unseeing eyes fixed on the observer, no two declaring

the same time. None advance; all compel stares: one moon-
    faced grandfather clock painted blue, grannies’ broken

clocks, wooden clocks with cats or hens or roosters or sheep or
    horses or farmers and their wives with mice that once spun

in small circles to children’s delight, oak clocks, clocks of ivory
    irony, aluminum alarm, plastic grace, yellowed whites

like tired eyes, grays like boards left out too long in rain—all stand
    in pleasing array—but this signpost points in thirty directions.

No wonder I never know what time it is!
    This liminal Belfast in earliest glimmer of spring

wriggles into the raincoat and, despite its bloody past,
    could be nearly anywhere within the body or the earth.

Sitting before this monument to time, its silent mellifluence of green,
    its threat or promise of birdsong or the sound of striking, I note

how milky tea grows cool, limbs warm. In my absence, here. I am.

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How to Test White Guys

By Paloma Martínez-Cruz

The first is named Steve Stahl. You have no claim on him; the concept is beyond imagination. Enjoy quiet contentment as you color your tree trunk brown using a box of crayons that sits between you. Steve surprises you the day he announces, “I brush my teeth” and pecks you on the cheek making a smacking sound with his lips.

This means something.

For the end-of-year dance recital, the teacher’s aide pairs you with Juan, a dark brown boy who speaks only Spanish. The teachers choreograph a preschool version of the Mexican hat dance, and you see that a blond girl has suddenly materialized to be paired with Steve Stahl. Had she been in your class the whole time? How is everything about her so yellow? Steve Stahl gets right down to the business of dancing with her, which is just as baffling as her sudden appearance. How is he unwilling to boycott the dance or at least throw a crayon at the teacher’s aide in an act of defiance?

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5 things getting attacked by a dog taught me about mid-level B2B sales management

By JB Andre

Featured Art: Stephen Reichert, A List of the Reasons of Why I am Getting Into Computers, 2025. Oil pastel, pen and marker on paper, 14″ x 11″. 

First I want to start off by saying that I am OK. An ambulance ride, eight stitches, and a lot of painkillers later, I am safely at home with my beautiful, loving family. Shoutout my amazing wife @CamillaSpringer for taking such good care of me after my hospital stay. I also want to take this time to share my gratitude with friends and family who have reached out to wish me a safe recovery—and to those who haven’t: it’s not too late! I have decided to post about this following the success of my more personal article: “What I learned about leadership when my Grandmother died.” To all of my readers, again I thank you for your well-wishes. Please don’t forget to like, share, re-post, and comment. Follow me if you don’t already for more great business content!

Yesterday morning, I was walking my labradoodle puppy (say hi Max!), or, I suppose, we were coming back from a trip to the park, and crossing the parking lot to our apartment (for those of you shocked that we still live in an apartment, check out my article “The risks of homeownership for early-career entrepreneurs”). About halfway across the parking lot, I saw a nasty-looking dog. About 70, 80 pounds, brown, a mutt with a broad, square face like something between a pit and a shepherd, but low to the ground and stocky. I recognized this dog and knew it was trouble (check out my post “Max got attacked by a dog but he’s OK: Resources on pet care and picking an affordable veterinarian”). It was walking up to us slowly, but I have to admit—I ran! Which brings me to my first of five tips.

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Fritura Sunday

By Diego Arias

I sat at a Taco Bell reading a book about cultural marxists, contraception, and immigration. Someone gave me this book and told me it would define the election, but all I could gather was the author yap on and on about country clubs and labor unions and working-class business practices and shoestring budgets. I very much wanted to dump the book in a garbage can and never read anything about it again, but I was waiting for someone and had nothing else to do. I looked up from my carne asada steak taco and watched a man in the corner enjoy a soccer game on his phone and take savage bites out of a large, engorged chalupa. As he bit into the fried casing’s manila envelope colored flesh, a bright red sauce squirted out and spread across the table. Holy Cucamonga, this was a wild, satanic place. Men with the legs of flamingos and heads like snakes from Central American jungles rummaged through middle American taco concoctions like a teenager in a 1950’s drive-in theater parking lot. They fondled these damn tacos and burritos in uncomfortable, godless ways. What sort of place was this? What kind of man visits a Taco Bell in the middle of the afternoon and orders twelve of these grease torpedoes only to consume them in one twenty-minute sitting? What sort of liver processes that kind of modern nutritional content?  

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Featured Art: Stephen Reichert, Untitled, 2015. Oil on canvas, 10″ x 14″. “Ernst Cassirer, An Essay on Man” series.

Paste

By Joe Plicka

“Unknown / Man / Died Eating / Library Paste / July 14 1908”

                        — epitaph on a headstone at Pioneer
                         Cemetery in Goldfield, Nevada

We were called to Braddock, arriving after midnight to find a woman, recently widowed, laboring with her fourth child. She stood in the kitchen near a burning stove, unclothed and sodden, gripping a thick cord dangling from the rafters. As her pains grew, she called for her oldest daughter to bring a syrup she’d somehow procured from a druggist in Cleveland, an anodyne she was willing and able to try in the absence of her late husband, whom she fairly cursed for his commonplace insistence—when he was alive, of course—that a daughter of Eve not “thrust aside the decrees of Providence.” The druggist, however, had mixed the compound with blackstrap molasses rather than rose honey and the poor woman found the flavor unpalatable. She cried for flour paste, which her daughter fetched from a printer’s devil down the road. This paste she mingled with her bitter cure in an empty sardine tin and continued to taste it with a wooden spoon, even as she birthed a healthful boy with the most immoderate hair one ever saw on an infant.

                           — Mabel Gaskin, midwife, 1850

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MY WIFE, IN HER ELEMENT

By Jeff Worley

Featured Art: Stephen Reichert, Untitled, 2012. Oil on canvas, 12″ x 12″. “Cirlce” series.

(for Linda’s birthday, 9/5/2023)

You were a human otter,
who loved to roll and roll
in every body of water you found
waiting. Friend’s backyard pool,
Cave Run Lake (an easy walk
from our cabin), tumultuous waves
off Ambergris, all there for you.
               In Kokkari, 1981,
the Greek boys watched
every step you took from the frothy
Med because you hadn’t bothered
with a swimsuit, flinging beads
of turquoise water from the tips
of your raven hair. You laughed,
sputtering water, nearly breathless,
smiling at me taking this shot with the Nikon
from our Daisy Duck beach towel.
               Does life
get any better than this? Not for me,
I thought then. Not for me, I think now.

 (for Linda Kraus Worley, 1950–2021)


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Watching Football with My Dad

By Mark Williams

Saturday night, fourth quarter underway
of a close Packers game. Bart Starr era.
My dad and I were sitting on the couch
in my Grandma Mabel’s apartment.
My legs barely reached the footstool
that my great-grandmother and I
played Chinese Checkers on. But that night,
I was watching football with my dad.

He played left end in high school.
Leather helmet. No face-guard.
When I was seven or eight,
he bought a white football
so we could play catch in the dark.
He taught me how to throw a spiral.
Fingers here. Thumb there. But that night,
I was watching football with my dad.

It must have been near seven o’clock,
Vince Lombardi on the sideline, when
we heard footsteps coming down the hall.
It’s time for the Welk show! Grandma shouts
before she, my great-grandmother Torsie,
and my great-aunt Pauline entered
the room like an offensive line. That night,
my dad and I stopped watching football

so they could watch Lawrence (an’ a one,
an’ a two . . .
), his Champagne Music Makers,
The Lennon Sisters, and Myron Floren
as, no doubt, Jim Taylor went for ten
and Max McGee went deep. I never played football,
though sometimes when I think about the past
I feel like I’ve been hit. But on nights like this,
I am watching football with my dad.


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Butter

By Meghan Chou

Featured Art: Stephen Reichert, Untitled, 2014. Oil on canvas, 12″ x 12″. “Cirlce” series.

I first saw her aboard the JADE PRINCESS, a cruise ship several miles off the coast of New Hampshire. She wore ribbons in her hair and a leather choker around her neck that read GIVE ME A REASON. The two of us made up the entire wedding party. I played the roles of daughter and maid of honor and she, her father’s best man. The other guests were staff on their dinner break and a couple gamblers, vying for a seat at the blackjack table.

The captain kept the ceremony short (on autopilot like his ship). Ma had already been married twice, yet for Husband #3, she still felt giddy and hopeful. Where I saw folding chairs and a wrinkled backdrop, she saw romance. Where I saw a cardboard cutout of her last boyfriend, she saw the love of her life. When the time came to exchange vows, I handed Ma the wedding band for her five-second fiancé, a mood ring from LOST & FOUND that glowed black in my sweaty hands. The best man gave her father a light-up jelly ring and our parents sealed it all with a kiss.

“Faye,” she introduced herself at the reception, my stepsister before I learned her name.

“Lenny.”

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Providence

By Logan McMillen

i. Kansas City, Missouri— 1983

Every morning before the store opened, Rubén tempted George into smoking a cigarette by the loading docks—which had a clear view of the highway and the sunrise. Today was no different.

“You’re the devil,” George said—with his lighter already pulled out.

George owned the home improvement store where Rubén worked.

The missionaries were quick to find a job for Rubén. And even though it wasn’t in his field of study, or anywhere near his relatives in New Jersey—Rubén liked it. It gave him a casual sense of purpose.

“We don’t really follow that one,” Rubén said. “Do we?”

Rubén often pretended that he didn’t know anything about Mormonism, even though he’d been “practicing” for over two years. He thought of the religion mainly as a way to stay social in an unfamiliar place. That and he felt like he owed the missionaries something. If they wanted his soul, so be it.

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Ichetucknee

By J.D. McGee

Featured Art: Stephen Reichert, Untitled, 2013-2014. Oil on canvas, 12″ x 12″. “Cirlce” series.

Archaeological exploration has discovered the site of a 17th century Spanish mission, San Martin de Timucua, next to a short tributary connecting Fig Springs to the Ichetucknee River.
Florida Dept. of State

i.
In needy dawn’s tabula rasa, shred
through breaches in the birch like candleflame
refracted, flung through flashed glass and calms,
as Ichetucknee disrobes habits of mist,
I splash the slim canoe, a floating pew.

The mind creates liturgical vestments;
they vex, featherless chicks pecking for feed.
A broken heart paddles strangely: it bleeds
blood, needs blood. It begs, a feckless and cracked
flask that prays for shape of spring water

ii.
Although the spring is just a thing. It flows
from aquifer, hyaline through bedrock pits.
The parable of trees on the banks preach the chase
of sun and soil; the verse of dragonflies
incants the atom need to procreate and feed.

If it was only just the heron’s sweep,
the otter’s slip, indignant turtle glare,
quiescent flow, supplicant fawn and doe.
This hush, is it within or without me?
Is it scrub jay songs or songs of myself?

iii.
We sat in plastic circles, yellow rooms,
desperate to deserve salvation, told
to find a Higher Power. Fine. But, God,
what grace for nicotine thumbs, DT feet?
Alone, breakfast:
       I once was lost but now

Am found.
    They sang in church when I was young.
Was the hymn an echo, my voice right now,
or welled from other springs? A coffee trick,
perhaps, compelled halation through the blinds,
wrought mosaics inlaid with my cracked glass.

iv.
It may be how, like mouths open to pray,
the stream invokes river, or a wood stork
sainting; it may have been the want of me,
the open wound or suckling, skies precise
and rare as sapphire, oak monk robes of moss.

It may have been wonder, childlike awe,
primordial immanence in my tear ducts;
or, maybe just the child who needs to know,
who breathes dreaming into the world he floats.

What befell may have already been there:
in my bowels, in clear imagined depths
where mullet twine like a child’s friendship braid.
The child’s ease for tears: it may be these springs
are my tears, maybe the tears of angels;

maybe, there is no other god for me.

v.
If I could speak, articulate, shape words;
or, I’m just cursed, repeating all I’ve heard,
a mouthpiece forever, slowed to stone and root.
What self beyond reflection? Stare and yearn,
burnt and burning, to waste away and drown?

I fall into the mirror, the boreal shock,
and deep in the headspring’s gaped mouth I see
a blackness stretched back, but a rush of life,
flawless as the first breath, sharp as a spring sunrise,
bored into bedrock, black, back, the spring of myself.


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Not Now

By Ivy Goodman

Featured Art: Stephen Reichert, Untitled, 2011. Oil on canvas, 18″ x 12″. “Cirlce” series.

It was a late season game on a warm Saturday approaching summer but not yet humid, overcast, so that clouds gave shade, and if the rain started, good, then the seemingly interminable might end sooner.

Boys, aged nine and ten, were playing baseball.

The game was real, with real uniforms, equipment, jargon, and rules, but it also seemed as momentous as make-believe. I understood make-believe far better than team sports. Oh, I understood sports, but I didn’t. I couldn’t. Like the color blind or the tone deaf, I was somehow incapable. While other parents followed the game, I stared at the players’ families more than I should have.

In our family, there were three of us, my husband, myself, and our son, and we had moved to the area just months before. Newcomers, we were late to register, and our son was assigned to a team with room for stragglers. We still didn’t know quite where we were, what was this place, who were these people? For me the quandary wasn’t just who in general or in particular, but also that deeper puzzlement I often felt, not who but what. What were people? I’d been staring at them my entire life.

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The Surgeon’s Wife

By Dena Pruett

He tells us he is like that boss, you know, the one from the movie.

“That’s all.” He’ll trill as he flutters past in a mockery of the boss, the movie, us.

 We can tell how a surgery went by the particular way he wears his white coat. On good days the coat is on, collar crisp, the sides flapping up and out as he strides forward, fast and sure. On bad ones, the coat is in his hand, tight and bunched, ready to throw at a chair as soon as he steps into his office.

The rhetoric is as fluid as his fashion. God works through his hands. It’s all divined, preordained. He is but a vessel, an instrument of something higher, more profound than him. Or, it’s everyone else’s fault. The residents are lazy. The nurses and P.A.s slow. The tools not sharp and swift, just out of reach. The patient—too weak. We forgive him these days. He just cares for his patients, the practice. We imagine that deep down he holds himself accountable, feels too much, and this is all mostly bluster.


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Self Portrait as Horse Mouth

By Laura Vitcova

Featured Art: Stephen Reichert, Untitled, 2012. Oil on canvas, 12″ x 12″. “Cirlce” series.

My lips spread open like the doors of a carnival
ride flashing to reveal a narrow-gauged rail
of teeth that jut from my mouth, pink gums
wedged between white enamel planks,
a freak show, a long tongued chasm
in a distorted body, a chamber of horrors,
a tiger’s bladed mouth about to rip out
your last thought with a laugh.
But you said mine looked like a horse’s mouth
that deserved a bit, maybe a bridle, definitely
a saddle. I was broken before I knew my flesh
would stretch to accommodate a lifetime
of acorns in my cheeks, that I would learn
to survive the wild winter.

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Landscape with the Fall of Icarus

By Susan Cohen

Featured Art: Stephen Reichert, Untitled, 2012. Oil on canvas, 12″ x 12″. “Cirlce” series.

       after Brueghel the Elder and W.H. Auden

We know what the father did,
aimed too high.

And the son dared too much,
while the ploughman and his stout horse
just got on with business.

But what about the ocean,
Brueghel’s dull green sea, spread
flat as a bolt of fabric?

A few spits of foam
around the boy who cannonballed
headfirst, legs askew,
poor zapped mosquito. A shrug
of polite ripples
and the water takes him in
without the protest of a splash—
Brueghel’s brush applied like a narcotic
to smooth the waves.

They did get it wrong
sometimes, the masters.
Even a painted ocean
can only take so much.

We know now what our ambition
does to seascapes—empties them
of coral and of coho,
fills them with glacial melt
and sends the waters raging.


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A Woman, Splayed

By Alison Theresa Gibson

Featured Art: Stephen Reichert, Untitled, 2014. Snow in alley, Baltimore. “Cirlce” series.

It was a cold Thursday in April and frozen leaves slipped along the ground. Easter was over, the southern hemisphere was descending into winter, we were hunkering down for the darker, colder months. I was walking around the lake, like I did most days, wondering if I should visit my mother that afternoon. My father had been dead for six weeks and I had only seen her once since the funeral. The sun was cold but golden. Currawongs sang their pyramid of song, the soundtrack to every morning of my life. 

The man was standing at the back of the toilet block. The ground was dirt around his feet. He was standing with his hands in his pockets, his eyes on the ground, but not on the dirt. He wasn’t contemplating the lack of grass. His eyes were on the body.  

She was on her stomach, legs splayed, greyed hair splayed, fingers splayed. She was splayed. He was standing. He was staring. The sun had risen fully and offered light but no heat. 

The graffitied brick of the toilet block had hidden the sound of my approaching footsteps. Frozen leaves were scattered at my feet and I didn’t move, afraid of their crunch.  

He crouched near one splayed foot. He ran a finger along the inside arch. When he whistled, the currawongs paused for a moment, then restarted with gusto. He looked into the branches of the surrounding trees and whistled again. Again, they called back. The splayed woman didn’t move.  

I inched my phone from my pocket and dialled triple-0 without looking. His finger was tracing the arch of her foot, his head was back, his whistle faltered.  

‘I’ve already called the police,’ he said. He could have been speaking to the splayed woman. ‘They’re on their way.’ He stood, his hands sliding back into his pockets. The currawongs’ calls were growing louder, more ferocious, like they were distressed by the absence of his whistle. ‘She’s been here all night,’ he said. 

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Essay: What We Talk About When We Talk About Maqloobeh

By Farah Barqawi

I was having a lazy Saturday morning in my kitchen when Mama called on video. It was still ten a.m. in Brooklyn, but it was five p.m. in Gaza. I fixed my messy hair and picked up the call only to realize she was not calling from her home.

The only thing I saw next to my mother’s face was the fabric of the back of the couch she sat on, but I immediately recognized the room she was in. She was at my cousin’s, Wafaa, the eldest daughter of my Aunt Youssra.

It was the first room to the left after the corridor from the entrance, with a wide and partitioned wooden door that would usually be open if the visitors were close relatives. The door would be closed, however, when strangers or distant relatives or male-only visitors would come, as it overlooks the rest of the apartment to the right. An average Gazan guest room, with a set of puffy couches and chairs, curtains covering the only window on the middle wall, a couple of two-framed Quranic verses fixed on the windowless walls, and a set of wooden stands on each corner carrying small ornaments, vases, and special wedding or newborn souvenirs gifted by close family members.

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The Names of Those We Love

By Kenyon Geiger

Featured Art: Stephen Reichert, Untitled, 2012. Oil on canvas, 16″ x 20″. “Cirlce” series.

It was finally settled: the competition was rigged, and Mrs. Klein would not be receiving her lifetime supply of free groceries after all. She set the letter down on her countertop with shaky hand and shaky breath. This was not a surprise. Aside from the mystery of how the competition was supposedly rigged, the news brought with it a strange comfort for Mrs. Klein. She was used to things not working out. 

Her mother always thought of everything as God’s will, all part of His divine plan; this was atypical for a Jewish woman, at least in Mrs. Klein’s experience. Her mother reminded her more of the parents of the evangelical friends Mrs. Klein had at school; they often talked like that, the Lord works in mysterious ways. Of course, she wasn’t Mrs. Klein then, back when she was in school. She was Rebecca, a little girl with her entire life ahead of her. 

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Essay: Taxonomy of the Self

By Maya Friedman

              “When you’re with other people, your mind isn’t your own,” she once
              said, and although she was talking about perception, and connecting to
              the realm of feeling, I think about language too. Can you be alone with
              language? What a dream that would be, what a nightmare.”

              • T. Fleischmann, from Time Is the Thing a Body Moves Through


The scene: several white canopies on the grass at night, alternating between downpour and dripping, a crowd bunched up to the edges of the covering and gathered beneath its own white breath.

I had to write my pronouns down on a white name tag, sticky and big as a brick. The event: “Queers in the Outdoors,” an opportunity for Portland’s sporty gays to find friends with which to hike, ski, camp, and maybe kiss. I was there to test the solubility of my queerness under the guise of finding people to carpool to the mountain with. I panic- ordered a bitter beer at the bar, stuttered a delayed thank you to the bartender who complimented my shirt, and wondered if the veteran queers could smell my fear, uncertainty, and lack of experience. I was there to see if someone could see me within the bi, asexual, gender-questioning maelstrom that consumes me whenever I have to introduce myself.

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The Tooth

By Colton Huelle

One morning, as he was filling up the electric tea kettle, Lev Bradley discovered a khaki-colored tooth in the corner of his kitchen sink. Mistaking it at first for a pebble, he plucked it up with a bemused chuckle. That was when he noticed the few spots of pearly sheen and the distinctly tooth-like dimples on the upper surface. A shock of revulsion shot down Lev’s spine. He flinched and flicked the tooth back into the sink, where it struck a brown diner mug with a shrill ping.

When the initial shock subsided, he peered once more into the sink to confirm what he had seen. It looked somewhat small for a tooth, but what did he know? He retrieved a pair of yellow dish gloves and, steeling himself with a deep breath, once again picked up the tooth.

“Where did you come from, little guy?” he asked it.

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Can Mickey Dance?

By Sayandev Chatterjee

Featured Art: Stephen Reichert, Untitled, 2013. Oil on canvas, 12″ x 12″. “Cirlce” series.

The jarring shriek of the alarm clock slapped Srinath into wakefulness. Fumbling through the tangled mosquito net, he wrestled with the timepiece, finally silencing its insistent bickering. Delicate strokes of sunlight filtered through the louvered windows, painting soft stripes across his cramped hostel room floor. He lay still, his heart thudding as fragments of last night’s dream clung to his mind like cobwebs on the peeling paint above. It was always the same dream.

The clock read 6:00 a.m. Gupta-ji, the boss, had demanded an early start. Srinath could almost smell the polyester and sweat from the Mickey Mouse suit waiting for him at the store. But first, there would be shelves to stock, floors to mop.

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AND THAT WAS IT

By Jeff Worley

Featured Art: Stephen Reichert, Untitled, 2013. Oil on canvas, 12″ x 12″. “Cirlce” series.

—East Lawn Palms Cemetery, Tucson
(for Mike & Steve)

My brothers and I stood under the tent
with our mother’s ashes. I had flown
the bundled urn from Lexington.

We waited for Alice Lewiston,
the Family Service Coordinator,
to meet up with us.

She had told me I couldn’t bury
the ashes myself.
There were legal procedures.

I unwrapped the gray vase decorated
with smiling cherubs. It weighed nearly nothing.
When Alice came, I handed her the vase.
She’d told me that Mom’s ashes would be lowered
into the cylindrical hole above Dad,
directly above his chest.

My brothers and I listened as pitchforks of lightning
lit the sky and rain pocked dirt around the tent.

Then she slid the vase down and secured the lid.
Now Mother was snug in the Arizona soil she loved,
Dad in his plush bed.

What else after all those years with them was left
for us to do?  We loved them for what they’d done
for us.  We must have had some words
we could chisel into the electrified air
to mark the moment.

We stood there saying nothing, not looking
at each other, our hands pocketed. I took out
the poem I had brought.

Mom, Dad, there are no words . . . , the poem began.
The poem I didn’t read.


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Review: Helen of Troy, 1993, by Maria Zoccola

By Sarah Haman

A lyric feminist remix, Maria Zoccola’s Helen of Troy, 1993, (Scribner, 2025), follows in the footsteps of Louise Glück and Carol Ann Duffy, layering the modern atop mythology in her investigation of Helen, the woman circa Tennessee in 1993. Just as dedicated to the description of place as construction of character, Zoccola layers the personification project of Ron Koertge’s Olympusville, the feminist voice of the Melissa Febos’s Girlhood, and brings her debut to life with the sonic lyricism found in Louise Glück’s Averno. The landscape of Helen of Troy, 1993, rife with swans, the open road, and complex webs of family strife, poses an alternative perspective to the responsibility and role of some of the most famously loved and hated women of Greek mythology. The poems center the voices of Helen, the collective women of Sparta, and Helen’s mother / the swan in prose, lyric, and most impressively in golden shovels that use lines from The Iliad.

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Review: Such a Good Man by Dustin M. Hoffman 

By Dylan Loring

The 21 short stories in Dustin M. Hoffman’s Such a Good Man (University of Wisconsin Press, 2025) captivate from the get-go. With first sentences like “Dad’s drunk and riding the bucket,” “They told Eggy they’d be calling the cops soon, if their missing kid didn’t appear in the next ten minutes,” “The man with the yellow hat dragged his monkey out onto the balcony and locked it inside the wire-walled kennel,” and “He was hurling children into the pool,” these stories craft a momentum that never dissipates. Throughout the book, Hoffman’s working-class characters react to past, present, and potential losses—of parents, of lovers, of children, of jobs, of country, of games of Monopoly with God—and to stagnation, a fate that at least isn’t loss. If these themes sound meat-and-potatoes, all the better; Hoffman brings freshness, nuance, and flavor to these staples of human conflict.  

“Privy” starts out with Bill, the cheapest plumber in Saginaw, Michigan, working on fixing a toilet in a church restroom. A woman walks into the restroom, and Bill doesn’t immediately announce his presence, and feels too awkward to do so a few seconds later when she starts urinating. As a result, Bill tries to hide and overhears the woman on the phone yelling at her ex-husband, who seeks joint custody over their child. He, of course, gets discovered by the woman before she leaves the restroom. In addition to accusing Bill of being a perv and stealing his most expensive plumbing tool, she tells Bill, “Bet you think I’m a bitch after spying on my phone call. Men love spotting a bitch, right?” This couldn’t be further from the truth for Bill, whose wife recovered from cancer and then left him, and whose son August has also recently left to join her. He relates to the messiness of the situation on a personal level.  

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Poetry Goes Pop: Michael Chang’s Toy Soldiers 

By Rocco Prioletti

Toy Soldiers (Action, Spectacle Press, 2024), is a work deeply intertwined with the always-on, always-spinning and ever-so-unknottable web of pop culture: from the 90s slacker rock of Eric’s Trip, to Paul Klee’s penchant for awful quotes; Timothée Chalamet’s rumored run-in with crabs, to unbathed Brooklynites who “read too much pynchon.” Michael Chang doesn’t avert their poetic gaze from the kitsch; instead they stare deeply into it, seeing bits of the world and a bit of themself in its glare.  

Following 2023’s Synthetic Jungle, Chang’s latest book disregards both traditional format and structure, offering a sporadic feed of contemporary themelessness. Continuing in the footsteps of likeminded poets like Frank O’Hara and Melissa Broder, Chang’s insistence on deconstructing the possibilities of lyric poetry gives way to experimentation on all fronts. Personifying our collective online unconsciousness, Chang’s only interest in communication is the informal: the often forgotten, sporadically-written notes app confessionals; the academically ‘lowbrow’ and underappreciated sincerity of texting; the recreational black humorists hiding in comment sections. For instance, in “Hope That’s True”, they imagine Anne Frank growing up during the 2010s bowlcut boom, remembering that a particular pop star once suggested that “Anne Frank would’ve been a belieber.”  

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Review: Claire Bateman’s The Pillow Museum 

By Clare Hickey

Claire Bateman’s collection of hybrid short-shorts and poetry-like objects entitled The Pillow Museum (University of Alabama Press, 2025), is a masterclass in storytelling. The book chases every vibrant thread it lays out and weaves itself together into an unnamed shape. Bateman’s collection may be fantastical, but it is not nonsensical. The plots, characters, and conflicts are largely situated on some parallel plane of surrealism, but in Bateman’s dreamscapes, the feelings are real. Empathy is at the heart of the book, and even as Bateman creates inventions almost beyond belief,  giving us pillows that house the dreams of the heads that used to rest there, she also creates physical spaces for which we can’t help sympathizing. 

Despite the strangeness, the themes of Bateman’s work are not ambiguous. The opening story “Home Art” describes a woman playing a glass piano to keep the lights in the house running while her husband solves puzzles in the newspaper. She finds herself banging the keys raucously purely for the act of creating light at his bidding, playing songs backwards and soullessly, until she stops. The husband rises from his puzzle and begins to force her hands to play. She sheds her weight of female labor by entrapping him at the keys in her rebellion of noise: “The light came up even brighter as she smiled in her victory.” The story is a single page and yet the conflicts of a marriage are made clear.  

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The Power of the Turn: Quantum Leaps in Susan Browne’s Monster Mash

By Dion O’Reilly

Writers with an interest in the power of the poetic turn would do well to look at Susan Browne’s newest collection, Monster Mash (Four Way Books 2025). In this, her fourth book, Browne’s tone is confident, in full control of her spicy, wry pragmaticism. The reader is comfortably willing to stay with the narrator as she plays tennis, shops for clothes, or crashes a Ford Galaxie. But despite the seemingly pedestrian activities, this speaker’s thoughts and observations leap through time and space, following strands of thought into imaginary worlds exploring the veil between life and death, the known and the unknown, until finally, a little more is understood, or, if not understood, at least accepted.

Browne creates her many voltas through skillful manipulation of English linguistic modes, tenses, and literary devices. She repeatedly moves from indicative tense, which involves the known world, to a subjunctive world, which we might broadly define less as a grammatical form and more as the unseen world of desire and mystery. Furthermore, Browne frequently incorporates other modes: the imperative command form and the interrogative question mode. She sprinkles in dialogue, direct address, lists, and abrupt changes in verb tenses. Each of these shifts gracefully moves the reader into the poem’s insight.

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Review: Dion O’Reilly’s Limerence & Ghost Dogs

By Riley Miller

In Dion O’Reilly’s newest collection, Limerence, (Floating Bridge Press, 2025), she dives into the complicated and often turbulent terrain of intense infatuation, capturing the essence of a psychological state that feels deeply unsettling, yet addictive. Her poems prove that the strong emotions we associate with adolescence truly never die. She navigates this emotional language with a raw honesty, creating a group of poems that is sure to resonate with anyone who has experienced the consuming power of obsessive desire.

The word itself, limerence, deals with the state of intense longing, and O’Reilly seeks to explore the nuances of this state, moving beyond simple, romantic love and examining the unrequited, often painful, aspects of intense attraction. The poems act as a record of this experience, documenting the highs and lows of limerent attachment. However, she doesn’t shy away from the darker aspects that occur when experiencing an all-consuming obsession. Delving into the destabilizing effects of an abusive relationship, O’Reilly artfully constructs the idea of being connected to such a creature. The collection reveals the way in which this state can lead to delusion and even self-destruction. In “Sasquatch Hunter” O’Reilly writes:

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Review: Vivian Blaxell’s Worthy of the Event 

By Shelbie Music

Philosophy, poetry, science, geography, history, linguistics—these all combine in Vivian Blaxell’s hybrid collection of personal essays, Worthy of the Event (LittlePuss Press, 2025). Wide-ranging in its intellect and guiding us across multiple countries, the book sweeps readers into Blaxell’s life as a trans woman growing up in the second half of the 20th Century, and gazes upon the people, relationships, places, and memories that have informed the identity and outlook she has today. Skillfully engaging with various authors and disciplines, Blaxell uses their work as foundations for her own, forming an evocative collection that focuses on disparate topics, yet revolves around the central theme of becoming and being. When has one “become”? Is “becoming” a perpetual state? And more importantly, how does one become worthy of an event, brave in the face of the onslaught of our world? Worthy of the Event seeks to answer these monumental, incessant questions with a sharp intellect and an open, beating, bloody heart. 

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Review: Sunni Brown Wilkinson’s Rodeo 

By Evan Green

Sunni Brown Wilkinson’s 2025 collection, Rodeo (published by Autumn House Press), is deeply emotional, with poems of loss and sorrow underscored by expansive imagery of the American West. Rodeo is Wilkinson’s third collection of poetry and recently won the 2024 Donald Justice Poetry Prize. As a Utah native, Wilkinson uses her experiences to highlight the beauty of Western life as well as the hardships that come with living in such an environment. She takes readers through many different stories and settings, all while discussing extremely personal subjects and handling them with care and awareness. The book is a powerful exploration of love that carries readers alongside each speaker as they move through wide open spaces, both literal and metaphorical.  

From the first poem, it’s obvious how deeply connected Wilkinson feels to her home in Utah. Readers will notice recurring images of fire and violence associated with death alongside the volatile yet beautiful world of Western nature. Making use of this imagery, the collection immerses readers in feelings of loss and struggle as many of the poems explore the sorrow and self-reflection that comes with the loss of a child. The first section of the book doesn’t shy away from the harsh realities of grief and masterfully gives readers the time to process alongside the speaker. The second section mainly focuses on the aftermath and the self-reflection that comes as a mother tries to find herself again. Wilkinson’s strong narrative-driven poetry lends itself to the storytelling present within the collection. 

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Poetry, Pain, and the Power of Expression in Therese Gleason’s Hemicrania 

By Bridget Rexhausen

Therese Gleason’s latest book, Hemicrania (Chestnut Review Chapbooks, 2024), focuses on migraines—deriving its title from a word that, taken from Greek, means “half skull,” something she plays on in this brilliant collection.  

Balancing lyrical language with the harsh reality of living with migraines, Gleason’s book begins with straightforward, biographical, narrative poems about the condition, before taking readers on a journey of vampires, global warming, and witchy spells, all of which she uses as metaphors to explore migraines. Gleason’s words manage to convey much more than her physical struggle, and the most notable feature of the book is her ability to connect her pain with her spiritual anguish. As she considers the nature of her condition, readers are prompted to think about the generational effects of maladies like migraines, which is a great strength of this very impressive book. 

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The Greatest Granny: Jennifer Schomburg Kanke’s The Swellest Wife Anyone Ever Had 

By Madison Liming

Poet and fiction writer Jennifer Schomburg Kanke’s full-length poetry collection The Swellest Wife Anyone Ever Had (Kelsay Books, 2024) encompasses World War II, the Great Depression, and the Ohio River Flood of 1937, and it gives us a picture of the grandma we all wish we had. Spanning from 1919 to 2006, Kanke crafts a narrative that is both deeply personal and historically resonant, giving voice to the often-overlooked experiences of women who lived through those tumultuous times in Appalachian Ohio, including Kanke’s beloved grandmother, Enid. Enid is the primary inspiration behind the poems, serving as a central figure and occasional speaker, and she is a lens through which the reader experiences the hardships and joys of life in this region.  

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Review: Collected Poems of Stanley Plumly

By Kate Fox

On the dust jacket of In the Outer Dark (1970), Stanley Plumly’s first book of poetry, fellow poet William Stafford writes an endorsement that, after reading Plumly’s Collected Works, strikes me as a premonition as well as high praise:

The rightness of these poems, line after line, exhilarates the reader, who discovers himself (sic) through encounter with a whole range of objects and ideas, each held firmly in language that appears natural and looms from the ordinary into the rich and unexpected.

The gift of Plumly’s poetry is exactly that “encounter with a whole range of objects and ideas,” into which everyone and everything is welcomed. In the Outer Dark introduces some of Plumly’s favorite themes: his family and his home state of Ohio; the art and artists he studied as an undergraduate; an attention to nature born of farm living and a love of walking; and finally, travel and the love of history it instills. Noticeably absent, however, are poems about birds; the Romantics, particularly Keats; and the technical and stylistic range he would display in later collections.

Stafford’s most prescient observation about Plumly’s work is that everything is “held firmly in language . . .” Plumly’s belief in the ability of language to preserve or resurrect what is loved, lost, past, or forgotten is a distinguishing feature of Plumly’s poems. “What is experience except its words?” Plumly asks in Against Sunset (2017). Indeed, what is anything except its words?

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Issue 35 Now Available!

*Cover Art by Elizabeth Decker

Issue 35 features the 2024 NOR Fiction Contest winning story “Mothers Above and Below” by Abby Horowitz, selected by Kate Bernheimer; the 2024 Nonfiction Contest-winning essay Survival of the Unfit: A Retrospective” by Jodie Noel Vinson, selected by Lily Hoáng; and the 2024 NOR Poetry Contest-winning poems “Covenant” and “It All Comes Down” by Gail Griffin and “Thinking About My Father’s Erector Set from 1948” by Jen Siraganian, selected by Naomi Shihab Nye.

In this issue, there is new poetry from Deborah Allbritain, Lory Bedikian, Susan Browne, Johnny Cate, Shelly Cato, Robin Rosen Chang, Hee-June Choi, Suzanne Cleary, Tim Craven, Julie Danho, Gregory Djanikian, Joanne Dominique Dwyer, Nancy Eimers, Elton Glaser, Jeffrey Harrison, Madalyn Hochendoner, John Hodgen, Ken Holland, Michael Derrick Hudson, Sally Rosen Kindred, Rose Lambert-Sluder, David Dodd Lee, Kelan Nee, William Olsen, Susan Blackwell Ramsey, Joyce Schmid, John Sieracki, Adrienne Su, David Thoreen, William Wenthe, and Emma Wynn. 

In addition to the NOR Contest-winners, we’re thrilled to present Rose Skelton’s essay “Fruiting Bodies” and stories by Craig Bernardini, Michael Carlson, Maria McLeod, Kaitlin Roberts, and Charlie Schneider.

Our Feature topic is Dance as Joy and Resistance, and we are proud to publish essays by Apoorva Bradshaw-Mittal, Mary Jo Firth Gillett, Therese Gleason, Sara Henning, Jennifer Schomburg Kanke, Christopher Kempf, Jesse Lee Kercheval, Hugh Martin, Sarah Nance, and Bonnie Proudfoot.

Our featured artist for the online presentation of issue 35 is Mateo Galvano. https://www.mateogalvano.com/

We hope you enjoy Issue 35, which you can order by visiting our online marketplace. Or, read selections of it by scrolling down.

Thanks for reading,
-The Editors

Of A Million Earths

By Susan Browne

One million earths could fit inside the sun
The thought of a million earths

makes me want to be a bee falling asleep inside a flower
It’s a fact: sometimes while gathering nectar bees get tired

& put their three pairs of legs over their five eyes
to block the sun which is halfway through its journey

of ten billion years
My mother loved sunsets at the beach

I remember once in Santa Barbara
our chairs close together on the sand

There’s no way to fact-check this
or that we chewed Juicy Fruit gum

& talked about things we’d never shared before
or that I kept looking at the freckles

on her knees because they made me
feel peaceful as a bee dreaming inside a dahlia

A billion years since that day with my mother
or seems like it

Her middle name was Marie
I brought a boombox to the church to play Ave Maria

A cold morning although the sun was shining
on the only known planet in the universe where life exists.


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Small Project

By William Wenthe

Two autumns ago, after our home
had broken up, my child and I
were left in a rugged way. If I were to paint it
with tempera on wet gesso, on a wall
in some palace chamber, it would be
a man carrying his daughter
who is holding a lantern for him.
This autumn we are settling in
to a new house; but that same pain—as if
the season, not us, were remembering it—
comes prying. Today, the same day
I begin the pills I’ve asked
the doctor for, whatever space
in the mind they might afford, I’m starting
a small project, a simple rack
for my daughter’s closet. It’s a habit
of making things, passed to me
by my father, but scant measure
to the skills of the man who made
a perfectly scaled four-poster bed
for a sister’s doll, as well as the life-size
bedroom where for years I slept.

Looking for a layer against
the season’s first chill, I reach for
a folded sweater on the high shelf
of my closet, one I’ve never worn before.
Though it’s thoroughly worn: shot-gunned by moths,
a ragged suture I sewed where the V-neck meets
the breastbone. It was twenty years ago,
this time of year, beginning
of the season for sweaters,
my father died. How strange now
to feel this sweater he wore, one
that I remember him in, cling to me
tight as old clothes I’ve outgrown.

Still I keep it on,
something I’ll work within
like this house where we now live,
with room for the two of us, but
small enough we have to imagine hard
how best it can be filled. Which is why
I’ve sawn a white pine board,
and will sand it, varnish, sand again;
and measure and drill, to fix the hooks
to hang the jackets, hoodies, and her prized
cow-print pajamas, now floor-strewn
like debris flown from the bed of a pickup.
She may or may not pick up
on the idea, also passed down, that one small thing
works into another, larger one: a jacket
on a hook, a hook on a board, fastened
to a wall holding up a roof, enclosing
the ongoing, unfinished project
of a house. The work, the daily intentions—
and the luck (all the apartments shelled
to ruins by one-eyed missiles)—the luck
to even have any of this—
careless, rich, flamboyant chance.


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Featured Art: “Figure in a Dream” by Mateo Galvano

Nazarene Dream

By Joanne Dominique Dwyer

I’m walking in the forest with the mythic and shirtless Nazarene.
He juts out his chin, orienting me to birds in the sky.
He does not name them, but says Mira, they are inside you.
Next, he gestures toward the silver fish glinting in the stream,
     also nameless, incandescent, gilled.
He is wearing capri-length drawstring pants and prison crocs,
admonishes me not to trust experts.

I am looking for signs of scars on his back, when he staggers
and trips on a rusted can in the switchgrass.
He confides he is saddened priests have lost the proclivity
    for contemplating constellations and cultivating orchids.
Says how pathetic it is that he has seen priests sitting at slot machines
    chain-smoking, looking more like saturnine wax figures
than supraliminal men (at or above the threshold of consciousness).

Jesus senses my hearing is waning and moves closer to me.
Close enough that I feel strands of his hair brush against the bones
of my cheek and the lobes of my ear as he says, Most humans
are unaware that seed pods make a pact with the wind
to aid in the proliferation of beauty. And semantics relates
not only to semen, but to the spinning of hand-dyed yarn.

As I walk behind him, I stare at the contours of his sweat-luminous,
bark-colored calves as he climbs over barren boulders.
No one in their right mind should expect much
    from marriage to another human being, he adds.
Then, straightaway, we are standing in a grove
of chokecherry, the velocity of the wind is mounting;
    afternoon shadows are lengthening. 

Together, we ingest handfuls of wild cherries.
They look like oxblood marbles or the bloodshot eyes of martyrs.
    I’m getting cold in the high altitude.
I ask him how to safeguard against incessant rupture.
    Unhobble the horses and sing the old songs, he replies.
And how to forgive a priest?
He does not swivel his body to me, seems isolate.
A soundless blackout ensues.

And just before the dream extinguishes,
Jesus wipes the smudged mascara from the cage of my face—
angles his torso down like a four-legged animal
pawing the earth and unlaces my combat boots.
Then re-laces them tighter, as if to protect
    my ankles on the descent.


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Kids Running After a Car

By Hee-June Choi

after the Korean War

Asphalt covered half the street; the rest was
overgrown with sunberries we ate. At the sound of a horn,
we ran to the car; in its bluish smoke, we saw
our future like a 3-D film. When my friend

JC tied his feet to the back bumper of a jeep
to sneak a ride, its engine started;
market people screamed as his bleeding head
was dragged for a hundred yards.

Our most daring venture was to the mountain cave
to dig out bullets for spinning tops’ axles.
But we had to cross locals’ territory––my forehead
still bears the scar of a thrown stone.

These road brawls ended when someone
in the cave shouted: Corpses!—soldiers in a mass grave.
Yet, those were carefree days. Dropping by any house
at mealtime, I ate with them if they laid me a place

—if not, I played next to their dinner table.
House doors were left unlocked:
what thief would steal an empty bag of rice?
In summer, we slept in the public pool’s storage shack,

no parents looking for us.
It was the children’s utopia: what we didn’t have,
we didn’t need. Even now, walking my suburban street
late at night, I snoop around for remnants of those days:

that sour tailpipe smoke must be a shimmer
in the air somewhere on Earth.


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Self-Portrait After Three Years in Outer Space

By Michael Derrick Hudson

My bones thin to slivers inside my filthy rig. I’m the wheezy ghost
haunting a plastic suit of armor, the unshriven soul

expiring within an infidel. My dreams run antiseptic, anachronistic
and celibate while the past keeps unspooling somewhere

behind my pineal gland. Screws loose, I make up all sorts of stuff
to tell them, happy things with a convincing kink

of lonesome. They say it’s for the greater good as my DNA chars

like bacon at the edges and a universe tumbles past my bulletproof
porthole. A mechanical lung, a toothpaste tube supper,

the chemical toilet where every one of my clods gets categorized,

bagged and sterilized. I perform my tasks upside-down, tapping
an antiseptic keyboard or watering my million-dollar

seedlings and teaching a herd of space worms zero-gravity lessons
of reward and punishment. Mission Control applauds

these efforts remotely, electronically. On cue, I’ll smile for the kids
and urge them to work hard and stay in school, reading

with a pixilated grin from an inviolable script
plugging science, math, the digital approach to all our catastrophes . . .

But off-camera I coin better names for the Mission: Jugged Chimp.
Scrubbed Purpose. The Immaculate Reduction.

Canned Epiphany. Celestial Funk. Deficit Boondoggle. Minerva

Shrugged. Apollo Wept. My apostasy runs Ptolemaic, heliocentric,
chthonic, wrong. Patched-in and monitored, salaried

and pensioned, my pulse ping ping pings. I’m the life-support blip
on a faraway screen, another protocol, another

something else evaluated, budgeted, and all gotten down to a science.


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Heaven

By Michael Derrick Hudson

Almost everything got in. Even the dinosaurs stomp around
the hot tubs and gazebos, haloes shimmering over

their massive intelligent skulls, grunting Alleluias. Atheists

made it too, although they have to wear little red beanies so
we know who to gently tease for corporeal

hopelessness and infidelity: Cheer up, Christopher Hitchens!

After a while, you grow used to the bliss: not once twanging
the wrong note, lathering and shampooing

each other, sexless, in tepid frothy pools of serotonin, loving

equally each one of my great-great-great-great-grandmas and
second cousins twice-removed and each one

of my dead cats taking turns to rub, purring,
against my hairless ankles. Princess! Plato! Hodge-Podge!

Rubber mice. Mandatory self-esteem. Beauty locked
in perpetuity. The standard-issue smile. The perfect Boss . . .

So mostly I like it here. The reassurance
of the unambiguously blameless, the expulsion of froideur

and doubt. It’s perpetual sunrise over a greeny-green garden
where our only lion pads by, obliged to nuzzle

our celestial lamb chewing its celestial cud. But no flyblown
scat, no blood-stained tooth. No hangovers.

No broken hearts. Sure, sometimes I miss a liony feral glint,
an unappeasable urge, the gross sentimentality

of loss. Sometimes I just want something careworn, regretful,
dilapidated, or stupid. Sometimes you just want

to fuck with them. Today, I got a demerit for goofing around
when ordering lunch: scorched coffee, black as hell,

a day-old chocolate donut with sprinkles, a quart of rye, and

a very specific spring lamb on a skewer, half-raw
half-charred. Not funny! But in Heaven records get expunged.

There’re no penalties, no parole. There’s nowhere else to go . . .


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